Im so tired of being here

Supressed by all of my childish fears

what's that ringing sound in the background

i've been used to all these

spirits living around me

im feeling i don't know what

just all muddled up inside

i've lost track of my life

the road forward

where does it lead

the sorrows and pain have turned into a sense of purity and calm

am i enlightened?

i don't think so

i don't seem to understand

trying so hard to figure out

hope i'll learn to love myself

Something for you mother...

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Unfamiliar faces

they seem to wheeze past my mind

so lost in a hurricane

say im sad

im feeling numb

trying my best to withhold the tears that yearn to fall

oh my precious soul

is crying out so pain in me

can anybody listen to the faith in me?

im holding on so strongly

but rocks are rumbling off the edge

im trying as my muscles protest with ache

should i surrender my soul by letting go?

just letting go would seem to ease my pain

but selflessly i decided not

as i consider the pain i may bring to others if i fall

i love you more than i love myself

so bare in mind im holding on because of you

because i love you so hold on for me too...