Hello all Smellyelle here, long time no see... missed ya all big big mobs... . so what have i been up to i hear you all ask, well my young and insignifigant friend, i have been up to jack al. i did however start my novel. It is based on a charecter named Anubis; i hear you all gasp, he is in fact the dude that you see beside this story... (well thats actually a dude named Kadek... who isn't dead, which is good) and he is dead. He slit his own wrists and he has been punished by the gods to purgatory. and the only way he can go to heaven is if he completes the task they have set for him. Its gunna be awsome, i'm thinking i'll name it "the seven stages of death" hows that for DRAMATIC... LOL. neways

OVWA

Smelly

Well my young friends i have some SHOCKING but none-the-less exciting news about me. I am engaged. So what you say that's like the fifth time this year. WELL i say to you... SHUT UP its only the forth, my husband and i were NEVER engaged, we just got married STRAIGHT away. but neway... thats totally besides the point... ARRRRRRRRRRRGH... what was my point again?? ahh... yes. My engagement, well i am engaged to (drum roll please) Miss Ciella Lee Williams... . I proposed to young Miss Ciella at Discovery nightclub after a night of parting HARD at an underage disco thingy and i got down on one knee and proposed. I wanted to do it on a microphone but i didn't know where to get one. . SO anyways, the wedding is the 11th of May 2005, at Browns Mart Theatre, and the theme is Faerie Tails. I shall be representing the fire faerie, and Ciel shall represent the water faerie. The cake shall be Faerie cakes with rainbow icing and all of the members of the bridal and bridal (that sounds sorta weired dunn it) shall be wearing gold/ silver faerie shoes...

To my beautiful Fiance i say just one thing: I love you.

Love ya's all
Smelly

Ahhh. my company is driving me insane. i hate myself. y should i be forced to hang out with me, nobody else wants to. GRRRR. Today is an anaversary of sorts. although Steve-o will probably never know it, but today is the mark that i've had a "thing" for Steven Lees for 6 MONTHS... how stupid am i? i mean honestly 6 MONTHS... , i feel so. blerghh.i mean he's just a dude, and he OBVIOUSLY doesn'y like me, and i just cant move on... 6 months. thats a REALLY long time. sigh. i just cant move on and and and yeah. its stupid and it sucks. why can't i move on???? yeah. anyways.

there you all go. it out now. she knows how i feel. it took a bit. i'm totally afraid of what i feel, and so i just tried to ignore it. it's easier that way. but no. i'm not completly chicken shit. i CAN do something that i really want to do but know is scary. i do have guts. i am SOOOOO proud of myself. i just wish i coul ddo that for other people. i'm just not confident enough in myself to say anything because well i don';t know what the outcome will be, and i hate not knowing whats coming next. its like the scary music starts to play in the sound track for my life story and i just run away 'cause when the scary music plays something bad generally happens. yeah. but anyway.