Mellowed out huh Jenna?!  Damn i am so fucking exhausted.  This weekend has been so fun yet tiring.  Jenna and I stayed over at Victor and John's Friday night - we had about two packs that night...and it was so cold.  John made me pancakes in the morning, then they had to leave for a bit to kick some ass - in the meantime Jenna and I raided the kitchen.  I need some sleep. 

Currently Playing Give Up By Postal Service see related

- This PLace is a Prison

Jenna is coming over tomorrow we're going over to a friend's apartment - i shouldn't say who or a million people will end up showing up at the place - annoying girls galore that i just sometimes want to shoot - and it shall get busted again so i better not.  A poem I wrote when I was down...some parts I left out...it is quite depressing

...with such deft grace
Times like these I do embrace
I close my eyes - my lips are numb
Why do I always let myself succumb

I lay there - unable to move
My life - I disapprove
Loved ones seem to drift farther and farther away
Is this the ultimate price I must pay?

Everything is blurred in a dark haze
My life is empty nowadays
Is this what my life consists of
Dark, depressing, lacking love?

Tired wakes of no tomorrow
.... to appease my undying sorrow
The room, the people - time goes fast
My heart ...., I lay aghast

I close my eyes yet again
My past, my present all mix in
Images of winter flood my mind
The snow, the flurries intertwine

I feel my....
The ... disappears I must be blind

-Lauren Baker

Omg so much shit has happened since my last entry...Christina is coming back on Monday but she is moving to San Antonio - fuck.  Last weekened was craazy - spent the nite at edgar's with vanessa because he was home alone - crazy night so much fun - we were so paranoid because we heard noises in his new house.  I ended up getting about 45 minutes of sleep.  great...it was basically like that all weekend...spent the nite at kacey's twice and that was iffy about the whole pierre bullshit.  haha prank calling ex-boyfriends who are assholes is so much fun. 

I am so depressed...Xtina's parents sent her away to boarding school rehab in Cali.  She gave me her beta fidh to take care of..."fishy" aw i miss her so much.  **sigh**

I went to Deep Ellum last night with heather and kruger and we just chilled and her id was ConFiScAtEd by the fucking bouncer dammit...we went to a few clubs though...it was like 2:30 am and Crome was closed.  Crazy night.  ya heather almost got us killed by yelling out crazy comments to guys that hitt on us.  *muah*