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Name: Misty Skye
Country: United States
State: Maine
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Gender: Female
Interests: photography, eating waffles, laughing, cuddling :)
Expertise: being a friend, laughing
Occupation: DQ worker :( (please shoot me)
Industry: say what?
Message: message me
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AIM:  kiwikween1
Member Since:
1/29/2004
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| Ok so i have no idea what my issue is lately. I've been feeling neglected. idk... it just seems like everytime i go to see matt he talks to stan and stuff before he and I get to do anything together. And i just wish we could have a whole day where we can just be together alone. *sigh* my birthday is coming up soon. i can't wait! even though i have a feeling it will be a bad one. I don't know why, I just have this feeling.
Oh and here is another thing that I am apparantly obsessing over and I have no idea why. Last night Matt told me that Stan asked hanna to a movie (in case you don't know, hanna is matts ex girlfriend from highschool) I blew it up and said immediately that they weren't going to be our new other couple. Because frankly, I can't see myself hanging out with any of matts ex's anytime soon. But he had no idea why i felt that way. Well, i was pretty much done thinking about it---i thought. I had a dream about it last night. WTF? that is my question. WTF? why am I dreaming about it?  So basically, I don't know what is going on with me lately. Plus matt is really stressed out about the whole underage drinking thing that he had no part in so every time i talk to him he's really upset and really short tempered and he snaps at me and the we end up fighting. It's starting to get annoying. I know he's stressed out but he doesn't have to take it out on me. I mean, I'm stressed out too and probably my patience is shorter than normal and that probably has something to do with it too...we are both short tempered and both snapping at each other. Idk. It always seems like I'm doing something wrong. And I'm always alone. I seriously see him one day a week because he has class all day on monday so that kind of sucks. And there is nothing either of us can do about it and that's why it sucks so much.
It's really hard to not see him and when I do talk to him we always end up upset with eachother because I love him very much. It's hard to not get to see him ever and when I do get a chance to talk to him it only lasts like 10 minutes. I really want to try to talk to him but i don't know what to say...I suppose he'll find this and then get upset that i didn't come to talk to him. But the thing is, when I do try to talk to him he always twists it around and makes me feel bad. He's coming to stay with me on thanksgiving so that will be good. We'll have time to spend together ALONE. without stan knocking on the door during sex and matt actually getting up to answer it...and we won't have to go to dinner with all kinds of people we can just be alone. We haven't been alone like ALONE for a while. soo basically that's it.
i need to go study math for ever...
<3 me.
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| Ok, so here is my issue. I go to call matt tonight and he's not fucking there...again. 3rd night in a row. And whenever we do talk he always has to go, or the call is interupted by stan. I fucking hate not being able to fucking talk to him. I always get upset and then he has a good reason , like underage drinking which is fucking stupid because it's not his fault....but i digress. I think that when I say "I get out of work at 8. I'll call you when I get out" he should think "ok it's 8. Misty will be calling me soon. I should probably be near my phone so we can talk" buuuttt...no. he doesn't think that. So i'm left wondering where the FUCK he is all night long. Until he does call me at midnight. So i'm so finished playing hide and seek all the time. I'm leaving it up to him to call me one day. And that one day is coming sooner than he thinks.
Meanwhile: gas is going down. Which is good to all those who seem to spend ALL their money on gas. hooray.
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| so i've decided to go back to school if the damn hutchinson center ever emails me back. if not i'm just going to call them. So ya, i'd really like to go full time starting in the spring. that would be really nice...but i don't know how i would afford everything. I'd have to get a higher paying job like waiteressing or something. Something where I know i'd make some money. bank of america is not going to work out because they only hours they offer is 3:30 pm to 2:30 am...which is stupid when i'm trying to take classes. sooo i don't really know how that will work out. any ways i have an interview tomorrow and i'm just going to tell them flat out that school is the most important thing to me right now and I'd rather not risk losing my education for a good job. I can find something else somewhere else.
anyways, i've got to go to bed. i'm tired. bored. and lonely. i miss matt like crazy.
do you KNOW how creepy it sounds when a baloon pops in a three way metal sink? creepy...
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| things i hate about porn:
it's disgusting and unrealistic, it's degrading to women, it's everywhere, i find it unsuitable.
things i hate about matt looking at porn:
it's degrading, it's disgusting and unrealistic, it's everywhere, i find it unsuitable, it makes me feel like i'm just not good enough.
i'm going to play sims now.
matts in class.
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| does it ever seem like all the fun stuff goes on when you aren't there and your left with "relaxation"?
i'm tired. i worked a 10 hour day today.
bed. wondering. dreaming. and possibly crying.
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The saddest fish
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The saddest fish are the ones that die alone. Like Biff. Biff died alone. So did Nigel. Piggy died surrounded by his other gold fish. Surrounded by tons and tons of gold fish love. Biff died in his tank alone with his plastic tree. How sad for fish.
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