Was I dreaming or was I not? The paper today was a fcuked up brain gone wrong. Mwahhaa! Ok enough said. I need a DOG. A pet! Yes a cuddly pet that would keep me company everyday of my life. Well who needs men...
Revelation:
The reason why women tend to outlive men = they do therapeautic household chores.
Been having loads to ponder upon recently.
Doubting everything from self-worth to whether my would be dogs love me.
Silly i know. Just can't help but feel this sense of worthlessness over my shadows
Ok so today is a BAD monday i had to admit. Vexed with Ed <-- he did not attend the practicals! Dammit! I was hoping to see him in school today cuz its been a long time since i hanged out with anyone.
Ok BREATHEEEE.... I've a date with Zyan tomorrow for furniture shopping in the evening after school. So why did I made appointment with Ed to see him in the afternoon? Do i have enough time to pull the double dates? Well its a friendship dates by the way. Hanging out to reduce the coagulated tension that we all have been accumulating for the past few months. Yup... Exam is starting again very soon. Fcuk!
Ok ... what else. Hmm I need to hang out with Ken. Why? I need someone with enough sarcasm to awe me. Haha I had to admit that my friend Ken has a lot of sarcasm and very little emphaty for the nonexistent.
Sent him a quirky quote in my opinion:
"Every day I woke up and I look at the list of names of smartass punks who made it to the top 10%. If I don't see mine, I'd go to school"
Such a lame quote. But well I'm totally out of touch with the world these few days. Saw Burton... What a delicious looking bods... Great! I need to go on DIET!
FOOD FOOD GO AWAY! LET ME BE AT MY PEACE!
Read Mo's blog and decided to tag him. Aww he is such a sweet but misunderstood guy.
Ok i feel itchy...
The truth is Mo ia a very sweet plump and big boned guy. Last year, at the beginning of the year when I first join in the likes of my school as a freshman, he gave me a decorated name tag with my name on it. How sweet! Then he drew something really nice (36.25.28) woman figure on my class photo frame!
At the beginning of this year, he gave me a heart shaped handphone strap for my 20th birthday! It was soooo sweet of him.
However, Mo had left us... Go with peace my dear Mo! Be at peace! You will always be in my heart and my memories... God Loves You till the end... *sob *sob... actually crying.
Why am I sad? This feeling was the same like when Chunhui left my college back in Singapore to go to her chosen polytechnic. Yeah... the feeling of regret. They are gone in a blink of an eye. The regret is overpouring me and arghhh my teardrops start to roll.
I feel so sorry for not having or wanting the chance to get to know them better. It is when you lost someone that you know are good to you then you will start regretting it.
William suddenly comes to mind. He is studying in Singapore, NTU. I like him. I don't know much about him. He's gonna graduate very soon and probably had or may found a wife to settle down with. Gee what am i thinking?
He had the worth of a friend but not the worth of someone i should love. I deserve better than the playa whose daily likes and life i don't even know. Yeah... everyone deserves better.
Whoops running late for the next class... Till then to be continued... | 
