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Name: Mary
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 4/7/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Growing closer to God, getting to know people beyond the whole "what's your name?" stage, making music, enjoying life, school, looking at stars, eating, dock talks, knitting random things, watching good movies... There's a whole lot more, but it would take a really long list :)
Expertise: Singing, pianoing, guitaring, saxophoning, procrastinating, knitting, listening... I suppose it depends on your definition of expertise
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
4/23/2004
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| Well, even though staying up late to finish a midterm is hardly my idea of a good time, I can now be in an excellent mood because I am FINISHED. Vocal techniques is one of my favorite classes by far, and the midterm was relatively easy- simply a take home exam with open notes, open book, and the purpose of making sure that we understand the information we've been taking in all semester. I wish I'd realized earlier how long it was going to take, although it probably wouldn't have made much of a difference in when I was able to finish it... This has been a ridiculously busy week, all the more so because it took me by surprise. I have often wished I could be like those people that I admire so much, who seem to have such organized lives. You know who I mean... the ones who have planners and actually UPDATE them on a regular basis, the ones who can easily and graciously say "No" when asked to commit to more things (a skill I am starting to develop finally, but very slowly...), and the ones who go to bed at 10 or 11 every night, happy in the knowledge that they have completed every task they set for themselves at the beginning of the day. Now, I'm not saying I actually know any people like this... but wouldn't it be great if I could be like them? | | |
| Sorry this isn't actually a real blog... but I heard this Rich Mullins song again tonight and I just love the lyrics. Other than that... school is going well, having extra time is glorious- I'm actually knitting things and doing homework!- and I'm really looking forward to the four-day weekend coming up. Although I'm sure I will be doing plenty of knitting/practicing/other fun things, I also fully intend to do a little catch-up on reading for some classes. Maybe even get ahead in some of them! Wouldn't that be glorious. Also, on a completely unrelated note, I've decided that I'm going to start doing more charity knitting and make some use out my book, called Knitting For Peace, which is not only a nice little collection of patterns, but also has tons of various knitting charities and addresses. And now, back to my reading shawl...
Never Heard the Music
I used to wake up angry
Knowing the sun would shine
But the light would get lost in the clouds
I used to be so lonely
Wishing that love was mine
But never knowing where that it was found
And then there was You, Lord
Though You had always been
I'd never opened up to You
And then I was through, Lord
Through with the empty games
Now I know I want to live my life out loving You
I never heard the music 'til the day I met You Lord
I never heard the music 'til the day I met You Lord
Now I bless You for the songs that each day brings
And for how they taught me how to sing anew
I used to feel so empty
I'd listen to the radio
But never hear a thing within my heart
The days went on unending
With nowhere new to go
Just hang around and play out the same, old part
But dreams don't come true Lord
Though I wish them on the stars
I'd never given up to You
And what can I do, Lord?
I'd wait for the songs to start
And now I know the music that comes from loving You
I never heard the music 'til the day I met You Lord
I never heard the music 'til the day I met You Lord
Now I bless You for the songs that this day brings
And for how they taught me how to sing anew
I never heard the music 'til the day I met You Lord
I never heard the music 'til the day I met You Lord
Now I bless You for the songs that each day brings
And for how they taught me how to sing
They taught me how to sing anew
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| Today has been exhausting, but oh so good. We had Godspell practice from 9-2:45 with only a half hour lunch break, and it was glorious. Dancing around for hours is more tiring than I remember. Every night we have another rehearsal I get more excited about the show, because I can see what the potential is for our performances, but at the same time I'm starting to get nervous about the fact that it's in less than two weeks. I'm definitely going to miss being part of this show- we've been rehearsing since the beginning of last semester, so it's going to be really weird not to have rehearsals to go to, and not to be spending so much time with the cast. On the other hand, it'll be reeeeeally nice to have my evenings free again, and especially to have Saturday mornings to sleep in.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about what I want to do after graduation. It's been something that has been worrying me a little, simply because I don't have a strong passion, career-wise, and so my future has seemed really hazy. I've reached the point where I'm ready and willing to go and do and be wherever and whatever God wants me, but beyond that, I haven't had any idea where my life is headed. Last night I was praying about it for a while, and was thinking about conversations I've had with my voice teacher about going into opera, and different programs that she would really like me to try out for. I've kind of shied away from the idea of going into serious performance training, mostly because I've had that mindset that God wants me somewhere else, and that going into that business would be a bad step. So last night I was praying about where I was going with my life, and thinking 'probably not opera,' when I started thinking 'why not?' Even though I'm still not sure at this point whether that is where I'm headed or not, I realized that I've been assuming that God couldn't possibly want me to be a professional performer because He couldn't use me there, which is absolutely not true. It seems that I've been putting God in a box again. I've been so busy asking God what He wants me to do that I've ignored Him asking me 'what do you want? what desires and passions have I given you?' I need to remember that God can and will use me wherever He decides to lead me, whether that be in the opera world, church ministry, the mission field, or something entirely different. It was good to have a reminder that God gives us desires and talents for a reason, and He can use those gifts for His glory wherever we are.
I'm really sore and still really tired, so it's definitely time for bed. Tomorrow I get to take care of a very long list of things to do, so wish me luck.... | | |
| So right now I guess I'm averaging about a blog a month. I guess that's better than it could be....
Tonight we (the Godspell cast) met with the original producer of Godspell, Herb Kendall. It was interesting, but not quite what I expected. We did get to hear some stories about the original show, and a random story he told us about buying an island, but it was more about how awesome it was to meet with someone who had a history with the original show than about him helping us with our production. It was really cool to see how excited he got about telling his story, and how unexpected the success of the show was and such, but it was a little awkward when we did some songs for him. I guess I was just expecting more directorial help, but we ended up getting that anyway because Dr. Shasberger came to the rehearsal too, and he happens to have been involved in several productions of Godspell. The show is at the stage right now where I can see how amazing it could be, and there are definitely amazing moments, but it's still kind of frightening to think of how soon the performances are coming up.
I'm surprisingly tired right now. I was going to finish some homework for Friday, but I may just leave it for tonight... I had forgotten just how tiring school can be. Other than that, things are going really well this semester. This last weekend was really fun- not a lot of big stuff, just hanging out with people and lots of sleep. Friday night I got the chance to go to a concert put on by a tenor from the Metropolitan Opera- Dr. Shasberger had some free tickets for any choir members who wanted to go, so I got to go to a $125 concert for free! Saturday we had Godspell rehearsal, which went really well, and then that night I went with some people to see Pan's Labyrinth. It was visually very well done, but also very graphically violent during some parts... It was interesting to see an adult fairy tale, and I enjoyed it more than I thought I would. Sunday was a pretty laid back day, we went downtown to study, and I ended up going to the tower in the courthouse for one of our study breaks. It has a really great view of all of Santa Barbara, and it was a beautifully clear day. I am truly lucky to be living in such a beautiful place. | | |
| It's been a very relaxing break thus far, for which I am extremely grateful. I don't really know what I was thinking, taking 19 units and doing all of my extra music stuff... Although I'm really enjoying being home and getting to spend some time with the family, extended and otherwise, I'm starting to miss Westmont. Home gives me the chance to kick back and be unproductive without feeling guilty, but I can only take so much of that- I really need to be doing something to be happy, and since my break is short enough that there isn't really time to find a job, or something that will help fill up my hours, I am missing some structure in my life. I'm also really looking forward to next semester. Last semester I looked forward to seeing a bunch of people who were abroad and to being involved with tons of different things in the music department, and it was honestly a fantastic semester, even with the craziness that gave me little to no free time. THIS semester, I get to look forward to all the same things, plus MORE people coming back from being abroad, plus only 16 units, including classes with a lot of people I actually know (study buddies!), plus Godspell, and then of course Spring Sing, choir tour... oh yes. I can't wait to be back again. And it will be soon- this break has already gone crazy fast, and I'll be back at school in less than a week and a half! Huzzah!
In other news, my knitting habit (obssession) just continues to expand. It really is threatening to overtake most of my life. The problem with this is that I would gladly let it, if I could... I just keep ending up with more and more yarn and projects, no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm not allowed to buy any more yarn until I at least finish a few of the things I've been working on. Yeah- right... no more yarn... I'm realizing just how lucky I am that so many of my good friends are knitters. Even if they haven't reached my level of commitment (obssession), they are still able to appreciate my love for the craft, and even better, to appreciate the work that goes into completed projects that the lucky ones receive as gifts. Oooh, that's another thing to cut down on- no more telling people I will make them something until I cut my current list down at least by 5 projects... | | |
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