His smile lit up the room. Had to grow up so fast because of things out of his control.
But I still saw his smile.

Remembering..

Leonard~ That was 5 years ago.. wow. 5 Years. Thats a long time. You would be 22. Today probobly isn't theh best day to remember. Birthdays would be better, huh? But still 5 years ago this day I remember everything. You, James and Jason. Oh and little Jason, too. Those were the days. Remember art class? Yup.. well actually, i think it was you guy's art class and I'd ditch dance. haha You guys were more fun than Mrs. Locke's crazy-ness.
Ah and after school, Very fun times. Even of the last after school before this crazyness. You guys were gonna go get Jason's car, and watch a movie. Was in the parking lot goign to my dad's car and you guys were leaving, too. Said bye to James, little Jason, Jason and haha not you. It was really funny. We all laughed and you were like.. Awww~ Then you guys pulled out of school. That was such a fun moment. I'll always remember that. I dunno why but yea, it was lots and lots of fun.
I miss those days. Thats how High School was supposed to be like. I wish it could have continued for longer. Really, that was my favorite year in High School. Too bad it had to end so early. Love ya Leonard.
I even remember the first time I met you. It was in yucky Stetinski's class in the summer about Time Organization and stuff. I think it was my before my first year of High School. Yup.. hehe That was a boring class, ey?
Well Everything happens for a reason and i've found some good that came out of what happened. Became good friends with Woo Chan cause of it. I remember one of the ceremony things for you, Woo and Dong walked with me to chapel or church and Woo said, This must be hard for you, I know he was like a brother to you.. Hehe,, i dunno brother, but maybe a brother like the one you always tease around. Hahah we did that for sure.
You would stand in front of me with Jason behind me (and i totally dotn think thats fair cause Jason's like 6'3") and say, "hey Jason, have you seen saya?" You poo~ But one day you were spraying calogne  in the art room with Andrea and I was like, EWW YOU SMELL LIKE A GIRL! so from then you became a girl . haha not really.
I miss that year.. kinda sad on my end that my 10th grade was my best year in High School. Thats how all of High School should have been.

Well thats my trip down memory lane. Gotta finsh my art projects (Hey Leonard, i'm doing art stuff again~ yeay. Couldn't do it anymore in hs. )Anyways~ Yeay for remembering. Its always good to remember.
And remember, Everything happens for a reason. Theres always a balance; If something bad happens something good is always to follow. If its a huge bad, there'll be a huge good. Its just the matter of when you want to see it.
Theres no Good or bad, its just all Interpertation.

Have a GOOD DAY everyone~ (evein if its raining outside.. booo~)

You know those people that you get to know and you start liking them a lot, but you feel that the other person doesn't like you back.

Would you tell them how you feel or would you just keep the feeling to yourself?

By keeping it to yourself, that feeling of love becomes a burden. Love isn't supposed to be a burden. Even if it isn't real love yet, that feeling shouldn't be a burden. So if it is, what do you do?

I think telling the person how you feel is the only thing to do. Yes, the relationship with that person may not survive it but isn't that what life is about? The different types of people you meet, the different types of relationships you have with each person. And over time, everything evolves and changes. No matter what kind of change it was, bad or good, it'll benifit you, teach you something new and thats what living is about.

And for that person you liked, if you dont have a common basis of the relationship, that relationship was ment to change. The change may be that you two were no longer going to be friends. But you dont lose anything here. You'll meet new people, you'll dismiss some and you'll keep some.

If you're sitting on a couch in a weird position and its hurting you, what do you do? You move and change positions to something more comfortable. You might tell the person that you like them. They dont like you back. Your relationship changes. You might take a break for each other and things will settle down: feelings will change, people will change and you'll be compatable again later on in life. It might take as short as a few weeks, it might take a year, it might take a whole disappearing and bumping back into each other in different cities.

My point is that change is scary.. i dotn remember my point.. but its going to happen sooner or later, why not do it when you still have some choices. I mean, if something is gonna crash down on you, wouldn't you want to have fall on you when its still light rather than when its piled on to the max weighing kabbillion pounds? So if the relationship has a chance of crashing, wouldnt' you rather have it recieve as little impact as possible? The longer you wait, the more intertwined everything gets and more tangled and heavier and ...... 

But is it better to have experienced a whole love, even if its one sided, only to let it crash? rather than not have experienced it at all? But if its one sided, its not the love people live for.......

Dang it..  I always contradict myself and I get confused.. No, i'm not confused.. mb i am. . I'm just indecisive.. please dont  yell at me.. My mind is tangled again.. -_-;;

TAKE THIS TEST, its pretty cool. i'll explain it later.

Free report for: sayaka

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.

Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.

Idealists are rare, making up between 25 and 30 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

http://www.advisorteam.com/temperament_sorter/register.asp?partid=1

I did it again.. i'm bored.. can you tell? So i guess i'm all the same except sometimes i'm RANDOM sometimes i'm DELIBERATE.

BORED.. but i like this game

I LIKE THE DREAMER part.

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The Wild Rose Random Brutal Love Dreamer (RBLDf)     Colorful, but unpicked. You are The Wild Rose.     Prone to bouts of cynicism, sarcasm, and thorns, you excite a certain kind of man. Hoping to gather you up, he flirts and winks and asks you out, ultimately professing his love. Then you make him bleed. Why? Because you're the rare, independent, self-sufficient kind of woman who does want love, but not from a weakling.     You don't seem to take yourself too seriously, and that's refreshing. You aren't uptight; you don't over-plan. Romance-wise, sex isn't a top priority--a true relationship would be preferable. For your age, you haven't had a lot of bonafide love experience, though, and this kind of gets to core of the issue. You're very selective. Your exact opposite: The Dirty Little Secret Deliberate Gentle Sex Master     The problem is them, not you, right? You have lofty standards that few measure up to. You're out there all right, but not to be picked up by just anyone. "You're never truly single as long as you have yourself." ALWAYS AVOID: The Bachelor CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail.