Good morning starshine
such a long summer break.
I feel upset – mistakes made affect me greatly (still not perfect, it seems!), and I feel like shit and it’s so difficult to shift my mood. I think I need a Tarot reading to settle my self.
But what am I asking? Basically: "Why is my mood so lousy - HELP"
And what do I get?
9 of cups
Got to the sauna is my first response – something I wanted to do today anyhow. Play with the waters (emotions) of life. Feel safe in your community of humankind. This is the stage of completion before a new beginning (9). Enjoy!
The book also says: "wishes come true. Visit the sacred spring and drink the sacred nectar. You will be filled with the ecstasy of sacred love. Open yourself to wishes and dreams with all your heart, let your dreams unfold without a "no" of limitation."
What do I dream myself of? Well, still the same, really: the adventurous, healing wanderer who is welcome everywhere. I see myself in a travelling situation, but also with a community. The "Healing Circus". I have a vehicle for treating people in, and there’s a yurte outside. We are behind the big top, and there is always lots going on – but I hold the quite space, the sacred well, the courtyard of tranquillity. People come and drink the water –it is healing water – in little silver cups, and then I receive them and ask what their hearts need. And it is given, granted by divine grace.
In the winter months we all dig in in our various dens. I hibernate, acquire new skills, recharge the batteries, and process all that has been triggered off by resonance with the events and meetings I encountered. The Circus goes from 1st of March till 30th of September. It makes enough money to get through the other half year without stress, with just a little teaching and therapy work.
So what is my next step towards my dream?
3 of wands
teach your children well is the first thought in my head, when I get this card. Let all your actions, thoughts and imaginations reflect the future you want for your children and their children. So the picture I invent for myself is using sustainable resources. We are travelling either in horse carriage or in compressed-air vehicles. This is something that has to come true quick, and I don’t mind being in the first wave.
The book says: The joy of selfexpression lies in the manifestation of the vision. So maybe I have to paint and evoke artistically (or write) first, what I want to manifest.
and 1 for extra advice
The Fool
serves me right – just make a fool of myself, and it will be OK. Don’t be so serious, it says. Dont’t give in to the illusion that you have to do it all by yourself – or even that you could do it all by yourself. We can never see and control the whole picture, so surrendering control will set me free. Oh yes, I remember. I was travelling as a fool, and was protected. And happy. So I can go there again, into that state of innocence. I do all I can, as well as I can, an there’s no care in the world.
yes, but what about commitment?
4 of discs
only to closing the door (withdrawing from appearances) and to meditation, to building the inner "tabernacle", the sacred space in which God/dess can dwell. Yes, that’s true. My only true commitment is to that. The quiet space, the listening space, the space from where the sacred can well up and fill all actions. That’s what I dream of: that inner pece flows into all my actions.
and one last blessing?
The Lovers
well, what’s there to say! So I will be fine.
