The inevitable has finally happened, or will soon happen.

Lies have to be exposed, lives have to be changed. Some people will need to go.

We all knew it was a matter of time... i guess, this is the time. The inevitable eventually has to happen.

Frustrated and unhappy at work.

Frustrated and unhappy at home.

DO NOT push me further.

4 years... gosh, i would never have imagined myself being in a relationship with someone for this long. I just never thought of myself that much of a relationship-material kindda person. But i guess, meeting the right person will just allow things to somehow fall into place. These 4 years hasn't always been a bed of roses... we've had our times of doubts, our ugly squabbles and big fights. But i'm just really glad that we eventually come back to each other, cherishing even more the relationship we have and the special bond we have built up over the years. Being in this relationship has really taught me a lot about love, and to a large extent made me a better person (i hope). I'm truly beginning to understand what love means and what it actually means to be a good partner. It's not about the expectations, it's not about always making your point, it's not only about what the other person can give you. I'm finding myself being able to relate to the Corinthians verse in the bible where it speaks about Love is patient, love is kind... cuz really, it's always so much easier to be angry and throw a tantrum when things go wrong or when we disagree with our partners. In these 4 years, my kennybee has really been a strong anchor in my life... always supporting me (most times, anyway) and being the most stable person in my life. He may have his grouchy days and moods, he might not be the most creative of romantic bf... but what really touches my heart is that he will always be there for me when i need help, like always. And all the little little things that he does for me, the little naggy reminders here and there... all these, are the things that make him so special and unique to me.

Our anniversary dinner was at PS Cafe at Dempsey road, where the guy surprised me with a very nice bouquet of red and white roses. I was reaaally surprised, and quite embarrassed. lol. This guy sometimes is just so unpredictable. Haha. SOMETIMES only la. hahaha. It was dinner and then home... because the next day is the SC 42km run for him. I went to join him midway hoping to catch him at the finishing line this year, because i missed it last year. And i did! After a long wait of 1hr 30mins under the hot sun (and getting horribly sunburnt boohoo)... i finally saw kennybee cross the finishing line. And i'm really glad i was there cheering for him:) No more 42km marathon for him i guess, this should be the very last one.

And a side note about the car, we also spent Saturday doing some enhancements to the car (which we've named Sporty!). So Sporty is looking much more sportier now with new LED internal lights, a lip spoiler, chrome door handles, side windor visors and a new kickass front grill!! More enhancements to come... oh gosh, we are really enjoying splurging on the car. A new common hobby! Hehe.

Happy 4 years darling kennybee. I love you, always. :)

Oh dear me, just how long have I not blogged?! Has it really been more than 2 weeks already? Sorry to the ardent fans out there who have been missing out on their what-used-to-be daily reads. Haha.

Lately my friends and ex-colleagues have been telling me that they think i seem to be genuinely unhappy of late... and it seems like most of them are attributing it to my new job. Have I really been unhappy? Is it really my new job that's causing all these unhappiness? Perhaps they're right. The new job's really the most challenging one i've to tackle so far... something that's pretty much different from my usual comfort zone. Chasing after numbers is always never a bed of roses i hear, and now i truly experience the warfare of a being in a sales-driven position. Gosh. Yet, i refuse to back down. How can I ever expect to be taken seriously by anyone if were to throw in the towel now and say I can't do this, it's not my cup of tea. No, no, no! It's too early, it's too soon. I know I may be horribly stressed out... but if i could hear more words of encouragement instead of the 'are you sure you want to stay on here' type of advise... i think i MAY be happier. I still believe i can try harder. It's not easy, but i still wanna try! So friends... be positive about this for my sake, yes?

I must, must, must be positive! What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.

Moving on to more light-hearted things now. I've been attending weddings every weekend... and another one to go this Saturday. Gosh. Different kinds of weddings all the time. I think how the wedding turns out seriously depends on the personality of the bride and groom. My colleague's wedding over the weekend was one of the most nice and enjoyable wedding i've ever attended in my life. The couple was candid and casual, going about to chat with friends and relatives. Many times on her own, the bride would trudge and prance about on her own in her wedding gown chatting happily to all her friends and relatives. How cool is that! Not every bride MUST look like an act-sweet princess on their wedding. Be natural, that's the way to go! The speeches were nicely delivered, from both the groom and bride. Love it. I seriously do not like weddings that do not have speeches. It's not just about the 2 cliche march-ins and the yam-seng and the typical table by table phototaking right? Very impressed by this wonderfully spontaneous and fun-loving couple i must say.

The long weekend was also spent running lots of errands with the boyfriend. The main reason is because we finally got our own ride! A humble (but we love it) off-peak car nonetheless.  And so we were busy settling the paperwork and getting the little knick-nacks for the car. Heheh. I love running errands with kennybee seriously... he's like my favourite errand-mate. The things i miss out, he will always remember. The things he overlook, I somehow remind him (though not as detailed or naggy as him hehe). This is going to be so much fun for us i'm sure!:)

Hoping for a productive week at work, and a better weekend!