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| Don't make me slap you in the face.
You know i would. | | |
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During dinner with my BFFs earlier,
we touched on the topic of who did we used to have crush(es) on
in our secondary school and that
reminded myself of the sweet memory I had.
I was 14 years old, he was two years my senior.
As I was from the Choir and he was from the AVA club
dealing with the sound system and stage operations,
it was common to bump into him occasionally during
rehearsals and performances for random events.
I would be looking forward to my performances since
that would be the only way to get to see him closer and
I could vividly recall how my heart would just stop beating for
that few seconds,
my face would be flushing like tomatoes,
my eyes would be avoiding contact with him
whenever he passed by.
It was until my friends and I got to know his friend from
the club which led to the chance of us knowing each other
and started talking.
Apparently our mutual friend told him about my crush and
he started asking me out for drinks!
He was so nice and sweet which made me felt
as though i was in a dream - a very sweet one.
During his final year in school,
he even came to me asking for a photograph,
printed it out and gave it to me together with his school badge for keepsake.
(I'm not sure why the badge was given to me but oh well,
so long as it's anything from him, i'd be happy! lol)
Eventually we lost contact (mobile phones wasn't in the trend yet, darn!)
and few years back when i was reading back my diaries,
I realized he did ask me out a few times but I rejected
cuz i was too shy and i thought he was just trying to
make me happy by asking me out.
Or he was treating me as a little sister.
Tonight as my BFFs and I were talking about it,
I suddenly wondered -
what if he was genuine to ask me out, not of obligation?
what if i did went out with him subsequently, would there be further chapters to continue?
I guess this shall remain a mystery until the day i see him again,
which i really do hope to find back an old friend!
It dawned to me that was my first puppy love crush
which tasted both sweet (the anticipation of bumping him in school)
and sour (due to the fact that nothing came out of it.)
It felt so pure and innocent,
without considering the complications and complexities of relationships
should there be any.
Now, I missed that kind of feeling.
The feeling of just liking someone for who they are.
Now, it's about looking at both love and bread.
Having just love will not suffice,
Having just bread will not either.
It's often a challenge to balance both.
Hence, puppy crush is still the best memory to hold!
It will never make me frown or make me sad,
I'd only end up with a smile thinking back of
the little things that happened!
So, who was your crush back in school? :)
xoxo ♛♛♛ | | |
| 又是emo的夜晚。
對自己很失望，也很無奈。
非常想能讓工作盡快麻醉自己的思緒，
麻醉自己的胡思亂想，
麻醉一切無奈的心情。
是自己頑固？
是自己固執？
是自己運氣不好？
或真的是因為自己不好？
找不到的答案，
請給我一支麻醉針，
讓我不再去尋找。
因為心，
只會越來越痛。
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| Dinner with Coccomomo earlier in town and chilled @ Wine Connection.
We had this conversation regarding "approval on boyfriends"
and it was kind of sad to hear that none, NONE of my ex boyfriends had
ever been approved by them before.
I trust the girls for their judgement on guys and especially the common saying goes,
outsiders see things best.
Sigh.
What a tragic thing to hear.
It's been 1.5 years since the day I declared independence.
Friends, acquaintances, people whom I know are getting married everywhere
like it is the hottest trend in town now.
I seriously ponder and wonder when will it be my turn
to announce the happy news to everyone.
Hmm.
Anyway, on a happier (and sad) note,
I'm back in cosy Singapore after spinning a round in USA!
Tons and loads of pictures,
Thoughts and feelings i can't wait to blog about.
Stay on!
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