Interests:hmm....i like to draw, write and listen to music!! i like to jump around!! dance!! and play piano!! i like to talk!! ^_^ and i LOVE CUTE THINGS!!! ^_^ I also love being dramatic!! and i exagerate mostly everything!! its fun!! i like just quietness and just sitting looking up at the sky and smelling the frsh air! ^_^ Expertise:hmm....drawing?! talking?! getting annoyed?! holding grudges?! listening?! helping?! asking questions?! reading?! ummm...what am i an expert in....if it wasn't because i don't know how to spell and i am to lazy to look for it i would use a vocab word....how about...CUTE THINGS!!! ^_^ Occupation:Student
it's been a week now, here....tomorrow will be Monday....it will soon be 2010!!!
I have been spending nice relaxing days....filled with thoughts of the future....thoughts of what I want to be when I'm older.... I wonder if its too much to start now....but then again....is there ever an exact day to start in the end....? If i keep putting it off....it will never get done....
For once....I think I'm absolutely ready to let it all go into the wind....why? because I think I started being old enough a long time ago.....so I will try my best to start my endeavors.....hopefully....hahaha
Also....going around half naked is not so bad at all.....hahahaha Except for the cold, it's actually alright....but then again, my shirts are long enough that i don't really need pants....hahaha, even when i wear shorts it looks like i'm not wearing anything underneath....
Been wondering if there really are people in the floors below me....I'm sure there are....but I dont really care enough to check.....I just keep on singing as loud as i want and putting on the tv as loud as i want.... tsk tsk, i'm sure if they are bothered they'll come and tell me....or just think i'm a bitch for doing that....but egghh.... they won't get anywhere in life if they don't try to speak up....and that's just me being lazy and inconsiderate for a bit....egghh....
flowers are still al ive..but prob start dying soon since they've flowered already....probably start dying off.... my friend's fishes are still alive.... and i was completely licked by a golden retriever....it was fun....i still like cats....but Gus was fun...hahaha.... Hazel, she was more aloof than Gus....but i heard her last owner had beat her...so yeah, poor Hazel....
Had a weird dream i had a bf.....i don't even talk to the guy....sure he is not mean or uncomfortable to look at.... but it still....its him....i try to avoid talking to him....i do say hi and whatnot cause well, he is in my class....and will be there next semester....but still....and fine, he is not that scary as i thought he was, after all, he likes taylor swift and trans siberia orchestra....but still....he's still rather scary and intimidating and definitely forgotten he was in my class and whatnot until i had that with him....but he was really sweet and i bet he would be a good boyfriend, so congrats to whoever his girlfriend is and whenever he gets one i guess....beats me.... still....makes me think that what is up with me and the guys in my italian class? hahaha, which reminds me....i think luke may be coming back this semester.....and i'm not going to lie, but the thought of seeing him again makes my heart beat just a tiny bit faster....hahaha but, alas, prob won't see him anyways.....dude, i'm paranoid enough without him being here this past semester... *groan* not cool....
but anyhow....my arms hurts like mother effer....i guess i been sleeping wrong...dude, i even woke up in the middle of the night because of the intense arm pain, i didn't even sleep well....i think i did some arm exercises in between waking up and going back to sleep...stupid arm....oh, and it rained today.....
also, almost done with that book that i started lake a semester ago...hahaha.....just need one quarter of it left.... could prb finish it today but egghh....didn't feel like keeping on reading....
well....got to...not really...but i like this song.... So i'm gonna go and rock out to it!! luv ya!
Today, it finally started snowing...... It is finally, winter here.....this coming week is the last week of classes, and then we have finals.... It is then break.... Yesterday night, I bonded with some people from italian, it was pretty cool....we sang along to songs on the radio...
Can't believe Christmas is here already....another year has gone, makes me wonder where did this past year go? Makes me wonder, just how much time do I really have in this world?
I remember rereading my blogs from before....embarrassing, and overly depressing......god, was I emo....still am... What do I want for Christmas? Tough question....there isn't really anything I want....
Christmas list Christmas card Stuffed Animal Books: mainly art history subject or peanuts or batman or horror Tamales A CD A movie Bath and Body works Sweater
Hahaha, and that is pretty much the only things I would really want....but nothing that you guys didn't already know about me....
Dudes, I will be needing mail addresses for me to send your christmas card.
Life is horrible, just throwing that out there. Different topics rush through my head, getting me depressed, getting me excited and happy, getting me scared, getting me anxious, getting me apathetic.... I got an A- on my art test.....got full points on one of my essays which is the reason why I got an A-....I am proud of myself....for once in my life, I feel like I've fully earned it...i felt accomplished....but I can't tell anyone, because I feel like I'm being conceited or something....sigh.... I think about the coming winter, and I get excited, because i think about having a white christmas, and for once, i'll get my wish....and it'll be nice.... I think about my sunflowers....and I feel....nothing....I look at them, and feel tired....but hopeful...but then tired...and then....I'm just like....why does it matter in the end.... I think about my five little pills....i stare....and wonder....am I really depressed....is it all in my mind? am i really crazy? I think about it...and i just feel...sigh....like its all flashing by me....Like, i'm sitting here....and the world and the world is revolving around me....and I'm....nothing.... I sit here....and wonder....so many thoughts and worries and doubts....why? why is happiness scary? why is change so scary? why are tehre so many fears within me?
Been thinking since watching, Veronica wants to Die.....about those lists....things to do before you die.... Maybe I should make my own list....Maybe i should make a list of things i have done.... I don't know... I didn't go to classes today.....just slept....got to wake up early tom and finish some readings....
Also...its about to snow soon....not looking forward to it....blah.... its going to be soooo cold....hahaha....
I am obssessed with Glee.....sort of makes me want to dance and sing...e.xcept....i can't sing...so hahaha I can dance, you give me a choreography and a song, and hey, I'm all down for it.... After all, i was in a dance class, and i did join dance groups.....so I'm used to it....so I'll be okay with the dancing... would not be okay with the singing.....hahaha....
It's almost John's bday....O_O Also.... I cannot believe I just got hook on America and Mexico, being together...hahaha Or a America fighting against Spain protecting Mexico.... though...i have a problem....I love guy and guy relationships.... but I totally think that a personification of Mexico would have to be GIRL!!! Come on, Mexican women are fierce i tell you! that and I'm a bit of a feminist! lol
so yeah...now, instead of memorizing all the 200 pictures for my test on monday, i'm trying to figure out if the show will ever have mexico, and if so, when!!! hahaha, now i won't be able to look at countries without seeing them as people and imagining them making out....O_O
anyways, just wanted to say that...
Ciao ciao!! and a bit of french, thrown in with.... Je t'aime!! <3 lol
There are so many things going on in the world... People die all the time.... Some hit closer to home than others.... Everyone has problems....that is a for sure....
Halloween....i tried watching the mist.....once again.... i couldn't..... i remembered it clearly, and my blood boiled....just the thought of it, the thought of human nature.... it angers me and saddens me.....
i'm a bit scare at getting phone calls at the moment.... in fear that the next call will bring the death of someone even closer to my heart....
you know, he remembered me and asked my mom where i was a month ago, when my mom went to visit him... which makes sense, because when i was little we were always going to visit him, and during vacation too....
you know, he was the only one i ever really considered an uncle....
i really do hope i get the job this winter break, maybe i can save money and go to mexico for spring break? visit them....take flowers to his grave....
my sunflowers are growing....i'm glad.... i met my roommates mom and brother...they are nice.... they got me hangers....
thank you john, for being there, and i'm sorry for bothering you with my problems.....
i kind of wish i had family here, i wish i had someone who knew him here, so i can talk and share memories.... or just lay my head upon someone's lap and enjoy peace and warmth.... i wish i could help my aunt....to lose....and so suddenly.... i just have to pray, for my mom and my cousins and my aunt....my dear aunt.....
there are 9 days of prayer left....i shall do my best to do it here.... to remember him and mourn....
now i have to go and for sure study for tomorrow.... have test....blah....
much love and enjoy life and family and relatives and just....everything.... because they don't live forever....and one day they'll be gone...leaving only memories.... once again, thank you John, no idea how much it means to me to have had you there, maybe not here here, but you still listened to me, and tried....so thank you...
