It's been a long day. But an eventful one, considering it's a Sunday!

Had brunch with my jc friends at siglap... mainly to meet up with our good old history teacher Sayers who's leaving for UK for good soon. He's really a jolly old man, and i remembered his history classes as quite interesting. It's definitely going to be a loss for the rest of the future vjc history kids with his absence.

After that, the boyfriend picked me up in a cab and off we went to Changi Exhibition Centre for his Mitsubishi Extreme Drive event... where he was to attend a course of workshops of stunts in Mitsubishi cars and be a 'certified' stunt driver. Haha. It was really quite interesting, but i guess more so for him cuz he was participating in all the stunts while i was just there really as a supporter and helping him take photos. And knowing how kennybee is always a hardcore fan of the Mitsubishi range of cars... i could tell he was a very happy man today. It was supposed to be a great day, until the rain came... and the bad news started. We didn't drive to Changi Exhibition Centre... and we had problems trying to call a cab to take us home in the rain. For those who don't really know where the hell is this Changi Exhibition Centre, well... you're forgiven if you think it's the Singapore Expo. Anyway, it's not. It's a friggin ULU place that's even further than Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal or the Changi SAF Yacht Club. So in the ulu-est of place we both got stranded, in the rain no less. Not to mention we tried to approach some old uncles for a lift out of this place, but got rejected because they claimed that they weren't going the same direction as us. Assholes! In my desperation, I called upon Lian for help to come and get us out of that god forsaken place (it was getting dark AND quiet as well) and lo and behold my good old friend responded in a heartbeat. I knew i could count on her to get me out of my shitty predicaments. Not many people will actually go the distance and really come all the way to help... but she did, she literally saved kenny and myself from being stranded in a deserted place. In times of trouble, we really see who are the true friends around us. Thanks a million amigo!

So that's my eventful and slightly traumatising Sunday. And tiring too. But all's well that ends well... hehe. Another brand new week ahead now. Make it a good one please!

I guess it's important to have a positive mindset. I might have been feeling too negative and despondent for the longest time... whether or not i was consciously aware of it. That really shouldn't be the way. Jane was right to say that I need to have hope... and i really need to be focused on the positive things of life. It will get better, things will only get better. I have decided to stop feeling lousy about things. Time to chin up and look forward!

The weekend was quite simply spent. Kenny and I spent our 47th monthniversary shopping around (mainly me shopping, for things I never really intended to get!), watching Love Happens (the love story was really just so-so... unfortunately) and having Yoshinoya for dinner. Haha. The thing is, we both haven't had Yoshinoya in ages! Time really flies, we've been together for a good 47 months! We've had our fair share of disagreements and fights, but all in all, it has been a wonderful journey thus far. Thank you for always being there, bee! Love you lotss.

As for Sunday, i pulled myself out of bed early in the morning at 7am to attend a morning run organised by my ex-company and an ex client of mine. The having to wake up so early on a Sunday was really a killer... but after I manage to get through this stage, it was actually really quite refreshing to go for a morning run! I came back after having lunch with my ex-colleagues, showered and accompanied the boyfriend to East Coast Park where he did his practice run for the upcoming Standard Chartered Marathon. Although I was alone while waiting for him, it was pretty therepeautic sipping coffee... reading a book... people-watching on a breezy Sunday afternoon at East Coast Park. Definitely something that I could do more.

Monday at work today was also pretty fine... didn't really had Monday blues as well. Had lunch with a colleague at cityhall and we spent a good 2 hours for lunch... mainly me accompanying her to get some stuffs for her upcoming wedding. Yes, that means yet another wedding to attend for me.

Just hope the whole week continues to be smooth-sailing... we all deserve a good week at work every now and then, right? Heh.

Is this how my life is gonna be? Always just looking forward to a good weekend week after week? Is there nothing during week days that can sustain me?

Sigh. Undeniably, i have been feeling pretty unhappy ever since i started the new job. I guess it's a lot of things. New environment, stressful weeks and expectations, the learning, the things i can't seem to learn finish, the people, the unhelpful people, the boss, the uninterested boss, the uninterested colleagues. Oh well. I think i've given up lamenting on the colleagues... seriously, it must be a case of different frequency. And i honestly don't wanna give a damn anymore. If they're not interested in me as a person, i frankly don't give a damn about them too. Who cares? Let's just be fake! Be colleagues because we have to! Great!

I need to really get the hang of things. Or maybe i just need a breakthrough, a deal or something. This is not easy... yet, i cannot imagine myself giving up. Why should i? I must not, and I will not.

Had lunch with Jane today, yes what a rare guest she is... but well since our office is so near other i can imagine us having lunch more often now! Haha. It was a great catch-up... and she's always the Christian friend who puts me in perspective when it comes to the Word. I told her about many stuffs... my difficulties and frustrations at work, and the issues at home. She told me that no matter what, i must still have hope... and if i cannot place my hopes in Man, then look towards God and place my hopes in the Lord and His word. I must say, that gave me a sense of peace which I really needed. I think i'm going to try to do that... when the world repeatedly lets me down... i guess it's time to turn to the Lord... I guess i can only count on Him to turn things around.

This has always been my favourite quote from church - "Do your best and God will do the rest". I guess i'm gonna do just that. :) He will be Faithful.

Having said that, i must say i do look forward to the weekend. It's gonna be quite eventful. Starting with MJ This Is It movie tomorrow night with bee. JB trip on Saturday as well... and then badminton on Sunday. I really need to sweat it out!

I hope things start to pick up in November then... October please get lost soon, you have been an awful month thankyouverymuch.

Just had a rather fulfilling dinner at Pizza Hut with my youngest sis, an impromptu dinner arrangement.Very yumz, some new pizza they're having. Really glad that the working week is almost ending... it's finally Friday tomorrow! Yippee yayy! Really looking forward to the weekend. Work has been pretty stressful... even though the boss ain't around much this week, i find myself scrambling to do stuffs everyday. There's just so much things to do!!! Geez. And yet i don't understand a lot of things. What the hell. The miseries of a newbie.... it's a really painful learning process.

A few things to accomplish this weekend. A haircut, a visit to the cinema, some shopping away from town, lian's convocation and mum's birthday dinner.

Lately, i've been hearing a lot about friends' housewarming and have seen how they busy themselves with housewarming and housey stuffs like renovation and contractor works. In a way, it stirs up my interest in this house-owning business and start wondering how nice it would really be to finally own a place, a haven of my own. But it's something i daren't think too much about... simply put, unlike other people my age... i don't have the freedom and luxury to think about such things. Not that I cannot fulfil it... more like, my hands are tied and i cannot see how i can make this happen. Must I always carry along the burden of my parents?? Will i never have my own piece of haven? Sometimes when i think about this predicament... it really makes me feel so shitty. I don't know what's there for me to look forward to in my future, i just wish i can break free from all these bondages. Life just goes on...and on... and what's new? Most people my age start working towards building their dreams of happy endings and brand new beginnings... but me... i only brainstorm ways on how to solve problems and burdens that are not mine. It's ironic but sometimes i feel like i'm someone with no future to speak of.

Oh well. Whatever. Let me have a good weekend...

The weekend was largely spent with my darling bee. I think it's been a while we spent all 3 days of friday, saturday and sunday together without having much distractions in between. Friday night we waited about 1.5hours before we finally get a taste of Oktoberfest at Paulaner's. Thinking back, i'm amazed how come we lasted this long, without dinner, just waiting and waiting for a table till it finally was our turn. I guess we both really wanted the Oktoberfest experience as much. The funny thing was that we were so tired out during the wait that we left shortly, just an hour after we got seated. Hahaha. Saturday was spent shopping in town, mainly. I got myself some tops while the boyfriend finally got his new pair of shoes. Time to 'de-commission' his old shoes, he says. lol. I must admit, although kennybee can be quite the grouch when we're shopping in a crowded mall... there's still no one else I would prefer as my shopping mate. heehee.

But the weekend has gone by just like that. Within the blink of an eye. And again, it's back to Monday today. Back to the workspace of expectations and expectations. I think my boss and I aren't working very comfortably with each other... she seems to have a problem with the way I work and from our conversations I can tell she's not really sure about me. And I don't seem to get her expectations. Sigh... this is getting really demoralising. I really, really need to learn to remain unaffected and continue to work hard and gain her trust. Did I mention that my boss is a Leo? A lady Leo as a boss, yeah, good luck to me. Although i'm a Leo myself, i must say i usually prefer to avoid working with Leos... somehow, they don't gel very well with me at work. I guess it's a clash of the stars. Dammit. Sigh, i really hope this situation improves soon.