I haven't updated my dear Xanga for a long time, because I got distracted by my space.Dear diary, sorry for that~~~
I dreamed of someone last night, a dream that proved that deep inside me, I havent actually let go. But this time is a different situation. I thought i've done pretty well for the past two weeks and I thought I get over it faster than i expected. But the dream revealed that I was trying to oppress my feeling, my desire and also my fantasy. I kinda forced myself to forget, and to move on, hopefully there would be some guy to help me out. But now I realize, it will never be that easy at all.
Anyway, I have been doing the best I can. Last night my best friend and her boyfriend came to Hongkong and I asked her "do you think I am an optimistic or a pessimistic?" She answered" optimistic, because you are always able to recover quickly"
She knows me and I believe that's true of what she means. I have the natural ability to get rid of negative thoughts that frustrate me and steer them towards positive ways.
I not only can create a fairytale land to indulge myself in, but also when it collapses, can soon turn the hell into a peaceful eden where I can continue to live everyday. | 
