hmm.. well just came home. did alot of things i needed to do today. i went for work interview this afternoon and somehow made her angry. i'm sorry kae =) well, then i somehow made her smile again hehe. we went to dhoby ghaut to enquiry bout my private studyin. it cost me almost $1100 just to take one combined science. hmm.. science practical costs $450 alone. hmm. =/ well.. had some fun with her in ajisen ramen later.. we were playing with coke and sprite, we challenge each other to bottled up. you could just see a cup dere right in front of you but when we drink it, we cant stop luffing. we hold on each other's straw. and luff so loudly.. anyway we ate tomyam ramen, soft shell crab, tako yaki, teriyaki chicken, prawn and also the rice which she wanted.. =D hehe. well, went to arcade to play soccer and yes i completed =) hehe.

anyway just finish watching the 1/2 fate (translated) so touching. hmm.. i wonder when will i have the right time to tell her all these. how i wish i really got knocked down by a car or get slashed by a knife to prove my love for her. i'm serious. anyway my shades fell onto the ground today and somehow got cut. well, bought LOTR for my mom, hehe. i'm fillial huh ? =x anyway change my blog's song too. hmm.. hope it will be a new start for me since i found a job and also my school. =)

big thanks to you, jinwei. for giving me in at times. i will work hard =) i love you >.<

edited my blog. going out nw for interview then to apply for private. hmm.. ytd real madrid lost !! argh.. what a goal from zalayeta =/ anyway march 20 and 21 i think gt LOTR felloship of the ring on TV. TV PREMIERE =D hehe anyway gonna meet her soon. hmm.. miss her sho much. =D

at night come back then reblog again bahz. come often kae. i will be blogging everyday i hope and also tag ah !! =J

finally finished my job and i got my pay !! er.. not so bad actually.. well, cant ask for much for a two weeks work as promoter.. now i'm in aust !! its so cool here.. ppl here are wonderful.. as in they are polite and friendly dey say hi or hello to u when u look at them.. or in lifts dey will say how do u do  or smth like this.. hmm.. i'm in gold coast now, surfers paradise to be exact.. from my resort's view i can see the beach.. so nice.. nicer den sentosa 1000000000 times.. the waves 24/7 one.. sumore v nice..  haa.. just came back from the beach just now.. playing with waves.. guess how far out i'm at ? normally in sentosa, u walk i think 5m-10m liddat u must stop le.. here i walk until near 100m still surviving.. wahaha.. alot surfers.. den the wave zzz so high.. can cover my head.. hehe.. well, i only play and look at water, nothing else.. hehe i good boy hor ? =x i must be good ok, if not my xiaopo dont want me.. =D so..... i'm obedient ? forget spelling !!  hmph, tomo going to swim again in the morning ard 7+ thats ard 5+ in the morning in singapore time !! well, den we check out den move on to brisbane for shopping.. hmph, today my papa going casino.. hope he win later.. ok bahz.. i gotta go le..

i miss her alotz.. i also thought bout times i didnt quite treasure her.. now i understand the feeling.. i wanna get back to her and give her the biggest hug a thinnest boy can give.. well, today i went to movie world.. i saw LOLA BUNNY, thats bugs bunny's gf if u dont know.. haha so cute !1 =) ok la i go le.. tomo or day after den blog bahz.. see ya !!  jw, tell ya smth, its thurs day here !! that means.. 2 more days !!!!!!!!! rmb ahz.. saturday 12th feb T2 8.40-9.00 ahz.. hope u can be there.. i miss ya to core !! la u.. made me lub u so much =D hao bahz.. dont mushy here le, we mushy  ourselves bahz.. i v selfish de.. so cannot anyhow mushy mushy de.. =D kae la dont play le.. wait for me to come back ya !!  MUACKS !!!!!!!!!!!!

damn. i'm a useless boy, .... or rather a man since i'm wearing those working shirts everyday now with a sweet green tie or the complicated "eiffel tower" tie.

today is the day i realised why things have not been going smooth in the past. deep deep thinking is useful sometimes.. i knew i was wrong, i didnt know what to do.. last time i knew was wrong too but last time what i knew was wrong, i tried to correct it in "my" way but "my" way is WRONG again.

now i really know what is right,  and i feel like shit now. i was just a disgrace in front of my girlfriend, i'm being too much and have gone overboard, i always think i am right but guess what .. i was wrong all the while.. !! i just suck, yes, i really do suck. i'm not fishing for any compliments from anyone but i just admit i do suck. i'm someone who thinks i'm always right, i'm selfish, i'm just a piece of crap taken out from the dustbin. i'm now a crap, not u anymore. and i do mean it, when i think back of what i do in the past, i'm a sickass fuck, i really suck to the core of the corest core. no one can beat me really. i really have to do some punishment myself. i really wish someone would scold me now, hit me. no one's is punishing me for my sins.. i feel even guilty.i'm lucky that she still loves me, to give me a chance in simpler terms. i really duno what to say to her, but only to apologise and to change anew. "my" way is crap, i have to thanks felicia and kelly for helping me somehow, someway ..

anyway i went home with a twisted fries and a can of BEER, they didnt check my IC and i just hope it could help me forget my problems, its so dramatic i know, i already suck so i dont care what others think, i then sat down at the bus stop and dream.. kae. just hope things start to smoothens.. and btw when i was going home, james meet jasmine, and she came along with her colleague, something interesting happened, someone knew how to read my life from my palm, its jasmine's friend. she is so pro. what she said was true, everything yes. i was amazed, she read jasmine's and james too. she said her tuition teacher is a monk and he learnt it from thailand. omg. i'm gonna start reading life tomo !! but still sad now. kae, gotta go. take care all. *gone