TKPS GIRLS WON GOLD! WOW what a magnificent job the girls did.. CONGRATS:   Julie, Andrea, Jenny, Anuk, Michelle x2, Annie, Anne Marie, Riva, Gina, Jaime.. and finally to the coaches: Paul, Rockey, John, & Phil. We went from last place, to the third, and now to FIRST! there ain't no messssin' with us! And it's funny how we didnt even practice as a whole team! OMY!

On the other hand, I decided to go to the retreat.. OK now im really really in debt, but you know what I'm not going to worry about it. I'm just going to do anything to have fun while the summer is still here, and this retreat will hopefully help me on my hard route to becoming a  better person and a better christian.

These few days, my mom has been possin' me off.. the more i try to listen to her, try to compromise, she's just not the person to work things out with. SO stubborn, and she always prejudges anything. AHHHH!!! I wanna scream. I need a punching bag. lol but i guess that's just how mom's can be, well maybe for me.

I hope that everyday.. I will be able to become a better person, I want to strive to become a better person. Well, here i go again.. to my life.. the crazy, sometimes boring, hard, interesting life.. this life can be forced against me, but there's ME to create it, mend it, and believe this life wasn't forced on me, but given to me as a chance to show what a human can really do to change his/her surroundings. THIS LIFE CAN BE BEAUTIFUL.

summer school is almost over! Today is the last day for classes, and then i have an exam on August 9th, which is my mom's bday!

Im debating if i should go to the retreat or not.. HMMMM

too much money being spent on softball, so i guess I'm going to have to pass on this one. O wells~

Gotta Work Work.. man.. Im going low on Flow... I need a better job, I think Goldie thinks I should as well.. Man it hurts when he tells me i should work here or there... Am I just not good enough ? I know scooping sucks, but why compare me to someone else.. BLAH~  I guess he expects a lot from me.. shmee

I wanna go far far away.. I hate Toronto.. I hate everything about it..

I just can't wait until exams are over and I get to see my cousin, Benjamin! For the first time, I get to meet my lil munchkin~ OH and my aunt and grandma.

Damn there is so much I wanna do and places I wanna go. Magda and I had a chat about how we always do things for others and not ourselves. It goes into more detail, but she knows what I'm talking about. It's all about doing it for yourself, so that in the end you're not hurt.. and because it is alwyas goo to spend time on yourself.. There is obviously less stress involved as well.

wells.. on the other hand, softball tournament is coming this saturday! Three games all day, quarter finals, and then semi finals.. Finals is on Sunday.. we better win this year.. But I'm also down because I don't think they'll play me enough, everyone has their positions, and all these damn coaches keep changing my position every year at least twice.. Damn it just means i SUCK! hehe OH mY.. well im not THAT bad.. AM I? haha I'm laughing at myself  Neways, hopefully we do really well as a team.. and win GOLD! YAY!

Trying to go back to church.. it's hard. But that's between me and Him. *Sigh*

Well... got class, then work.. EWWWW kill me!  

I'm at school right now, just completed my assignment#5.. damn i dunno how to make those gridlines show! WHO KNOWS HOW TO SHOW GRIDLINES? haha o well~

Big news! I got a PUPPY 2 days ago!!! He is sooooo adorable.. only 3 1/2 months. He's excreting all over the place, but soon he will learn! MUHAHAHA! from the master..MASTER JIJI!!! ok ill stop. But he's so sick =( I'm so stressed about it.. Should i return him for another dog? or should i get refund? DAMN.. i love him tho. We'll see what happens.. hopefully it was just a cold and some tummy worms. Damn Pet Shops! Don't you people even keep those window boxes clean??? SHAME ON YOUZ!

anyhow.. I'm only eating one meal a day.. not working out.. not reading my textbook.. and yes.. spending a lot of money. It's only cuz of the PUPP tho~

aiyaaaaaaaaa i neeed help!

shmeee and i also got a dwarf hamster before the pupp, but he's just boring. He doesnt like us playing with him.

Oh and their names! PUPPY->TEDDY ->mixed breed (Yorkshire/Maltese)->4oz                Hamster->GUCCI ->Dwarf -> ~1/2 oz

daaa wellllllssss gotta get perfect on this assignment (HOPEFULLY!!!!)

MAN i need a second job. Second Cup? hmmm we'll see.. neways I'm off to my busy world! hopefulyl i get to eat

owwwwww my tummmy hurts!!! what is wrong with me?  shmeeee i missss goldieeeee =( and it's only been one day! hehe

OMG MISS CANADA won! yayyyy! BUt i seriously thought Mexico was gonna win~ o wellz~

im sorry but madagascar sucked balls! i expected more!

my must see movie list:

-charlie and the chocolate factory

-Mr. and Mrs. Smith

-Mask of Zorro 2

-Monster in law

..list goes on.. i just cant think of any others... my tummy hurts! damnit!

nehooooooters.. summmer school sucks ! reallllllly does! like i wanna kill myself!

dahhhhh schoool tomrw morning.. wut crap~

and nini is begging me to get my g2.. so im gonna sign up for it now.. haha upsy does it jiji~