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Name: Kristine
Country: United States
State: Texas
Gender: Female
Interests: anime, video games, music (mostly jpop) , movies (sci-fi/comedy), drawing and art in general, web design, graphic design, pixel art, & culinary art
Expertise: being a perfectionist, being hyper, being a nerd, being a fangirl, typing at fast speeds, & being a procrastinator
Occupation: Student :D
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Member Since:
9/1/2003
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| Well, today, I just decided to look at my xanga again since there was nothing on facebook for me to respond to and my eyes fell upon the entry below/before this one. Wow. How disillusioned I feel now. It continually amazes me how one can be blinded so much by feeling. O_O
Although I still believe that the guy I was complimenting so generously is a smart, cognizant person, he is also this... strange... cruel... aggravating entity. At this point in time, it seems to me he's the one who can't get over this situation. But then again, me writing this makes me feel like I can't get over it either...
O_O How crazy.
He made me mad yesterday. I thought maybe things were finally getting bag to how things were, that we could just spend the remaining days of senior year like normal, compromising people. Needless to say, I don't think that's happening and it makes me sad, confused, and also, makes me wonder if this is just all my fault, if my constant observant attitude that makes me pick, examine, and blow-up every single thing he does is what is making it worse rather than his behavior. I don't like this. I don't like feeling this way and being overly emotional. It's not me and if you argue that it is me, then it shouldn't be me. I should be happy and hyper and bouncing off the walls.
I wish I could fix all this.
I'd probably ask God, the sky, the ocean, and maybe even the guy who's driving me mad himself a million times over in my mind, "What can I do to fix this?"
But in the end, what I want answered most is, "Who will fix me?"
-------------before I end this entry... I'd like to admit some things:
1. He had a really nice blue polo yesterday.
2. I looked over at where he sat inside the theater no more than 5 times.
3. I really am thankful for my friends. They never fail in cheering me up.
4. I still took more time than it should have to pick the clothes I was going to wear yesterday.
5. 4. is the reason why I was late.
6. I wanted to be early.
7. 6 because I wanted to talk to him.
8. 7 because I had a feeling he'd just avoid me otherwise, even though, all week, he had been quite friendly.
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| My life is a drama right now minus the theme music.
I don't have any theme music. D:
I wrote down that I loved the guy who I'm currently in love/like with on paper today because I had to get it out. I felt like screaming it almost. He didn't see me do it, although he was sitting nearby me. It's both sad and amusing that he doesn't know for sure or maybe at all about how I feel about him.
I wonder if he knows that I like him. He's pretty smart and observant... at least in my opinion.
Other than that, he just really confuses me. Oh well.
In other news...
Wait, is there other news?
I don't even know why I am posting today. I guess it is on a whim. Ah, capriciousness.
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| I'll probably not be using this as much as usual... But I'm not deleting it, because I might come back every once in awhile. yep. | | |
| weeeeeee:]
I am in Sweden and my hotel has internet on the telly! :O I am typing on this nifty wireless keyboard thinger.
The only sad thing is that I cannot IM using AIM express or anything.
DAKEDO....
I can acess facebook. :] So post on my wall so I can talks to you.
Let's see.. right now it is like... 8:48 over here... and so it's around 1 or 2-ish over there?
:] I shall be online from now till uhhhhhh 10:00. I'll probably log on tomorrow too.
OH! and I'm bringing some fun goodies for everyone :D
I also have a digital camera now, so I took lots of interesting pictures, including one of a HEROES ad that was on the walls of the tube (London Underground).
Tee hee.
That's all for today. Bye byes. *waves* | | |
| stolen from Kim jie jie. :3
| Life Playlist Survey |
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| My birth was like: | Angel Heart - Keiji Fujiwara | | My friends see me as: | Doki Doki Waku Waku - Honey-senpai/Saitou Ayaka (LMAO) | | Right now, I feel: | Mahoutskai no Waltz (Wizard's Waltz) - Joe Hisaishi (It sounds majestic-ish but kind of dramatic?.) | | Will I ever have kids? | Last Christmas - Jimmy Eat World (LOL WTF) | | My ultimate song for dancing is: | pureness - Nana Kitade (it's very upbeat and danceable, but not really my "ultimate" dancing song) | | My innermost desire is: | Lovin' you - Sowelu(The question is.. who is "you"? ;]) | | When I'm drunk I say: | Tsuki no Ue (House of the moon? i forgot) - Akino Arai (Outlaw Star 2nd ED) | | When I'm in the shower, I sing: | GO! - ZONE (interesting, and it's a pretty good song ^^) | | At my funeral they'll play: | Just My Way - YUI (lol, one line of the lyrics goes "Give me love, give me all your love.") | | Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will include: | homegirl - Younha (it's a love song! :3 one of my favorites) | | My family is described by the song: | Theme of Arashi - Arashi (I really... don't think so.) | | My day will be like: | Momo no Hanabira - Otsuka Ai (I need to look up the lyrics to this O_o) | | At my wedding they'll play: | Waltz with Adonis for orchestra - Ouran Koukou Host Club (lol interesting, at least it's a waltz) | | Next time I'm in front of a crowd, I'll say: | Zhuan Shu Tian Shi (Personal Angel?) - TANK (lol wth.. of all the songs this one gets put here.. it's a really smooth love song.. lol) | | Highschool was like: | Realize -fly in to the Universe Mix - Nami Tamaki (well, I did realize many things, and the past 2 years have passed by really fast like the beat of this song) | | My theme song: | Discotheque☆Romantic - JUNE (lmao... it's another love song and one of the lines is "my heart will never be alone") | | What I did did last night was: | Song of Blue - AKFG (wow, I must've been emo then huh? NOT) | | My make-out song is: | Is this feeling love? - Tommy february6 (*shrugs* makes sense?) | | If I reached the top of Mount Everest, what I would scream: | Get or Lose - AAA (wth.) | | To cheer myself up I: | Thank for all - Tales of Symphonia (Engrish FTW) | | What makes me happy is: | 12Gatsu no Hana - Tackey and Tsubasa (...) | | The best thing about me is: | walking proud - Hamasaki Ayumi (lol... sure) | | This song describes my grandparents: | Kyrie - Death Note/composed by Yoshihisa Hirano and Hideki Taniuchi (well.. they are religious? | | My love of life was inspired by the song: | Rainbow (chinese flavor mix) - Sowelu (how ironic is that? XD) | | If I got lost on a desert island, I would yell: | ~NAMPLA~ - BEAT CRUSADERS (lol.. NAMPLA! they actually yell it out in the song) | | The story of my life is: | In My Place - Coldplay (british music ftw.) | | My best friend is like: | Quest for Glory - Soul Calibur II/composed by Junichi Nakatsuru (lol, well my friends do like soul calibur.. but i dunno about it being their favorite game) |
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