天时地利人和很重要

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高中三年交过五个女朋友，有一个女孩子，我很爱她，却迟迟不敢追，她没有美丽的面孔,没有姣好的身材，没有撩人的魅力，一个再平凡不过的女孩子。 我喜欢她，真的真的很喜欢她，喜欢她的单纯，她的直率，她的可爱，她的脆弱。

不追她的原因，也许是潜意识觉得平凡如她配不上我；也许是因为怕在一起后，一切好感都会消失；也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她；也许是觉得，她会是我的，不急着为了她而放弃一切。 最后这个原因，让她陪了我三年，让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年，让她心痛了三年。

她很想当一个好演员，但我却像一个严苛的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻，被她撞见，她尴尬的笑笑说：「Go on！」然后跑掉，第二天，她眼睛肿得像核桃 一样，我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样，嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家后，在教室哭了起来，她不知道练球回来拿东西的我，看了她一个多小时。

我的第四个女朋友，一直很不喜欢她，有次她们两个吵了起来，我知道依她的个性不会去惹事，但我还是护着女朋友，她被我吼了一下后，愣住，眼泪滑了下来，我无视她的眼泪，陪女友走出教室，第二天，她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑，我知道她很难过，但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。

当我和第五个女朋友分手时，我约她出去玩，玩了一天，我对她说：「我有事要对妳说。」她说：「真巧，我也有事要对你说。」「我和她分手了。」「我和他在一起了。」我知道「他」是谁，他追她也有一阵子了，是个蛮可爱的男孩子，活泼有趣，充满了热情，追她追得满城风雨。

我不能表现自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但当我回到家，心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受，像有个千斤重的石头压在我胸口，我无法呼吸，想大叫却叫不出来，眼泪竟然滑了下来，我掩面大哭，多少次，我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。

毕业典礼时，我在手机上发现了一封简讯，这是十天前，我掩面大哭时传来的，只是我一直没有去开过机。

「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」

25/08 mon - 31/08 sun
lets just assume...
im either..
working
or
gaming
or
sleeping.
at least for now its like tat and will be like tat.. >_<

was on MC on wed. gastric and headache. but the best part is.. i cant find my mc now. zzz
eyes infection follows.. and i could barely open my swollen eyes by nite time.
thurs my eyes were still swollen and painful.. but because of some "things"..
i went back to work.. went down to the airport at nite.. i cried in the end.. after everyone left..

i was suppose to study on fri i didnt.. i played game.
i was suppose to study on sat i didnt.. i end up sleeping half way thru.
i regret that on sun. after i saw the paper.
ji tao no mood anymore.

18/08 mon
wrk + jpt + cck + hm..
after wrk.. jpt for dinner with zhuxiaodi and bendan no 2.. den to cck to pak game..
left cck at 10.. went home.. sleep!

19/08 tues
wrk + jpt + hm..
after wrk.. jpt dinner.. and waited for zhuxiaodi and ah lung to finish work with bendan no 2..
pak game til close to 11.. went home..

20/08 wed
wrk + jpt + je +  hm..
after wrk.. jpt dinner.. den to je to watch <<money not enough 2>> again with zhuxiaodi, ah lung and bendan no 2.. after show.. went home.. sleep!

21/08 thurs
wrk + hm + his plc..
unbearable remarks yet again...y? cannot understand..
my eyes were so painful at the end of the day..

went down to je first.. den back hm... very tired! went over to uncle place.. sleep at 10+..

22/08 fri
wrk + jpt + cck..
yes. we pak game overnite! level up for me! 
its a pity zhuxiaodi nv join us... coz he had to go back to KL..

23/08 sat
went home in the morning.. slept all the way til 11+ at nite.. and woke up to eat my supper.. and watch tv abit.. surf net abit.. den went back to sleep again at 3+..

24/08 sun
woke up at 11+.. had my lunch after bathing.. did abit of my hmwrk.. den went down to town..
after lesson.. went down to uncle place..
slept at 11+.. i had plans to wake up early to study.. but den again.. my plan never once works. *shrugs*

11/08 mon
wrk + imm + cck + hm..
after wrk.. went down to imm to pak game... and contd to pak game at cck..
and stupid me.. miss the last bus to go back.. had to take cab at je.. =_=

12/08 tues
wrk + jpt + his plc..
after wrk... jpt dinner with bendan no2 and ah lung den pak game.. den kanna drag to cck by this two kids.. reason? to acc them cck.. @#$%^&
reach his plc.. laze abit.. sleep..

13/08 wed
wrk + jpt + his plc..
after wrk... jpt.. dinner with xiaozhu and bendan no2 den waited for ah lung to finish work.. had his dinner den pak game til all batt flat.. went over to uncle place...
laze abit.. sleep..

14/08 thurs
wrk + his plc + je + hm..
after wrk.. went over to his plc.. den to je.. den back home..
feeling very... depress... over some.. hurtful remarks..

15/08 fri
wrk + jpt + je + hm..
sleeping for 1hr = dazed at work...
after wrk.. went to jpt to meet xiaozhu for dinner...
den went to je with bendan no 2 for movies... <<The Midnight Meat Train>>.. the first time i see guy watch show until curl up.. =x after tat... sat at mac tok cock to wait for the second show..
and the stupidest thing happen.. we went to the wrong theatre... end up watchign ONLY second half of the show..
and wen we realise tat.. and went to the correct theatre... we went up watching the same part again.. -_-... so i didnt actually watch <<12Lotus>>.. i watch <<5*2 Lotus>>... -_-zzz

after the show.. we sat down at mac.. eat sumthings... pak game.. and by den it was oready close to 4.. so we went up sitting at mac til morning (in preparation for next friday war =Z).. -_-"

16/08 sat
had breakfast.. before gg home..
reach home.. and so.. i slept.. and slept.. and slept.. and slept...
and waking up in between.. i contd to sleep!

17/08 sun
woke up oni finally like.. close to 24hrs of sleep..
im old.. canot take this kind of nonsense animore.. -_-"

04/08 mon
wrk + hm..
after wrk.. went home...

05/08 tues
wrk + je + hm..
after wrk.. went to je.. watch <<the mummy>> with dbx.. den went back home..

06/08 wed
wrk + jpt + hm..
after wrk.. went to jpt.. waited for my colleague with another colleague and friend..
and so..
the addiction to MH2G begins.. >.<

07/08 thurs
wrk + je + hm..
after wrk... went down to je.. den waited for zhuxiaodi and chs as it was like oready close to 8 when im done... had dinner.. and pak monster til 10+ den went home! reach home.. contd to pak.. damn it.. damn it..

08/08 fri
wrk + jpt + hm..
after wrk.. went down to jpt with chs and dl.. waited for zhuxiaodi.. mr car came later on too.. and while waiting..
its.. oways.. forever... pak monster... =x
watch <<Journey to the Centre of the Earth>>..

09/08 sat
woke up.. laze ard a bit.. study abit.. den went back to sleep..
woke up only in the evening.. den went over to uncle place..
after dinner... contd to laze abit... den decided to sleep first den wake up to study..
obviously.. wrong decision.... zzz

10/08 sun
woke up.. study abit.. sleep back.. den wake up.. study a bit again.. sleep back.. -_-"
i knew i was done for... the test is... not exactly difficult.. if u really study.. u noe wat i mean.. -_-"
after class.. went down to tbp walk abit.. watch <<money not enough 2>> with uncle...
den went back to uncle place..