| I'm terrible with articulating anything to do with how people feel
or with anything serious. But I'm going to give it a shot by using
lyrics and then expounding upon what I mean. We'll see how it goes. All lyrics are direct quotes.
"No way can I be what I'm not... take me, baby, or leave me..." --Rent, "Take Me or Leave Me"
I'm
who I am (even though I don't know what that is). If we don't get
along, move along. We survived without one another before, and I have
confidence it can happen again. I guess that sounds abrasive; my
intention, really, is this: There are six or seven billion other
people. Don't limit yourself. Then again, it might still work anyway.
So I guess I'm trying to say that we'll attempt to navigate the quirks,
huh? "I'm just a creature of habit in a complicated world..." --Bee Gees, "Man in the Middle"
Yeah,
I don't understand this place in which humanity resides--or, actually,
just humanity. I don't understand how the world works. Maybe I
understand, but I don't see why we live this way. "I'd
rather live on the side of a mountain than wander through canyons of
concrete and steel..." --John Denver, "I'd Rather Be a Cowboy (Lady's
Chains)"
Self-explanatory, or a continuation of the previous.
Materialism doesn't do it for me. I love nature. Nature is where the
true beauty is in the world. True beauty isn't found in the plastic
people Hollywood
churns out, nor is it found in towering structures built in honor of
man's technological advances. Nature is where I can most clearly see
God, where I can be the closest to God. The cities are too polluted by
corrupt humanity. The mountains have been more preserved from human
influence than other areas. "Every time I tried to
tell you, the words just came out wrong, so I'll have to say 'I love
you' in a song..." --Jim Croce, "I'll Have to Say I Love You in a Song"
There
have been several people to whom I'd have loved to express that
sentiment; alas, I couldn't, either from being currently inarticulate,
or simply because I failed to take advantage of the moment. Perhaps the
moment left itself unrecognized. But there are a few people without
whom I could not survive. While I think they know this, I am not
entirely sure. So that's for all of them, whoever and wherever they
are. "Don't talk of love... it's sleeping in my
memory. I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died, if I
never loved I never would've cried. I am a rock..." -Simon &
Garfunkel, "I Am a Rock"
No, I don't see it as a juxtaposition
to come off of that particular Jim Croce song and launch into this one
by Simon & Garfunkel. As much as I love the aforementioned people,
I almost wish I didn't. Everyone is capable of hurting someone
else--immensely. Intensely. And as much as I enjoy the feeling of
reciprocated affection on any level at which I've experienced it, I
hate the backlash. "The more you see, the less you
know, the less you find out as you go; I knew much more then than I do
now..." --U2, "City of Blinding Lights"
I think as I've
progressed through life, I've become more unsure of things. When I was
seven, I had convictions, and I was bound to them. I knew what I
believed and why, and that was all there was to it. But as the years
progressed, things became more colorful and less black-and-white. I see
a full spectrum of color now that I never saw before. I am thoroughly
unconvinced of anything. There are certain things I list as concrete
beliefs because they are things of which I have to be sure, but
everything else is negotiable. And the further in life I go, the less I
know. "I ain't gonna live forever, I just wanna live while I'm alive..." --Bon Jovi, "It's My Life"
This is what I wish I could do. Carpe diem.
Right.
Well, bugger that. I'd rather I didn't, but it's what I do all the
time. I think of something I'd love to do, and then my logical side
talks me right out of it. "Oh well, whatever, nevermind..." --Nirvana, "Smells Like Teen Spirit"
And with that closing from Kurt Cobain, this discourse comes to an end. Until some other profound lyric comes to mind. |
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