Trust

It has been some time since i last update my blog.

For the past few days, a lot of things crop up at work and i had to handle the problem almost in the face and i had no solutions. Today problem happened due to me not being able to follow up on all the instructions that i've given as i need to see to other things.  As i relate to my 28yr old colleague (yb cum fsc), he said that he choose to trust me.

I don't know how true is this statement because of certain things that i cannot reveal here (definitely there is not hidden relationships if you know what i mean..), Even as i start to think, i know God has shown me this level of trust and expect this level of trust from me.  The bible should be my source of substainance and God the person i should trust. I've trust in more in situation than in the person of God...

So through this, I realised that if there is a high level of trust eg in a working relationships between colleagues, work can be so much easier.  Similarly, if i trust God more, there will be much more growth, i can see and know God moving in my life.  I want to declare that i want to trust God more than i trust God now, especially the part that God trust me to use the bible to grow and from there translate the trust to everyday life in dealing with the circumstances.

I am going to take some time to reflect on this, my trust level in God definitely... now back to work... guess i won't be sleeping... although i am really very tired....

God's Best Gift

Somebody taught me this:-  "If you want to give someone a present, you've got to give the best, not something recycled from somewhere or something you don't want."

Yesterday, it so happens that I had a chance to give away something new.  I said the excat same thing to her.. actually with a sense of pride in it.. anyway, that is beside the point, the point is, "giving away the best".

Did it hit you? God in fact also gave us His best. Jesus is not something unwanted, second-hand, or something that is recycled!!

I know what I feel if I received a christmas/brithday gift that is sencond hand or recycled.. I will feel, "gosh, its something that you don't want, then you give me.."

Well, I guess God must have known who we will feel if He gave us something other than the best, hence he gave us His best; Jesus. Must appreciate this fact more.

God taught me a lesson through yesterday small incident, maybe a reminder..

Hope this entry bless all those that is reading.

God's Amazing Answer To Prayers

God is really amazing. And He answer prayers in ways you can never imagine. Well at least for mine.

Sometime earlier this year, i commit this prayer to God.  I asked God to bring my dad back to Singapore for a more permanent basic.  (well some background infor, my dad works overseas, and he is seldom back in Singapore.  I will only get to see him twice a year ever since my poly days, so for a good ten years already.).  I prayed this somewhere in January. I remember crying to God, tell Him that I don't know my dad, I don't have a chance to relate with him, and I don't even know what he likes and so on, I remember telling God how I feel.. I admit that God is able to answer this prayer in ways I can never imagine, I remember that I asked God to help me see His answered prayer when He finally answer it and help me to not only confine to one way this prayer can be answered.

God is faithful. Truly, all praise must be given to him.. although now I still don't know my dad well, but guess what?? Yes, God ANSWERED my prayer. It was somewhere in June this year that I heard from my mum that my dad got a new boss, so now he is working for 2 boss and with this new change, he will be moving to Malaysia-Singapore-Indonesia more often, and this means... I will get to see my dad more often.. You cannot imagine how happy i was.  However, must admit that, at that particular moment, I didn't recall this prayer that I prayed.  But then again, God is still God, the Holy Spirit reminded me that I had prayed this prayer.

Really, God can answer prayers.. in His timing and in ways I can not imagine.  Well the verse, "God knows all our needs even before we ask Him", and "lean not on your understanding" definitely make a lot more sense now.

Hope this testimony blesses you...

It has been a long while since i last blog.. not that i don't like to put into words my feelings.. in fact i think i can convey better in writing than to just to say what i feel out.

Well... been busy... (oh man, what excuse is this..??) i know this is not an excuse... anyway, a new colleague came to my work place about 2 months back. Ever he came, my work load is lighten.. but still at times busy.  but honestly if you ask me why i say i am busy, i cannot really tell you..

However, this want to share something that i learnt recently. (it is a old lesson and as well as a new lesson)

For those out there, read this:-

We got to tithe everything we have and its not just about money... our talent (what i know already and what i am learning and will know), money (salary- inclusive of employer's contribution), time in work, time with friends (GF and BF inclusive), time blogging, time going with family, time in ministry.. do you get the picture right? even as i type in this entry.. tithe in thought--> prayer.

I don't know about you.. but i always do what i can do and that is about that.. the thought of giving back to God in all areas didn't strike me as it did. (talk about God speaking to you when you seek Him with all your heart..) God reminded me, that in OT times, God separate a certain people, called the levities to serve him. So looking at the OT as a whole, isn't it the same as giving a portion back to God? i n which we human understand as tithing?

I still didn't further explore in this idea.. those of you out there, care to share with me your thoughts?

Stress, Stress and More Stress

I feel so. so, so, so stress............... I don't know how to express.. and now all I can think off is to complain (to God).. But guess what?? Somehow I forgot one very important thing.. No.. Its not to pray.. (Not that its not important, its still important to pray for God to work.. I seriously need God's help in my situation. Only He can help, I’m at wits end and all I see is a dead end..) The one thing that is more important for me to do is this..:

To give thanks...

Man, God... (In my heart, its so super hard, when all I can think of is the problem.. think of doing the right things to make the problem right.. talk to God.. talk to people... and okay.. complain.. ) Yes at this point, giving thanks never did pop into my mind, until now...

Giving thanks.. is not a magic word, or a miracle thing that once you do, the problem will be solved..

In fact my problem is still there.. Giving thanks, shows me that someone greater is in control.. God is in control... God is teaching me now that at my life station, I need to learn to submit to Him. As little as I would like to admit, submitting to Him is not always in my dictionary..

Anyway, I know I’ll still need to face with my problem (in my company.. with colleague.. to improve in my communication.... Cos now lots and lots of miscommunication brought by tons of misunderstandings.. and with that misconception, and perhaps a set mindset about me..)

Do i feel angry?? Yes, but I have no rights to be... upset?? Yes, I feel upset... discourage?? Yes... Negative?? Hmmm.. Not quite.. Hopeful...? Yes, hopeful but somehow subjected to circumstances..

What keep me going? In the past what would I do?? I think I would have gave up bah.. I would hide myself, sun away as far as I can.. not that now I'm facing my problem straight on.. at some point I know I'm running away, but I know there is an invisible force there by me.. and this invisible force is God.