It has been a long long time. Oh the stuff that has happened in the last few months. Dated a guy named Joe for a little while. Thought I was serious about him but he turned out to be one of the world's biggest losers and douchebags. Since him I have finally fallen in love with a guy who possesses everything I've wanted in a male. For once I don't have to sit around craving attention and affection from someone. He just does it. I don't have to wonder if it is ok to just kiss him because or cuddle with him. I am so comfortable with him and so at ease. So I am moving to Evansville, Indiana to be with him in a week and a half. I can't wait! I'm going to miss my family and friends so so much but I am so looking forward to starting a life with him. Who knows, maybe babies and marriage will soon follow! Although at the rate we are going, the babies are going to come a lot sooner than the marriage part( if I can have babies that is).

In other news ,my brother Ray's 16 year old girlfriend is pregnant. She is half El Salvadorian/ half italian. Ray says that if it is a boy they are going to name him Jayden and if it is a girl Teilor. Both pretty names. So now my friend Pris is prego, Sam is prego, and my brother's girlfriend is Prego. I want to be prego damn it! lol. I'm looking forward to yet another baby in the family. If it is a girl she will be sooo pretty with dark skin and dark hair. Please have a girl. Please have a girl lol. I'm sick of all these damn boys!

So I realized that I hadn’t gone into full detail about the few dates I had been on lately. So let me spill the beans!

Ok date numero Uno..Clay

Clay is a tall skinny redhead. Not red red but more like strawberry blonde red hair. With cute freckles on his arms. He had some on his face but they were really light. Thank god! Cause seriously I’m not a huge fan of redheads for the most part just because of the freckle thing. This guy was an exception though. So the good points first shall I.

He was very attentive.

He bought me beer!!!

Always looked me in the eyes when he talked to me

Asked a lot of questions about ME and didn’t go on and on about himself.

Told me I looked good (major bonus points)

Was a great kisser!(um yah we kissed but that was it k!)

Had so much in common with me. It was crazy!

The bad point………………….He’s 21. I hate dating guys younger than me! But he did seem a lot more mature then most guys. Hmm. Maybe. We have talked plenty of times since then and may meet up sometime this weekend.

DATE NUMERO DOS-Matt

Matt is about 5’7, where as I’m 5’9. Met him off myspace.com . He’s very funny and cool. Great personality for the most part. He kind of looks like John which is really scary. No offense john! Lol. The good points.

He had very nice eyes

He told me I was hot!

Listened when I talked

Was a good kisser(yes I kissed him too but that was it!)

The bad points…………………..After the second date he said that he just lost interest in me. Personally I say he lost interest in me because he tried to have sex with me and I wouldn’t do it. Hmm….How do you go thinking someone is hot one day to the next completely losing interest? Especially when he had been all over me making out the night before? No, he was mad cause I wouldn’t put out. Sorry a-hole. No actually we talked about it and though he didn’t admit that I have no problems with him. That’s life.

Date NUMERO TRES-Anthony

Very cute guy. About 6’2. Bigger guy but very proportional. Nice dresser, nice eyes, Nice smile..

The good points

He paid for my dinner

The bad points………….Uh he never looked me in the eyes when he talked, he kept texting on his phone the whole time. Need I say more? Highly doubt there will be a date #2 with that guy but hey.

So yah there is a little about my last few dates. Oh and John, just to let you know, I am REALLY happy that you found a girl that is as into you as you are her. I mean that!!!!!

MOVIE REVIEW

 Diary of a Mad Black Woman

Starring Tyler Perry as Madea and Brian and Madea's annoying brother. Kimberly Elise as Helen the grieving divorcee. Steve Harris as Charles her crazy jerk off of a husband..and oh so hot Shemar Moore as Orlando, her new love interest.

OK  if you are a huge romantic like myself you will absolutely love this movie! Especially if you get moved by beautiful christian music too because the music in this movie is so heart wrenchingly beautiful. 

Anyway, this movie is pretty much about a woman who is a devoted wife to a jerk off for 18 years. Then on their anniversary finds out he not only has had a girlfriend for forever but also has two kids with said skank hoe. In one night her world is turned upside down and the luxurious and lavish lifestyle she is used ceases to exist. She then goes to move in with her aunt Madea in the ghetto and there she finds herself and who she really is...There is so much hilarity along the way. Tyler Perry plays Aunt Madea, and Madea's brother, and Brian, who is Helen's cousin struggling with two kids and a crackhead for a wife. It is a very moving and realistic movie to a point. Shemar Moore who plays Orlando(the wonderful completely sickingly perfect man she ends up getting with in the end) is probably the most unrealistic character in the whole bunch. Ok I love romance but everything that comes out of that man's mouth is so cheeseballish(if that is a word.) For instance, in one part Helen asks him why he loves her and he says "Because if I'm away from you for an hour, I can't stop thinking about you. I carry you in my spirit, I pray for you more than I pray for myself, when you smile my whole world is right." Ugh Gag me with a freakin spoon!!! Can you please just lather the cheese on! I'm sorry but guys like that just don't exist!! Then later in the movie he tells her that he knows she doesn't believe in fairytales but that if she did he would want to be her knight in shining armor. That he might not have everything in the world but he could love her past her pain...Ok I'll grant that the last part was kind of cute and sweet, but the whole knight and shining armor bit was a lil much. Plus how many guys do you know that actively pursue a woman who is just getting out of a divorce unless they just want to get in her pants? Not many.  So while I loved this movie a whole whole lot I would definitely say that if you aren't a hopeless romantic like myself you might not be able to deal with Orlando's cheeseball lines. But if you like good comedy(Madea is hilarious!!) and beautiful music then you should definitely check this movie out. Plus the main guy characters in the movie are soooooooo sexy. I'm now a hardcore Shemar Moore fan.MMMMMMMM. Break me off a piece of that.

I've had quite a few sucky days lately. My best friend and roomie caught her husband cheating on her. Not once, but twice, within a week. When she told me I just sat there and cried with her. It was heartbreaking to me. The second time we both caught him and Jessica kind of spazzed out and ended up jumping out of my car while it was still running and beating the crap out of this girl. It was hilarious! I mean Jessie had never been in a fight in her life, but let me tell you, when you have that rage in you from catching your man cheating, you will black out. Guaranteed. That is what she did. She ended up getting arrested and spent a few hours in jail but since she had never been in trouble before she got out on an OR bond.

Don's moving to texas sometime this week for a construction job. I've cried over it enough. If he wants to leave me for a job then I'm fine with that. He needs to do what he must. I spent most of our relationship second guessing everything he did, wondering what he was doing when I wasn't there, gripping at him for this and that...Obviously we weren't meant to be. So I've actually went on a couple of dates in the last few days. Went  on a date with this guy Matt last night. He was really cool. Went on a date with a guy named Clay on Friday last week. He was a lot of fun too. Never have I clicked with someone so much. We talked about everything under the sun. Plus he is tall and dorky looking and has red hair. So cute. lol We will see what happens. Sorry I've been hiding from everyone. Just not feeling up to talking much. Thanks again John for calling and checking up on me.

Steph

I changed my diary back to the way it was. That layout was awesome but it just cut off too much of the left side and it drove me nuts. Sam feel free to play around with my xanga more and if you find a cool harry potter or another eminem layout go to town!

So I've decided to just quit with the whole Keri thing. She is the one who personally attacked me in her other diary, and who said things about me that she couldn't just come directly out and tell me...But I've decided I'm better than all of this. I'm better than someone who feels they need to have their friends attempt to verbally attack me(which didn't work by the way, and only succeeded in making me giggle uncontrollably). I don't need to judge her. Eventually others will see her for what she is. Thank you both for making me realize that I don't need to stoop as low as you both. Glad I learned that little lesson. Glad we had this chat!