NEWlinks :)

these are NEW links to my new portals in this virtual world :)

BLOGGERaccount: Pancakes for Lunch

MULTIPLYaccount: Pancakes for Dinner

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the old has gone and the NEW has COME. :)

note: i was thinking earlier today about how much i LOVE to blog, to write in general. i wanted out of this *my xanga, per se.* but then, i'm not sure if i am ready to let go. so here, i'm keeping it active along with my multiply :)

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today was like any other day. mom was at work and my brother and i was stuck at home. :) so then, my brilliant brother asked if we could push through with our paseo *nearest place we can hang out* :) i agreed *how awesome am i?* LOL.

we left at around 1:30, we commuted to get there :)

he wanted to just look around and i wanted to have a facial, so it was a win-win situation, isn't it? haha. so, being as sweet as he already was, he offered to drop me off at the parlor before he gets off :)

i got my facial, he did his thing. after that, he picked me up and went to national to buy a gift for our mother. haha :)

earlier that day, he asked me if we can pass by starbucks, his treat daw. i offered to pay half the price of what i'll order so it would be fair, he then agreed. so we pushed through after our national bookstore escapade. when we got there.. we had this conversation. LOL

josh: *slowly turning towards me* can you just pay for your own drink?
moi: *makes face* why??
josh: eh kasi.. mag-vventi nalang ako.. :D
moi: ahh. ok. treat me dessert then. hee, kidding!

how can i possibly deprive him of a venti drink, so i just agreed to pay for my own. haha. anyway, the gesture of asking me to pass by starbucks and time spent with him was enough :)

we sortaa bonded over our frapp *mocha frap for him, green tea for moi (the usual, babe)* we chit-chatted, joked around, teased each other and had love talks. LOL, i wish! haha :) after starbucks we ran some errands, passed by jollibee for fries and then we took off :)

it was ok. the whole trip, i mean :) haha. we didn't fight! *whatta miracle!* haha :)

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the facialist told me not to wash my face *twitches* as to not wash off the whatever he did place there. LOL. boo! :) since, i couldn't take it, i used tons of oil control films to at least remove oil, but its NOTHING compared to water and facial wash =/

"And Hansel said to Gretel, 'Let us drop these bread crumbs.. so that together we find our way home. Because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.' This year.. I lost my way." -Lucas

"And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey.. is a fate more cruel." -Nathan

"The journey lasted eight months. Sometimes I travelled alone, sometimes, there were others who took the wheel -- and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn't me who arrived.. it wasn't me at all." -Peyton

"And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be.. or lose that person completely." -Brooke

"Because, sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are." -Mouth

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These "voice-overs" I took from One Tree Hill sure does explain what  have been through. So why not post it as an introduction to 2007 flashback entry? :)

Let's take a look on what I have been through, shall we?

• 17 birthday. One of the best :) My college friends surprised me by coordinating with my HS friends and I got my huge teddy bear from mom. How amazing is that? Though this meant I was one year closer to my legal age. BOO!
• I fell in love. It was indeed an insane feeling. It was a different kind of high that i've never felt in years. Thank you *you know who you are* for making me feel this, though most of the time I regret ever knowing you. LOL. :)
• I got my heart broken. Yes, i did. I was shattered in such a way that I never thought possible. *right?* It was indeed dreaful. No matter who I turned out to be after this, I still feel happy *a bit regretful* :) I believe I came out strong, I came out to be a much smarter woman, and for that, i think its worth the pain.
• Bad vices. Honey, don't ask. I guess you know what I am talking about. I might quit this year, WATCH OUT :)
• Dean's Lister. I got into the list!! :) It was really liberating. I proved to my mom and t myself that I am capable of doing this, it took me off-guard if you must know. :) Mom said it made everything she worked for "worth it!" and knowing that made me feel relieved in a way. :) I was consistent and baby, imna continue this 'till I graduate :)
• I grew up. Emotionally, i think. I have been thrown things that I have never been through before. Heartbreak, financial problems that came up unexpectedly and a lot more things that I need not to elaborate on. All that matters is, I learned, I grew up.. Basically, I matured.
• Church Camp. Indeed, the best ever :) It was the time I felt safe and happy. I felt so secure, one reason is that I am around people who have great desires for the Lord and I wouldn't have it any other way. :) I got baptized too. 4 amazing days that brought me closer to the Man that loves me above all and the Man I love the most, Jesus :)
• I discovered my PASSION. I discovered what I wanted to do for the rest of my life *I think :)* I was ushered into Advertising. It took me off-guard and is certainly is mind-blowing and phenomenal for me. I love it so much that I didn't really care of what it did to me. *stress, baby! lots of stress* :) but, i have un-dying love for this. Ask around, no exaggerations here, babe! :)
• I got immensly inspired by a professor. Professor in ADVERPR to be exact. *it's not what you think!* He *without intending to or without any effort at all* showed me the beauty of his work, then making me love it in the same way too. I seriously got obsessed. :) He was the one who showed me the good things that made me plan my lif according to this career. For that, I can never thank you enough. May you win more awards these coming years! :) Cheers :)
• I colored my hair. After years of trying not to, I wanted change and haircut wasn't enough.
• Laws of Attraction. no need for further elaboration. You know the "Secret" :)

These are just a few things that came to mind when you ask me of how my year 2007 went. It might be shallow or something typical but it certainly did add much more flavah and color to my year. :)

I may not turn out to be the one whom I wanted to be, but I thank each and every experience *good or bad*! It shaped me to be who I am today :)

I want to mention names but it doesn't seem appropriate. I need to thank people and ask for forgiveness from some.

I thank each and everyone who came into my life. You, in your own way, touched my life. I thank you for helping me grow into who I am now. Thanks for inpiring me to be better and so much more. THANKS! :)

I am sorry to those people I may have hurt or stepped on. May it be conciously or unconciously done. I am really, really sorry.

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My 2008 fears and amazing FAITH GOALS to follow :)

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Hopefully, I continue to find myself this year. I may have lost my way, I may have changed. But I sure hope that I discover the real reason behind who I am and hold on to that for dear life :) May my wings grow :)

Let us welcome 2008 with so much love and positive thoughts and of course, FAITH in Him up there! :) Cheers!

HAPPY 2008! :)

back to basics: vegetarianism

how do i start explaining myself?

i am going back to being vegetarian (pesco vegetarian). yes people, you read it right. YOU DID. i have been a vegetarian for about 2 and a half years and i broke that because i ate some over rated street food, isaw. *sarah! ikaw! ikaw ang rason!haha.* after that, i couldn't stop. i missed "meat", if you know what i mean. eating something in excess (and take not, meat un!) means one thing, yes, or maybe 2? LOL. that means i gained weight. :( oh man. it took a toll at my body and its taking revenge! *ahaha! i am taking revenge, my body says, imna make you fat!*

i was gonna go back before pa, but you know what's stopping me? the fact that i have to explain to each and everyone i dine with that i don't eat meat, again and again and oh, AGAIN. it's hard, you know? they question you and taunt you with tons of questions. it's hard to repeat the story, its better to have something recorded and i'll just bring it anywhere and it'll play on cue when someone pops the question "bakit di ka na ulit kumakain ng meat?" or "nakuu. wala atang walang meat, ano kakainin mo?" and my typical answer to those questions would be "kasi po, dati naman talaga di na ko kumakain nun. it's better po kasi for me if i don't eat meat, blah blah.." and "ok lang po ako. wag po kayong magalala.", respectively. siguro nga, magrerecord nalang ako. O.o

c'mon. i survived 2 and a half years of not having a morsel of meat in my food intake. i could do it again. the heck, i survived 4 days of church camp without eating meat and to think they rarely serve meat-less dishes that time, i lived on fruits and desserts, hence, the weight loss during summer. and that was just one situation. and as mentioned, i gained them back and more :( that. is. so. NOT. good!

it may be hard to go back and orient my mom, brother and the ate luz na i don't eat meat. nu-uh! no more!!!

so there, once and for all, i am going back to basics. VEGGIES. :)

*bow*

cue in applause!

its been a while.

i've been really really busy and lazy, that's why i couldn't blog :)

well, like my earlier post. i discovered what i would like to do for a living. and that is to me an AD woman. yes, i plan to pursue advertising. hopefully be an accounts person is some hot shot advertising agency (preferrably McCann Erickson) *hint, hint* :) well, i can reach it. YES, i can :)

life before adver was a blur. seriously.. i didn't know what to do in life. i took up Comm Arts not knowing where it will take me, pretty lame huh? parang sige, basta grumaduate. once again, LAME. and so, adverpr and my hot-shot-won-lots-of-awards-copywriter-prof jao bautista came into the picture. since then, things weren't the same.

i found my CALLING. i did. finally, i did. :) it took me by surprise that i would love a certain subject this much. i poured my heart and soul in every project, in every presentation. dugo't pawis! it was the kind of stress that i loved so much. it was what i was willing to go through 'coz i know that this is what i love to do.

you know the feeling that you love it so much that you planned everything ahead according to it? that is what i felt. i knew this was it. i can even SMELL it, if it was possible. that is how much i would like to be in the business very soon. :)

sir jao, hands down! thanks for the inspiration :)

so there, all i did was blab about how much i love advertising and i could do this all day, if you should know :)

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i dyed my hair. CHOCOLATE BROWN. :)

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pretty scared for this term to end. why? that means i am about to go into my 3rd term of sophomore year, means i have to go back to that dreaded "third term love affair" moment. haha :) (kidding! i so moved on.) anyway.. it also means no more ADVERPR and inspirational sir jao talks. (maybe not, we could still talk, right sir?) haha :) and most of all, to top it al off. it means malapait na birthday ko. boo! :)

still can't feel the christmas spirit. oh help me!

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anyhoo. yea, we now have internet at home. finally. after decades and decades of not having one. darn. :) haha.

that means more time to blog, research (of course!), and everything else in between. :) i must say, life is easier with internet. thank God for that. :)

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some more, some more. :)

i thought i wouldn't survive philhis and statpro. but guess what, I CAN. with the help of that awesome awesome God up there :)

haha :) so.. there.. no more stuff, i think. i should end this now or i might just blab more and bore you to death. :)

toodles :)