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Name: tAYLOR
Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 8/31/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: My BoyFriend... i love him
Expertise: Does Chuggin a Beer count? (Mischevious eyes)
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  xpartygirlx941
Member Since:
9/16/2004
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| I Havent wrote in awhile. Nothings really been going on in my life. But then again whats new? I've been so depressed but i've been trying to put on a happy face so it doesnt bother my family. Sometimes i find myself wanting to break down and cry for no reason. My sister and alex are leaving tommorow for 3 weeks to florida for vacation. Sometimes i wish i had her life. I mean i know she has her problems but it seems like shes got everything all figured out. She can do whatever she wants when she wants to. I guess what i want that she has is an easy life. Really thats all i want. Deep down it kind of pisses me off that they are going to the one place in the world that i wanna be most and i'm stuck in this state this town this house with no life at all. But who am i to complain about it? i mean i did it to myself right? well yea i guess so. Sometimes i feel a sense of resentment towards my mom only because of the fact that when i was living in florida and i told her about the things i was doing and her promising she wouldn't tell my dad she went and told him. Then things with my dad just came crashing down so when i came here for the summer i felt like if i went back to florida i'd just be going back to a mess. So i stayed here and realized i probably made one of the biggest mistakes of my life because there was no going back to my home. And thats what florida is, my home. As messed up things between me and my dad were its where i felt safe and comfortable. This will never feel like home to me and i will never get used to it. People just tell me to try but its so much easier said then done. So i'm stuck here for a year being now kept prisoner in a place i will NEVER get used to. Well anyways i wont be writing for awhile because ashley's taking the computer to florida with her. | | |
| Me Again..
My Day- Woke up early n watch some tv. The house was a mess so me n the sister cleaned up. i got in the shower and when i got out kyle n dave were here; lucky them they got to see me n a towel (i/k). we watched rules of attraction and i ended up falling asleep i woke up around 6:30 and bryan came and picked me up and we got a bite to eat. We came back to the house and went to get desert with ash n alex. After that we were gunna go out but my retarded boyfriend broke the rearview mirror off the windsheild therfore ruining that plan cause my paranoid sister wouldnt go anywhere without a fucking rearveiw mirror. So we ended up staying home once again. Me n brian stayed in my room and fooled around and he left a few minutes ago. I kno i kno, ur thinking whata GREAT life (yeah right)
Qoute Of The Day- "My Horny Little GirlFriend"
Deep Inside- He makes me soooo happy sometimes ... the little things can sometimes mean the most.
Feeling- anxious ... i havent gotten any in awhile... my boyfriends always to busy and by the time he gets around to me my moms home...
Reminder - put lock on door | | |
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Hey EveryOne. It's 1:45 in the morning. Can't sleep. Listening to music and watching roadrules re-run on mute.
My Day- i woke up at noon from a call from the boyfriend ( the beloved Bryan ). He remined me that he was going to take his driving test today at 1:00 ( By the way he's 18 and shoulda had his license a while ago; i guess we see what happens when we get in trouble with the law) so at 1:00 me and Alex drove up to the park where the test was being held so we could watch him fail (j/k). Anyways he passed. Ya shoulda seen the smile on his face lol. So the 3 of us went and got lunch and i watch them burn a gar. Didnt feel like smoking, my food just seemed more important at the time . Went back to the house and was a bum for the rest of the day.
Deep Inside- DEPRESSED! i miss my old life and i miss ya'll in florida so GodDamn much!
Maranda, girl ur still like my best friend and i'm really happy we're talking again. We used to NEVER be apart and it sucks not being able to b krazy with you. we've been through so much. Can't wait to see you.
Holly n Justin, i've known ya'll for more then half my life and i hold ya'll so close to my heart for that.. we've all Grown up so much and gone through so much together and apart. All 3 of us have our seperate lives now but i love that we still talk. | | | |
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