|
Lil_flower_cat
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Lil Flower
Birthday: 4/17/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: Wakeboarding when im in sg and have $$, slacking, sleeping, eating, partying (thou i hardly have the energy to anymore), havin coffee wif frenz, shopping, cooking, spendin time alone contemplating, nuaing, smoking.... Nothing interesting...
Expertise: Italian cuisine, gETTing stoopidly wasted...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  Marjoryloh
MSN: wicked_cry@hotmail.com
Member Since:
2/11/2005
|
|
SubscriptionsSites I Read
|
|
|
|
| what a week. I lost all my data for my project which is due this
Monday, and am too sick (and too broke) to even go out tonite to try n get more to rescue my work...
Gonna drop the class n retake it next quarter.. no point liaos.. I fuck
up this project, i fuck up the class.. Oh wellz..
Fell sick too. Accompanied Catherine at the hospital for 8hrs on Friday, and I think I caught someone's cough there.. Kanina...
What is wrong with me? What am i doing to my life? WHy can i just focus?
Aite. Bad headache.. Gona go lie down n sleep..
| | |
| It's 630pm on a lazy Sunday evening. I have an art piece 18''x24''
due tomorrow, which i havent even tot about the idea yet, a take-home
midterm with 3 comparative film essays and a reading response paper due
tuesday, and a digital art project due friday.. and guess what im
doing? Eating grapes, swiveling round and round on my $99 ikea chair..
Well, technically, im thinkin of my art project..
I just cant concentrate on my work.. Just, really don't feel like doing anything...
Anyhoos,
Lately, I've been talking alot about relationship/dating/sex issues
with a lot of friends ( Jee, Crystal, Nathan, Thomas, Devin ..) It's not like it's deliberatly brought up, but
I guess all these things are everywhere, it's hard not to talk about
it.
First: Games.
Why play games? Why wasting time playing games? They say u gota wait at
least 3-4 days before calling someone, so u don't seem desperate.. But
what if u really are desperate? Is the girl/guy really worth waiting
3-4 days, tossing and turning over sleepless nites? And then what
happens when u finally call? They sound cool, but that's like a false
front, if u miss that, and go on full force, you'll become desperate
again. Then that's not cool. Or else they miss your call, and when they
call back, you don't answer and wait another week to call? So how? Just
play along? Why can't they just chop chop get over the game playing
part, and if you want him/her, just GOOOOO.. Don't take like ten
million years to reply a simple text/phonecall.. Fucking waste time
lah.. By the time someone better would've come along n swept that
person off their feet already, and forgotten all about ur existance...
Then you totally bitch about what a bitch/prick she/he was, when it's
totally ur fault in the first place.. Right? But some of the guys
argued that games make it more challenging.. But we girls disagree
totally.. It's like they just have to make evrything a sport, a
competition. But then if so, then who's the referee? Them? That's not
fair right.. ?
Then I was talking to Nathan last nite over drinks, and he said something
that made me think abit.. He said something like some people (girls)
have no self respect, and therefore they don't deserve any respect from
other people.
If a girl throws herself at a guy, how far can she go, before she's viewed upon as not having any self-respect?
What
if, in the short moment, she's so mesmorized, charmed off her feet by
some guy, she loses all sanity temporarily, and therefore behaves that
way?
And is there redemption afterwards for her behaviour by which she's been judged as havin no self-respect?
Can she still be viewed as having self-respect after being looked upon as otherwise?
I find this interesting because look at everything/evryone around us.
Self-respect I guess, in the sense we're talking about - when girls
throw themselves at guys/or vice versa, is almost non-existant if we're
being judged by our first impressions... How often have we/our friends
gone out of our way to shamelessly try to get the attention of someone
we're interested in?What about the girls on "Girls Gone Wild?" To me,
that's not having self-respect at all.. i mean i won't go ard showing
my boobies to everyone.. . I love my body (even my ugly butt n love
handles) but i'm only showing it to my special someone.But then, what
is the exact definition of self-respect? Is it based on
society's/cultural opinion? Or personal? And when it
comes to sex, is having a one night stand considered not having any
self-respect?
Ok, i realise im just super rambling on n on. That's the point of
procrastinating, right? Going to the gym now, con't to update
later...(7pm)
Back from the gym.. whooo .. shiokernana!! Super hyped up to run
today..Did like 30 mins on the treadmill at 7.0. Normally i can only go
fastest at 6.0 for 20 mins, then heh heh chuan liao.. Duno why,
just feeling damn dulan inside... Suddenly so.. What is wrong with me?
Crystal n Jee dropped me at Starbucks n Albertsons to pick up coffee n
some stuff... WHOO! Now super caffiene buzzed.. POWER...
Aiyah.. procrastinated long enuff liaos.. It's like 925pm now.. time to
hit the showers and start on my art project.. I just had an idea come
to mind.. Except, i also realised, i need an eraser and a long ass
ruler for my work.. Both of which i don't have.. Best lor.. Win liao
lor.. I'm such a kukunana..
Sigh.. Monday's here again...
| | |
|
Today's been ok lah.. We finished editing our project early, so i
got home an hour early. Makaned, nuaed, and chao piaed my response
paper for class. Jee came by to get me, went to tea station, went back
to her place, dropped her car, picked up Crystal, went back to school
for lecture n they went to the gym. After fucking boring ass shit 3hour
lecture,went to hit the gym..
Got
back from the gym abit ago.. Fucked up lah.. Damn packed.. could hardly
work out at all.. What a waste of my precious time.. Never mind.. just
work harder tomz lah..
Swear to god, I'm soo addicted to
the workout high right now.. I think Jee and Crystal too! Hahha.. Me
and Jee got shocked when Crystal actually called us to see if we wanted
to hit it tonight.. Guess we're good influence on her.. Hehhee..
Gonna
go shower now (yes.. im very stinky u can smell me all the way from
there), then work on my sketchbook for art class due tomorrow.. Gota
make up a whole buncha bullshit and just doodle.. Then gota think up of
ideas for Jaeger's project. Hmmm..
Can't wait for tomorrow to
hit the gym again.. I'm trying to reach a goal right now.. To be the
female version of Jee's friend Nam's female equivilant.. Ya know lean,
tight and toned.. Except that I know that's like waaayyy impossible cos
im not really watching my diet/spending enough time working out, but
hey, i said target.. Just working out enough to work off my intake of
calories is actually good enough..
hMM.. Maybe i give myself till end of next quarter to be like him..
Hope i don't fall out of the working out cycle thou.. I feel soooooo
good, soooo high everytime after i leave the gym...
Gona start an online workout journal starting tomz in my entry...
| | |
| New cool phrase: Holy mattress acrobatics, Batman!
So bored,
just got back from tea-station n baskin bobbins with the girls. Major
calorie sesh. Had a huge green tea, and a scoop of pralines n cream..
YUMMY.. I've been craving ice-cream all week, cos Jee kept telling me
she's been finishing pints after pints for two days in a row...
Today
started out pretty bad. First day of work... Apparently all the
shuttles/ buses that could take me to the bus i have to transfer to
didnt operate today, kanina.. and it was raining, ended up taking a cab
there. Good thing the guy saw me comin out of the cab, i explained my
situation with the bus cock-up, and he was nice enough to reimbuse me
in cash, said it was so responsible to show up for work in that kinda
circumstance.. so cool right. Did a whole bunch of back-breaking
arduous tasks,then cos of my swollen tilted uterous's pressing against
my back bone, the work was more straining on me than ever lah.. But end
of the day, he paid me $100 bucks for 6hrs of work, well, i made $80
technically cos cab fare was like $20. So.. still not bad lah, $13/hr
instead of the promised $12, not complaining leh..
He even
dropped me home, which im so grateful for lah.. cos the bus ride thou,
oni 20mins, the walk from the bus stop to my place (cos no shuttle or
bus today to trasfer back on), will take an hour. Got home, nuaed abit,
and called the girls. They cooked dindin and i shamelessly made my way
over again. haahah, well rather, Jee came to get me. She made super
delicious oden stew with ten thousand ingredients in it and Crystal
made Cong-You Bing. Was sooo damn good, especially in this shitty cold
weather... We had a fast dindin cos Jee had a review session in school
today for her midterm. Crystal dropped Jee @ sch, then me home. But
shortly after (2hrs later), we hung out again for ice-cream n tea..
Damn
sian.. gota do write up for 4 contemporary artists and touch up my
painting.. But damn lazy... Like, can't concentrate.. Duno why also..
Vomit
blood.. My room is soo damn messy! I just bloody packed it on Friday..
WHY WHY WHY??? Grr.. I guess its the procrastination syndrome.. When u
need to do work, somehow even cleaning your room becomes sooo
interesting suddenly.
Where did the weekend go? I waited all week for it to come, and it just flew right by my eyes..
Hmm.. what should I wear to school tomorrow? Wait, need to check
weather first.. (Checking yahoo! weather... loading.. enter state:
California, enter city: San Diego. )
Tomz high 18'C/65'F, Low 15'C/60'F, Mostly cloudy..
Hmm.. so jeans. Jeans and what top? Singlet? Shitty tee? (Looking into
closet). Singlet. What color thou? Coral? Turquoise? Yellow? Green?
Brown? White? Pink? hMM.. Decisions decisions.. (Swiveling in chair)...
i need new clothes.. ok.. I think white. White singlet, Levi's
jeans. What color earrings? White? Grey? Green? Blue? Yellow? Hot Pink?
Light pink? Black? Orange? .. Hmm... Orange? Yea.. I think so.
Shoes or flips?.hMM.. turquoise havianas as usual. Need to do my
toenails later thou...
ok.. i've procrastinated for 20 minutes already.. Let's do something
else.. Work? Erm.. maybe later. I work better under pressure. Shit
man.. WHY AM I SOOO BORED NOW? Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Falalalalla..
GAHH!! I HATE MONDAYS! My schedule is as follows:
9:00-10:50 Vis One Studio Art
12:00-2:50 Vis 70N Discussion session
5:00-6:50 Vis One Lecture (With professor Speedy Gonzales.. WTF is he talkin abt? He's accent is sooo damn thiCk lah!)
So all over the place right? Kanina.. want to do anything, eg drink in
between classes at the pub on campus oso cannot.. Like sai man..
Tuesdays are even worse.
12:30-3:20 Vis 70N Section
7:00-9:50 PM Vis 70N lecture..
HUGE ASS GAP IN BETWEEN DO WHAT SHIT?
Fuck man,some more here in SD, Tuesday nites' the nite to chill.. There's 99cents
fish taco/lobster taco EVRYWHERE, Baskin Robbins has $1 ice-cream,
99cents 6 piece nuggets at McDonalds and like, a whole buncha other
great deals.. I wanna ditch my Tuesdays lecture, but then LPPL, gota
turn in work, and plus, the lecture's so cramped with notes/videos and
info.. wanna ditch oso cannot.. Sianz.
I love Wed, Thurs and Fris, cos the classes get more interesting. I got
my Vis 40 Digital media class, which, although i have no clue what the
hell it's about, I just love going for it cos it's sooo interesting...
Maybe i should start reading that text.. But wah lan eh.. Buay tah han,
i read the title of the article can fall asleep liao.. Some more the
book so thick.. CHHHEEEBYYYEEEE..
OK, Im just rambling on and on and on and on.. COS IM SO FREAKING BORED
OF OUT MY MIND! ARRRRGGHHH!! SOMEBODY CALL ME RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW!!
Grrr..
I HATE SUNDAY NIGHTS.
I HATE MONDAYS.
I HATE TUESDAYS.
WHAT A SHITTY WEEK THIS IS GONNA TURN OUT TO BE..
How come when you're bored shitless nobody sms/aim/msn or calls you..
But when u're fucking busy, like, term paper due in 30minutes type of
busy, your ENTIRE msn contacts just msges like crazy.. HEY! HOW'S IT
GOING? ..
Hmm.. maybe its a sign i should get some work done.. Ok .. ok.. im gona
start.. soon.. After a smoke, and a dump . Maybe after I shower. After
I pack my room. After I fold up my clean laundry...
| | |
| Found this online randomly.. so damn funny .. 101 ways to Annoy the pizza guy..
http://sweet_stuffva.tripod.com/pizzaguy.html
| | |
|
