For a long time, I always thought I was always brave. I thought by taking the initiative to volunteer for something, I was being brave. [You say I'm brave? It's not true. It just means I'm not afraid of it.] But as I was talking to my barkada last night (slumber party), some topics came up. For months, I used that "initiative" to focus on something I wasn't really afraid of instead of the one thing I've always avoided. I realized, all this time, I'm just a lost little coward.  Nothing but a lost little coward.

I think now that I know all of this, I should change for the better. I guess it's hard but it's not impossible. I need support from my friends!  I also need help from the Lord. I need guidance on what to do... What should I do???

Ugh... I'm babbling again.

So much stuff I want to talk about. But as soon as i get to a computer, my mind's blank. Maybe its because when I'm at home, I don't get bored much. Therefore, I don't think so much about stuff. When I'm somewhere else bored, or maybe when I'm about to fall asleep, thoughts plague me. Which makes it hard for me to sleep.

Right now, my barkada is here. All of us are complete! Yey!!! Hahaha! All the stuff I want to tell them... all the stuff that has happened to me throughout the year... I can't seem to tell it to them straight. Lahat siguro, nakalimutan ko na. I guess it's better. I would rather hear stories about my friends! I missed them so much! It's like old times...

Pizza's here

Funny websites to visit:

http://andrius.esu.lt/10/go2.htm 

- Shake him off like crazy!

http://www.flashplayer.com/music/chipmunkzgangstarap.html 

-Violence? Rap? Got it all here in the Chipmunks...

Right now, I'm tired... So much stuff has happened today! But I'm just gonna look at the bright side of this day! I'm just gonna try to forget the other stuff.

1. I went to Greenhills McDo and ate breakfast there!

2. I walked to Starbucks and found Kim Ong sitting there alone! So I got to bond with her!  She was waiting for Angelle and I was waiting for Kenken and Mimi.

3. Kenken arrived! We talked and stuff while waiting for Mimi (who suspiciously took a LOT of time showering) in Starbucks.

4. Mimi arrived! Bonding ulit! We watched Hide and Seek. Afterwards, we ate in Dulcinea. We talked about... stuff too. Something just popped out of my head so I told Mimi: Diba the world war 2 was the 'Great Equalizer'? As in everyone had no business and no money, everyone was equal? Some started their own business and ended up rich like John Gokongwei. The transistion from high school to college is something like the great equalizer. You all start from nothing. Here's your chance to start all over again and study hard! --> Spoken like a nerd...?

5. All three of us went to Kenken's house. Kenken showed Mimi something in her computer. I narrated what happened to my year to the both of them. We also talked about the tagline of the movie Closer. It has something to do with "love at first sight". Mimi was a believer of love at first sight... but Kenken and I sort of brainwashed her. Hence the word "was".  Love at first sight is mostly physical. According to Kenken, the relationship between Romeo and Juliet is not founded on true love, and it's just shallow love.

6. Mimi left na. Kenken and I went to the playground and she told me all about her cute niece and nephew!!!! Super awwwwww.... Hahaha!

7. We went back to her house and we talked about stuff ulit... Which led to talking about high school and how we miss our friends. And pinag-usapan namin bestfriend ko... I told her about how we met and how long we've been friends. Kenken reminded me something my bestfriend said during the retreat. Which brought tears to my eyes.... I miss my bestfriend so much!

8. When I got home, I watched the rest of "Big Fish". Its was a really good film. I liked it a lot. I loved the ending. And again, it brought tears to my eyes.  

Like I said, bright side of the day....  I guess there has been a lot of them today. I'm exhausted now...

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it's my friend's blog... this specific entry is really worth reading, at least for me. it's about sex. There might not be a bibliography on researches but you know... just changes the way we look at things. So click on the link above!