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| Those last blog entries were just being emo....or something. I guess. Blahblahblahblah. Everything was just gay. My cat was scratching at my door wanting outside, and it was so annoying. So I got up to let it outside, and here I am on the computer. -_-.........Tina and I are back together now. We have been ok with eachother, past three days. I just pissed her off a second ago on the phone, but that was because I was talking to her when I was half asleep. Believe me, I say weird shit when I am either just waking up, or about to fall asleep. I suppose just like anyone else does. :\ We are ok now, of course. I just had to explain. I don't know what else to say really. Just got bad new about my friend Josh today. Supposedly his father committed suicide. At first I found it hard to beleive, but everyone was dead serious about it. It is really disturbing, since I just talked to his dad the other day. He seemed happy about things. Just goes to show how you never know what is going on under the calm and collected facade of any person. I really need to call him, but I am scared to. I don't know what to say yet. I think it would have to be an in person kind of thing. I just don't know what to think about it.
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| All I want, is my true love here with me. I have all of my physical possessions here now, in my room. Nothing will make me happy though. I am not happy, unless I can share those possessions with the one I have love for, more than anything else in this world. I always ended every day, knowing that I would see her again the next day. That is when I was content with my life. Now, I know her love for me is at risk for complete and total ellimination. I never took her love for me for granted, I always knew that my love for her was there, every second of the day, she is what I would think of as I drifted off to sleep. I meant it when I said, "I'll dream of you, Tina." Still, her face runs through my mind. With every smile I remember, the more I cry, for I might not get to see that smile again. And if I am graced with her presence once more, I will be happy. I just need to know if the feeling she once had, is still even slightly in her heart. How could one fall out of love so easily.
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| I just wish we could go back to when she still loved me and everything was pure. Nothing more, nothing less. I would still give my life for her. I would give my soul just to be loved by her again. I want there to be a chance left. That is why I am miserable, because there probably isn't one. I will keep wishing though, that she would just come back the next day, and we could hug eachother and I kiss her on the forehead. Like it used to be. I still love her.
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| There is nothing left to care about. There is no one to be there for me now. I didn't want it to all fall apart so suddenly, but i'm not the one for her. I don't even know what happened.
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| At the boardwalk with Ting CHAAAAN. :3
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