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Birthday: 2/18/1987
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Monday, January 12, 2009

Em Tee Lamb's Live

Site's Live which means unfortunately it's time for me to finally say goodbye. I thank you for all the times we've shared. Good and Bad. I won't delete this place just yet though. Whereas most of the important stuff has been saved and stashed both digitally and analog I would like this place to stand as a memorial to the past that I could never forget nor dare so either. Thanks again and perhaps for the last time, peace out.

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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

20XII

FREE DOXSON!

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Now playing: Spiritualized - Cop Shoot Cop...
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Saturday, November 22, 2008

20XII

...it's comming...

 

Michael Lamb 17
Matheiu Rouzer 14 and 1/2

Mael Lehrer 14

Lucas Baise 37

Allison Bredth 37

Benjamin Davis 29

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...it's coming...


Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Next Philsophy

MtL is the name of sacrifice...Ignorance is a bliss that age grows not to afford. In a world so ideal as to believe what's true is what can't be unproven whilst the mind promotes the reverse; we find ourselves in a constant conflict yet, unaware. Where do we stand in the middle ground if such a place could possibly exist? The truth of the question is as simple as the question itself. Foolish philosophy and theorem is what drives. To believe in something is to be alive. To believe in nothing is to be alive. The further the contradictions run, the greater the progression of expression and experience. Fallen heroes and lost souls share such common strands as neither are more than but fiction. To be just and righteous in a world of grays and black brings forth perhaps the most of terrible persona. Ignorance that runs so rampant as to have its wielder completely incapable of sight. We are such frail, fragile creatures. Our minds can only decipher so much at once but can take in all at once. Where are the tricks and games that must be played to release the potential of such a "super power" if not within ourselves. The growing escalation of esoteric thought brings forth all that can be imagined. To speak in a way that could only be fathomed in text is a skill that once acquired makes its master a recluse. There is one, but one, way out of all of this. One way that is as vast as the solemn pity felt towards a loved one gone astray. Happiness is such a harsh mistress. To believe it can be attained or that it is deserved has contributed greatly to the contradiction. The contradiction that thrusts life forward. The evolution of the mind in something that seems so misplaced yet it exists in files and storage of the world's greatest powers. We are but pawns until we get too close and burn. We are but single strands but at the same time deities amongst ourselves. The link to life itself is within us all as perhaps through some abstract science, alchemy, such an absolute can be expressed. Laws that dictate energy dictate far greater in relation to all existence. The very breakdown of substances adheres to make up other substances with the buildup heralding yet identical results. In it's base form we are all but energy. This desk is me. This chair is me. This computer is me. This ring is me. This me is me. Just as the black boxes of logic that comprise our technology. What zeroes and ones can't comprise all that could exist that isn't known? Cells, molecules, atoms, particles. Base pairs that are no more than our yes, no, if, and then. The link is there if even seen it is not. If only we knew.

The pain of the everlasting or perhaps the ever lasting pain is something that can't be avoided. To know that there is something out there one must accomplish is a gnawing sensation that can only be followed to produce the seeds for such anxiety. We are so sure of ourselves that we forget our futures and what such could possibly mean. To forget it all may be the only way to surpass the limitations set by standards and practice made concrete over years of decades. To find the truth is something so beautifully cruel when faced with circumstances unavoidable on such an endeavor. The absolute truth like all and any absolutes is to be feared for such could contain naught but that which does exercise phantasm. Such that would destroy a world, or save it; but revelations and with omega. To escape fate is as possible as one dare believe. To acquire knowledge of such an accomplishment is on the proverbial ledge which overlooks and hangs with the hand of all. The All. The ether. The ephemeral where dreams of utopia exist to remind us that it is what lies missing. Life. Its meaning so simple to any one with thought and determination. Without absolute, its interpretation can be naught but  correct. Life is, the meaning of life. Life is, the reason to believe there is, no, that there has to be more. Life is the contradictions of past and present and even future chaos. Life is that which grants us perspective of ourselves. Life is energy. Energy is that which connects us all. As the spectrum illustrates, we are all but merely on different ends of a line. Were there only one truth necessary it would be itself that truth. That truth that cannot be absolute as there can be none by man. The contradictions again produce length to that line, that line that encompass us all. You are me and I am you. We are but aspects of each other. We are that which exists but still not truth absolute.  If only grasp could provide. We must continue on as there is no way we could not. The one and the all. The all and the one. There is but that which fuels it all.
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Friday, May 16, 2008

Ever-ry Day-um-Day-um-Ev-er-ry...

"Drink till we can't feel feelings anymore"

Is that even possible? Were it, perhaps it would become my mantra. I'm one sad, sick, twisted individual in a hellhole full of those I could claim my brethren. I'm the majority. Personally I feel like that should be a problem but then I take a hit of another cigarette and recall how I don't give a damn.

These gahdamn streets are depressing sad colors of gray and crimson. Blood of the rats who've found their expiration dates so much sooner than they could've ever imagined. Rats that wear human faces but still can't help but pick off the bones of the fallen. I hate this shithole but it's the only home that could ever accept me anymore. Or at least that's what the FnF seem to cycle on repeat when I give a ring.

Friends and family ...what a joke. The only friend I have is the warmth of the bar stool as it keeps me just balanced enough to take another sip. Sure the place is filled with enough toxins to decrease the pathetic nature of bodily regeneration but does that mean I should care? Who lives forever anyway; right. Not I, no sir, too long has it been since I could remember such a desire. Suits me like a fine Kenneth Cole.

Can't see straight anymore. Clouds have formed and don't wanna go away. What happened to me is a question long disregarded. Man I hate myself. But that's this city; isn't it. Sick sad world of mine, black-murky dark of the reflection of my eye. No care for why, but remorse in death. Too long for a good motto so I guess I'll continue to rush these rocks clean. Maybe the next one should be dry. Would do it well with all that room to be free, even if the glass walls still confine it till I set it free into my mind.

"Just drink," a few more shots of life-liquid brings me to conclude my search. Maybe I can get back to myself once I fall. Sure, and tomorrow'll be Christmas for the rest of our lives. I hate the taste...

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