Currently Listening Best of Me By Bryan Adams "Can't Stop This Thing We Started see related

i'm falling for someone... for the first time in my life, not that stupid elementary stuff, i mean... for real, you know? and he likes me back, thats the scary part. and he's the sweetest, kindest person you will ever meet. and he's sooo shy it freaked me out a bit. but his dad told me something that made it all clear, "when he's serious about something, he's shy." it's taking time, but everytime i talk to him i feel like i learn new things we have in common that are so freaky. just totally random things, like talking to him on msn and i'll mention how much i love this song and he's like "i'm listening to that right now." and we both love music so much, and i thought i was the only person on earth that just sits outside and listens to sad music just to feel something, you know? and he does that too.

i've never felt this way about anyone before.... it's kind of scary. cus he's SUCH a nice guy. he's pretty young, but i would say try to find me a more eligible bachelor, and i think you'll fail. he sends me all those love songs and he loves bryan adams, and he's just so cute... i just hope so hard that it all works out because i feel like this is the first time that i'm allowing myself to open up that way to anyone and it would be horrible if things didn't work out.

i just love this feeling though, i hope it never goes away!

acting class is going great, i adore it! it's a lot of homework and a lot of emotions though... like to the max! so basically i moved out and live with my best friend and sis, audrey! and her bf FINALLY got me a job where he works.. at the restaurant stepho's! and anyone who's anyone knows about it. ; ) so i'm pretty glad about that cus i've been out of the job and talk about perfect timing... cus i dropped off my resume there today, and when i got there they were short so he was like do you wanna go home and change and start.. and i'm like OK! lol. so that was awessooommme... but guess who came by today? like 3 different friends of my best friend's bf that i've "hung out" with before... but most importantly, the psycho who kicked that guys ass! and i said hi and everything and gave him a hug to be nice.. but he was acting all sad and stuff... so he must really like me, haha. but he's a fag and he doesn't know what to do... but anyways, that was soooo 5 years ago.

right now, i'm working on a 8-9 page essay about my dreams for acting class so i better go do that now.. lol. and then tomorrow i gotta go say bye to my dad who's leaving for cali. then i start work at 4pm.. god, it feels so good to say that! : )  life for me is pretty good, classes are tiring but i wouldn't have it any other way. and i gotta admit, i've been partying a lot, almost every night! my sis is a bad influence on me too.... lol. i started cus she started.. in fact, after work today we had drinks... stepho is like the coolest guy ever, as he said, we're family now! : ) aww... anyways gotta go do homework now.. but i miss you all, but don't take it personally if i don't call cus i'm super super busy nowadays! but definitely give me a call cus i miss you guys... if you even read this, lol. let's all get together one day.

what a psychooo....

well, today was my first official day of my full-time acting program and it's pretty good. i got a HUGE scholarship so that was really an answer to prayer... i'm so excited about seeing where it leads me! i just ADORE acting so much.

but right now, i feel really badly cus i've been hanging out with this guy.... he's a friend of my best friend's boyfriend... and we've known each other for barely over a week. and i heard all this shit about him so i decided i didn't even wanna go there cus he's full of shit. so we go to falconetti's with my best friend, our co-star from this movie we did together (yeah, i got a part in a movie!), and his best friend.... and we're kinda flirting, but turns out he was there... and i was totally ignoring him... and i had a feeling he'd do something cus he's this italian mafia type and he's BUILT. and he's a jealous guy... but we haven't been hanging out for that long, just a few times, and i didn't think it was possible for someone to be that psycho... but the guy kicked the shit out of both of them, and the best friend of the guy i was flirting with is in the hospital and he doesn't even know what month it is... and nobody knows if he's got permanent brain damage. so basically it's all my fault... just cus the guy was TALKING to me, he and especially his bestfriend, get the shit kicked out of them... he's that jealous. i feel soooo guilty. : (

just got that call from starbucks today... i'm gonna have a second interview!!!

gosh, i hope i get it because i seriously can't TAKE it anymore... one of the bosses is a big c-word and it's just horrible to work there now. i don't see why i shouldn't though, food industry experience and i've got what it takes to be an aaamazing barista! and its at my favorite starbucks EVER... on robson & thurlow, the one with the nice big couches.

i haven't gone to camp, so i'm at home alone for 10 days.. and it's pretty fun. and i'm just lazying around, not having any parties or anything. i was thinking about going out to atlantis tonight, but i just don't feel in the mood... and one of my brother's bestfriends is probably gonna be there... which would be awkward, since he KISSED me on friday night, at the brazillian party!!!!! omg... and my brothers girlfriend saw, and i had to ask her not to say anything. it makes me feel so gross just thinking about it, i saw him as more like a brother, and i thought he was just gonna kiss me on the cheek or something and then he just... goes for it! well all i can say was that if it had been my brothers OTHER bestfriend, it would've been a different story, lol. except i think ju thinks i like him.. my brothers friend. ummm no, he's kind of married.

the summers been good, i can't believe how fast time is flying by... but i'm not worried, i'm gonna have myself a really looooong summer, lol. i'm just hoping for the weather to cool down. i'm trying to stay out of the sun and lighten myself up a bit but its not working. i tan after like 2seconds in the sun, its pretty annoying.

acting class is going really, really goood!!! a few new people joined, which kinda sucks cus its not as one on one... (did i mention my teachers really cute?) but its a lot of fun and its homework i actually wanna do. but right now we're working on a scene and its tricky trying to do it alone and its soooo long to memorize, i'm going nutssssso.

anyways, leah didn't hear if she got hired at banana republic yet... my feelings are mixed. i really really wanna work with her, but at the same time i don't think shes missing out on a whole lot if she doesn't get hired. by now, theres so many better places to work. i'm quitting ASAP, to hopefully work at starbucks and then get hired at a restaurant.. other than my crappy job, i'm having the time of my life!!!! everythings going great. my brown & gold sunglasses from YSL just came in, and i'm so excited to see them... i have to try to find a way to make them cheaper though. : (