boom. first entry of 2006. thats like  wao.

i am like so damn glad that i submitted my uc application. since wenxin edited the essay for me, perhaps my entrance to uc school would be easier. joey told me that 86% of the students who at least applied for 4UC will get in one at least. i really hope to get into berkeley, its like my only hope. man.... i wonder if i will really get into berkeley. the thought of it just makes me stress.

no idea why i blogged here, perhaps i thought that maybe i have a little more privacy here on this blog since only joey and tyo knows about it.and perhaps some idiots from the past who will visit this blog, but its kinda impossible for them to check on this site.

my roommate is moving out like tomorrow and most probably the chances of me seeing him is like gonna be impossible. half a year later, the same thing is going to happen again, people part and leave. make new friends and start a new life else where. isnt that the same thing that happened to me like 1 year ago when i left for america. seperating is always tough i guess, why cant people just to treasure things when they are around.

 i dont know if i should be sad or happy about it. like hes finally transfering after a long period of time.. so i should be glad for him. now that hes gone, im gonna have a new roommate which i dont know who is he gonna be and how is he gonna be like. kinda freaky though, like you dont even know who you gonna live with. life is full of fucked up situation i guess. richard is kinda innocently irritating at times, but hes funny too. hahaha, man i think ill miss him after he goes to washington.

i guess humans only know how to treasure things after they are about to be lost. mistake to always not realize your mistake. well

i first started out blogging with this account. i think the only one around with my link is weiling cause she forgot to update her dumb blog links. but oh well forget it. if someone happens to comeby this blog then i guess its just too bad for me that they read the contents inside, and i guess joey will be reading this if she happens to click on my name on her eprops.

this blogsite kinda bring me back lots of memories in high school. although i changed my blog addresses and the server several time, i forgot to delete this xanga blog. this blog is like the evidence of me during high school. maybe i shouldn't be so americanized and keep using " high school ". its secondary school. i realized so many unpleasant things that happened in secondary school. too many to even start counting. i was reading the last few entry, it was me who was unsure about my future in america. thats me, AND WHAT THE ^$$%&$%&$#. when you type indodarwin on google, you can actually find my darn xanga blog address. if thats the case, i shall stop blogging here. i hate it when people know so much about me,( not as if they would bother to come even know me ) cause i'll feel so vulnerable from people. well whatever.

i need to succeed. i need. i really need to. and failure should never be in the dictionary, for me.