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Name: Joshua
Country: United States
State: Mississippi
Metro: Gulfport
Birthday: 1/9/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, U2, The Beatles, The Doors, Oasis, Radiohead, Bright Eyes, Pearl Jam, The Verve, REM, The Arcade Fire, Coldplay, The Doves, Foo Fighters, Smashing Pumpkins, Zwan, Billy Corgan, The Flaming Lips, Third Eye Blind, John Lennon, Richard Ashcroft, Bush, Fuel, Staind, Ben Harper, Blur, Our Lady Peace, The Libertines, Razorlight, Interpol, Killers, The Braver, The Kiaser Cheifs, Kevin Max, Goo Goo Dolls, Counting Crows, Guns N Roses, Nirvana, Kean, Snow Patrol, Bob Dylan, George Harrison, The White Stripes, Dave Matthews, The damnwells, The Walkmen, thats it for right now, umm favorite movies, Punch Drunk Love, Almost Famous, Garden State, Gangs of New York, and Shawshank Redemption, Writing and Poetry, Hanging with my friends whatever the fuck that is..Its good though life is beautiful fucked but beutiful..wanna be a rock star
Expertise: Finger still red with the prick of an old rose well, the heart that hurts is a heart that beats and a heart that loves is one step closer to knowing.....I am not expert in anything accept on how to be me..
Occupation: Consulting
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
6/18/2005
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Your love is like a tidal wave crashed on this hopeless romantic town, The Angels in heaven are losing sleep, Just because your not there, and when you kiss me like you do, The feeling goes straight into this heart of mine, Its in your eyes and in your smile, No Lovers Quaral or Hollowed point bullet shot straight to my heavy heart, Hold my hand I walk unafraid away from this bed that they have made, because i know the angels in heaven are losing sleep and still lover I wait for you to breath,
All in all my birthday was great, All the people I care about in my life cared to call and wish me a happy birthday, I dont know if they remembered or not but they all came along to wishing me one, and for that I was thankful. I dont need presents or anthing like just to know I was thought about is good enough for me. Shelley took me out yesterday on a date..Thats what I wanted for my birthday for her to take me out on a date..Me and her Go out all the fucking time, and we take turns paying for shit so it works...but we have only had like two officials dates..She took me to dinner at A Japanese Restaurant in Biloxi where I ate Grilled Squid and A Fuckload of sushi, and Japanese style salad she got some fried shit, egg rolls, a Saki...The Bill ended up being like 50 dollars but the service is always good and it was a lot of food..so it worked out.we didn't mind then to a movie..It was a good date One I will never forget...Because it was us...
"I wish that they'd swoop down, in a country lane, Late at night when i'm driving. Take me onboard their beautiful ship, show me the world as i'd love to see it. I'd tell all my friends but they'd never believe me They'd think that i'd finally lost it completely. I'd show them the stars, and the meaning of life. They'd shut me away, but i'd be alright.
Alright."- radiohead
Fatguy and I will never forget dedicated the opening of his left of center show to me, His words almost made me cry..He could of simply played a fucking song but No he told everybody what I am to him and that Jezus birthday is not the 25th but the 9th and next played probably the most unusual song WCPR ever played From 1987's u2's Joshua Tree..I still haven't found what I am looking for..It was the best, so at a gas station in Long Beach Mississippi right off the interstate me and shelley listened to it. It was good FG...My birthday was golden...I wish I could of saw everybody at least once...
"Climbing down the hours i need to know now Do the hands of time only rule this chapter I'll have to try once again, i'll have to try when i want to There he's on his knees again Trying hard to understand Why naveed would let a young man die Convinced that he might break he reaches for that phone And then another day has gone"- Our Lady Peace
My car is coming along good..I am still having problems with driving it and feel like a dumbass at stop lights..My grandma had a talk with me today about my choices in life that she doesn't agree withs....and wanting me to be apart of the family again, I felt really bad, it meant the world to me though She said she felt like I was slipping away, and I explained to her how I felt about the house and the living conditions and not wanting to be a burden and that I shouldn't be their problem..I explained where I see everybody at and how I fit in the picture..I explained to her why I am going to school part time. and How its hard to readjust to living with family again I dont know what came out of it..but I definatley will talk to her more..you gotta love grandmas
Thank You Everybody for my birthday
I have climbed the highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you
I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well, yes, I'm still running
You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
And my shame
All my shame
You know I believe it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
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Sunday, January 08, 2006
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Happy Mother Fucking Birthday
Untitled( You)
Angel with those broken wings and that love song I know you can sing I could travel real far, fall away and somehow wind up where you are Through all the choruses I have sung and all the battles I l've lost and won It all goes back to you Twist of Fate and "Throw Your arms" All the Dreams I faild to walk upon Like a death march I was driven to you and the world we build upon and the bed we love upon The clock goes by and time melts Holding you and the noise you make The Castles walls they couldn't tear down and the love katrina brought from the sea Somehow in someway brought that fire back to me My angel with broken wings, My love song to sing
"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;"- Alexander Pope
I want to take this time to state to everyone who cares that my birthday is tommorrow January 9th..I am no longer 18 at this point I am 19 and with that comes new responsibility like. Im lying about that i really cant think of anything good that can come from me being 19..now 21 thats where I want to be 21 or 18...21 I can get into the clubs without showing up with the band..that people think Im in...So if you can get in a chance and your not jahova witness wish my ass a good birth day
"My jumped in the river and what did i see? Black-eyed angels swam with me A moon full of stars and astral cars All the things i used to see All my lovers were there with me All my past and futures And we all went to heaven in a little row boat There was nothing to fear and nothing to doubt"-Radiohead
best birthday present came on my 18th birthday when all my friends got together and threw me a quick party very zack morris saved by the bell style...It took me by surprise they blew 100 balloons and scattered them across the universe in my friend charles's apartment said surprise and sang happy birthday to me, gave me a cake and a few presents they built this banner that said happy birthday on it and had them sign it...It was the best birthday I ever got and never will forget them for it..I wanted to cry, because through it all I knew then I was loved..I thank b-rad, Kat, and Dae for that..it was beautiful..
And this song is for me
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.
Blackbird fly blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird fly blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
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Friday, January 06, 2006
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Insurance and the New Car
I think its freezing outside so I am going to grab your coat, You can wrap yourself in it, it will keep you warm, god knows Im going to be jealous of it. There is a fire lit, inside us all an eternal flame that will keep the monters and the heartbreak away. Its on some distant beach, In a black cave, In a whirlwind of the unafraid. and I walk unafraid to you, and through you everything is fine. Without the days just dont seem like there mine. I am going to take over the world with your hand in mine, Never Let you go, Never let you go and let everything be alright. Thats a bold statement in itself, Something to believe in and There is something to walk away with, Love you gotta let it be, and let it recieve
I am watching that movie "The Faculity" this A.M. I love the movie and love the soundtrack and it has an all star cast. Its about dumb as fuck with a lot of holes in the plot..If you have never seen it, Its about Aliens taking over a school and a couple of students have to stop them by killing the mother alien only thing is you dont know who it is...1998 was a good year for movies
"Looks like your boats about to sink So it's time to prepare Even the Angels are loosing sleep And decide whats up there t's like the calm before the storm You better swim just like it's cold before it's warm You'll get back, here again"- Our Lady Peace
For those that dont know how my life has been this week..Its been strange...I finally have a new car in which I have posted it below for the 6 of you who read this to see it...Its a 93 Honda Del Sol it has 140000 miles on it but it runs good and looks good. Its a two seater and the top comes off. Just like a girl..This was the best car I found for 3500 and me and shelley have been looking around like crazy for cars for the past month. we went all over the coast except bay st. louis and the waveland area and thats where we found it. There is one setback I have to learn how to drive its a standard.
"My name is Jimmy and you better not wear it out Suicide commando that your momma talked about King of the 40 thieves and I'm here to represent The needle in the vein of the establishment. I'm the patron saint of the denial with an angel face And a taste for suicidal cigarettes and ramen And a little bag of dope. I am the son of a bitch and Edgar Allan Poe.Raised in the city under a halo of lights. The product of war and fear that we've been victimized. ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?"- Green Day
In other news The Lady I got into a wreck is using my insurance to fix her major dent. I didn't think she was but its been settled..so I am like fuck man... When you get a chance check the pictures i took of my brother www.myspace.com/bloodchrun i think is the location...In other fucked news. I am taking two classes currently at JD I want to work more and still have time to focus on school...and plus the unemployment wont last forever and I am money hungry...that was the whole reason why I left perk. So I can go to school part time. My dad informed me last night that since I am going to partime I cant have medical insurance. That is like the rule with the company or some bullshit..So he is talking me into getting more classes except they are online..which is kinda good except i need a fucking computer. Thats pretty much it.
And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny glance of father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Amongst the vending machines and year old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
minds
sun at all
self
news
Then the nurse comes round and everyone lifts their head
And I'm thinking of what Sarah said but love is watching someone die
So who's going to watch you die?
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"In the Air, I traveling through the radiowaves, On the Air and in your heart. Am I the one you dreamed of. I fell off my pedastal like a crashing satelite and into your arms...Love those dreams that were made, In a live oak tree, still standing through the ravaged coast, on a bathroom wall, I carved your name for all of them to see, Like a lost puzzle piece you somehow completed me, and all those times I watched the tail lights fade out of sight and out of mind, your head lights from your race car made them up for them. All the money that was stolen, and all the forgotten kisses you kissed me with your eyes held tight, Deep inside and out of control a romantic for the loveless soul, you bring out the real, you have the keys to my own garden, the thing is I never gave them to you..."
I just wanted to say Happy new Year to everybody..Its 2006 everybody seems to be look at this like its a new beginning..2005 we were fucked but 06 brings with it great sex or something...I do believe the new beginning came with Katrina though..Everybodys lifes were washed out to sea...giving them a chance to start over, what was wrong they can correct was lost somehow comes back, what was misplaced you somehow learn to leave it behind..
Turning circles when time again It cuts like a knife oh yeah If you love me got to know for sure Cos it takes something more this time Than sweet sweet lies Before i open up my arms and fall Losing all control Every dream inside my soul And when you kiss me On that midnight street Sweep me off my feet Singing ain't this life so sweet- David Gray
What was loved you drew closer with or without it, friends grew up together and the devided somehow added there sums.. But they aren't looking at it like that..I dont know if everybody always looks at the new year with a clean slate...I dont remember it being like that just this one....maybe its because I grew up or matured maybe its because of awareness. I know though everybodys lifes were changed and I am seeing them made better in somehow or the other...In 50 years if another storm comes it will be the same people will ultimatley walk away and walk on....We live in a beautiful world...Another thing I have learned is that the end is going to come rather you like it or not...you cant change that bitch from happening..You love what you have not...And what you do...dont take it for granted..There were so many people I have met over since that storm. I started a life for myself and I have learned what comes my way I can take it..I can love....and so things they can never taken way
"And if the night runs over / And if, and if the night runs over And if the day won't last / And if the day won't last And if our way should falter / And if your way should falter Along the stony pass / Along that stony pass It's just a moment This time will pass "-u2
This song always hits me hard when I hear it and reminds me of so much to about life...enjoy
I know that it is freezing, but I think we have to walk
I keep waving at the taxi's, they keep turning their lights off
But Julie knows a party at some actors West side loft
Supplies are endless in the evening, by the morning they'll be gone
When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
I'll get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations
I see the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning looks like shit
And I know you have a heavy heart, I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger then me have thrown their backs out, trying to lift it
But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to split
The love I sow you in the evening, by the morning won't exist
You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back
Well, it takes one to know and kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening, by the morning's such a drag
I got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We may die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening, by the morning seems insane
And I'm not sure what the trouble was, that started all of this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight, by the morning never is
And what's so simple in the moonlight, now it's so complicated
And what's so simple in the moonlight, so simple in the moonlight
So simple in the moonlight...
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"A parade of hearts some broken and overused, A train of thought simple, and fucked just the way it always seems, but you you belong to me. You hold the keys to my own private little world. I can go anywhere Magazine Street to Paris France, I'm Lost in your eyes but im finding Freedom in your smile, If you are paradise then I dont have to seek it anymore. I am on a Highrise overlooking a busy intersection, I know love is the center of it all on the ground and preparing to fall, this isn't the first time, and its certainley not the last, I wont ever hit land because I am not a bird, I understand, If they had souls they would forever fly, and never land...So I jump in and I fly being caught in your wild loving eyes"
"No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark"- Death Cab For Cutie
The New Year is almost here...Its 2006 almost...Such a weird ass year to be. I remember when it was 96, and some of you might remember when it was 86. I am not ready for the year to change. I think I am secretley wanting some weird y2k glitch to happened...because it just cant be 2006 already..I am hoping that night to put some closeure on the year that was like last year.
"Time, time, time, time Time won’t leave me as I am But time won’t take the boy out of this man Some pray for, others steal Blessings are not just for the ones who kneel Luckily, luckily, luckily " u2
2005 I believe was fucked from the start...Paul My Bro got into is wreck New Years Eve Night at some point, I turned 18, I graduated, My Uncle Robby Died, The Last of the dinners, The Last of the Rock Stars, The Tripod Broke away I fell in Love, I started College, The Shed, Local Music, Fatguy, Jezus, Understanding B-rad, Hurricane Katrina came and fucked us all...Atlanta and U2, and Shelley..So much Happened over 2005 and so much has changed from then until now..We all Grew up I think. I dont blame Katrina though Katrina couldn't of had this effect on us all...Whoever Reads this I hope they look back over the Past Year for me, and realise how they started and how they ended it...its are own coming of age story...and what a fucked up year it was too..
"So let's do it, let's get on the plane and just do it like the birds and the bees, a-get to it, let's get outa town and forever be free. Forever, a word that we could say together, it could change if you want for the better. Just tug on my shoulder and lay down next to me." The White Stripes
My Favorite Memories Though, That Happened was the first tattoo, Promnight, Tuesdays with the group, the parties, Mardis Gras, The Last Summer of Our Lives, Graduating, The Road Trips, Atlanta, Shelley and for some reason Katrina...I dont know what I am getting at though...I guess I am just saying I am not ready for 2006...I am scared to death of it..My New Years Resolution is to not die, not get fat, and start a band...Happy New Year Everybody be safe that night and I will be around
For New Years I believe the Song I am going to leave you with would be one everybody knows I know the lyrics to but they get annoyed when I sing it because I know the words...Here are the lyircs my loves stream of conscienseness...Its the end of the world as we know it
That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and
Snakes, an aeroplane and lenny bruce is not afraid
Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn - world
Serves its own needs, dummy serve your own needs. feed
It off an aux speak, grunt, no, strength, ladder
Start to clatter with fear fight down height. wire
In a fire, representing seven games, a government
For hire and a combat site. left of west and coming in
A hurry with the furies breathing down your neck. team
By team reporters baffled, trumped, tethered cropped
Look at that low playing! fine, then. uh oh,
Overflow, population, common food, but it'll do. save
Yourself, serve yourself. world serves its own needs,
Listen to your heart bleed dummy with the rapture and
The revered and the right, right. you vitriolic,
Patriotic, slam, fight, bright light, feeling pretty
Psyched
It's the end of the world as we know it
It's the end of the world as we know it
It's the end of the world as we know it and i feel fine
Six o'clock - tv hour. don't get caught in foreign
Towers. slash and burn, return, listen to yourself
Churn. locking in, uniforming, book burning, blood
Letting. every motive escalate. automotive incinerate
Light a candle, light a votive. step down, step down
Watch your heel crush, crushed, uh-oh, this means no
Fear cavalier. renegade steer clear! a tournament,
Tournament, a tournament of lies. offer me solutions,
Offer me alternatives and i decline
(chorus)
It's the end of the world as we know it (it's time i had some time alone)
It's the end of the world as we know it (it's time i had some time alone)
It's the end of the world as we know it and i feel fine (it's time i had some time alone)
I feel fine
(repeat chorus)
The other night i dreamt of knives, continental
Drift divide. mountains sit in a line, leonard
Bernstein. leonid brezhnev, lenny bruce and lester
Bangs. birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! you
Symbiotic, patriotic, slam book neck, right? right
(repeat chorus)
It's the end of the world as we know it
It's the end of the world as we know it
It's the end of the world as we know it and i feel fine (it's time i had some time alone)
(repeat chorus 2x)
Fine
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