Name:Arthur Country:United States State:New York Gender:Male
Interests:Writing,hypnosis,self comtemplation,annoying the bejesus out of people,sleeping,my cat,theorizing and philosophizing(or to the non believers BSing and venting my delusionals),having weird conversations and arguments and stuff like that. Expertise:The paranormal,more specifically reincarnation and alien abduction.Also government,insanity,freaking people out,writing,philosophy and space travel. Occupation:Student Industry:Other
Ok wow it's been awhile since I updated this. What can I say, nothing much has happened as far as the topic of this blog goes, reincarnation is not a strong focus in my life as it was in previous years. Truthfully this was a very disappointing depressing summer where I accomplished little, my gender dysphoria was way up and I was even comtenplating suicide. I seem to have calmed a bit but for a wide variety of reasons I don't feel the need to update this blog regularly anymore. I'm not discontinuing it, but unless something happens worth noting I'll only update sporadically from here on. I can't believe this blog is nearly 6 years old though! My posting has varied from one update every few months to as much as 10 a month at it's height in 2007.
I haven't heard anything from Bill & co. since my last update though I'm crossing my fingers he'll return soon. Back in April his supervisor seemed to suggest they'd be gone about 6 months, although I was unclear if that was by their clock or ours. It's been about 5 months so far so I'm hoping I'll hear from them by at least November. Of interest I started reading a book called The Doomsday Book by Connie Willis. It's about a time traveller from 2054 going to England during the black plague. I gotta say some of the stuff she describes sounds pretty similar to the way Bill describes time traveller. Given that she is known for time travel stories espicially I gotta wonder if she's got some 23rd century friends as well, or maybe just ones from 2054 ;). http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Connie_Willis
I did hear from the guy who said he knew Jill. He only knew her casually as a classmate. All he said was that Jill was nice and quiet, which is how many have described me in this life too. He also said Jill had a boyfriend at a trailer park, the only confirmatory detail I was able to obtain. I did have several dreams and memories of trailer parks but I hadn't connected them to Jill specifically except in one dream about 2 years ago. But hey it's something. At least he was open minded about my belief I was Jill. I should send him more messages since my youtube is working at the moment, which it seems it rarely does these days. I've had and am still having a great deal of computer troubles the past few months, another cause to be depressed about.
This is a regression & progression session I did just now, my first one since July. It is mainly informational and revolves around my gender issues and the future (2009-2010).
Regression & Progression (Gender & Sexuality issues/2009-2010)-I felt one of my biggest life goals or focuses for this lifetime was exploring gender roles and sexuality. This life is meant to correct an inbalance of adhering too strictly to gender roles in other lives. I'm sexually confused due to having a poor understanding of sexual and gender relations in many if not most of my lives. It has worsened lately due to recent lives where I died at my sexual peak before developing fully. As a result I haven't really had any mature understanding of sex and relationships in most of my recent lives. The death and brutality of recent lives has also gone a long way towards destroying my basic vitality and libido leading to current life malaise and discontentment in that area.
In alot of my male lives I was very brutal, uptight and guarded, being unable to relax or be open with people, espicially on an intimate, romantic and sexual level. In my female lives I was quite the opposite, often being very emotional but also somewhat passive or submissive. In alot of my female lives I was accepting of sexual limitations placed on women so did not usually develop confidence in my intellectual abilities and just wanted to be cared for. On a deeper level I associate being female with being safe, being able to let my guard down, to openly express emotions and enjoy pleasure. I was less gloomy and stoic in my female lives. I varied back and forth between opposite extremes of being an emotional distant husband or doting wife. I had in many of these lives a bit of a masochistic streak, enjoying or at least experiencing the vunerability and despair. (I don't wanna go into too much detail about my unusual sexual leanings aside to say this, I can definately see the past life influences on them, even the weirder ones.) Alot of my recent lives emphasized these tendencies. Actually my friend Frank recently said I sounded like i might be an emotional masochist.
In my life as Michael, the African American man (1946-1964), I felt I was bisexual and had a moderate degree of gender confusion. I was brutalized and mistreated then, turning me inward, my masochistic side being brought out. In that life I strongly desired to be loved for and cared for but because I was male and gender roles (and also racial roles in this case) were stricter then I was unable to express that part of myself so was very isolated and alone. Having had many lives as an alpha male in positions of extreme power and high responsibility which lead to my death or unhappiness I have grown to avoid roles where I would have to be in charge or have alot of responsibility. THe masochism expressed by the self destruction and misery those lives brought, leading to a degree of strong distaste for the masculine role, associating it with pain, brutality and general repression and misery. This left me very guarded and withdrawn completely in recent lives. Lifetimes with various mental illnesses such as epilepsy, schizophrenia, dyslexia and gender dysphoria all being efforts to avoid the world around me, an inward turning, a defense mechanism against having to fulfill roles I'm not suited for.
After my suicide as Michael I was reborn as Jill to test the waters of being female in the modern world. I felt the fact that I'd be born during the woman's movement was a big selling point because restrictions of women would be loosening. I think a major reason I avoided female lives for awhile was simply due to not making much progress due to the restrictions placed on women. As Jill I still withdrew alot. Honestly I couldn't see myself being a radical feminist or anything as Jill, I think I am comfortable with traditional gender roles as a female. I do feel that as Jill I retained an independent go it alone attitude carried over from male lives, which I wouldn't have likely been allowed to express as a woman until recently. I didn't need to be as guarded as a female but I think I still was fairly guarded as Jill, simply from all the violence and brutality in my more recent lives. As Jill I had wanted to learn or to experience being both indepdent and female. I noticed in alot of my female lives I was very much well taken care of, isolated, safe from danger, not out in the world much.
Despite being somewhat guarded and more independent as Jill I do think I retained a large degree of feminine softness. I wasn't a total girly girl but I do think I was fairly feminine and liked animals, children etc. but still wasn't expressing myself fully. As Jill I felt very strong emotions, even stronger than now. As Jill I cried much more easily and was very sensitive in general, maybe a bit over emotional and dramatic. I literally FELT this very strongly in this session. Sexually I was much more open than now and looked for a protector however. There was a conflict between wanting to be indepdent but at the same time feeling insecure and needing protection. I still retain alot of this now but it's less gender appropriate for a male to want a strong female protector to care for me. I'm strongly attracted to strong but nurturing women because that was what I was trying to be as Jill, it's what I have inside me.
As Jill I also felt I was much more fun but less focused. I was friendlier, more sexually open, enjoyed a degree of attention and had more relationships. I'll admit I sometimes do pose as female online and I do find I'm much more relaxed socially and enjoy myself much more. I've even considered changing my profile here to female to reflect my inner feelings rather than outward appearance. As Jill I felt I had 2 or 3 major relationships during my life. By major I felt I meant involving sex. The age I died as Jill was the age I started having sexual issues in this life. I think the sexually charged nature of my death caused me to retain alot of my attitudes and prefferences from then, although I've never felt any degree of attraction towards men. Though I suppose since my last moments then involved brutalization by a man that could be why. It could also explain the sexual phobia I had until my late teens. To some extent my issues starting when they did were almost like a spiritual clock going off, I wanted to pick up where I left off as Jill except now I'm not the correct gender as I have a new body not in line with my mind so there is alot of frustration there. I chose my present life circumstances as a way of forcing me to confront these issues. Trust me nothing is harder to ignore than the sense your not in the right body. The same goes for my female simuls who are struggling with similar issues but falling into bad patterns and struggling to exist.
Next I asked questions to my higher mind.
-Will I ever find comfort with my sexuality this life? Somewhat but alot of conflict will remain. If I truely want to be happy I'd have to open up more about my issues. A transition or sex change is not something that can be hidden so to obtain that I'd have to confront these issues, admit to them, leave myself vunerable and exposed. That's what I'd need to overcome. Kyle is somewhat correct about my gender dysphoria calming a bit should (when) I find a girlfriend but it will only be a distraction from the issues that plague me.
If I do transition it won't be for awhile. I was sensing maybe I'd come out about it in 2012 after my book (with transgendered character) is completed and published. I felt I might take action about it by 2014 and maybe complete transition by 2016 at the earliest. The year 2016 does come up strongly whenever I think about could (would) I ever go through with it. It felt like a very sexually charged year. I felt by the 2020s such surgery will be much more easily accomplished and easier to obtain so the desire to go through with it will be stronger whether I decide to transition or not, it will be tempting. I felt that my gender dysphoria would remain my primary issue for the next decade or more. I felt specifically by the 2020s it will be possible to grow female parts in labs and that by 2030 at least it will be possible to have a near full sex change. By that I mean I felt it would be possible to grow and surgically implant an artificial womb and change the body's chemistry so it will produce it's own estrogen, there won't be a need for drugs etc. I felt by then the issue of transition will be almost unavoidable due to the relative ease of the process by then. Put as simple as possible that even if now I'm ambivalent about it by the 2030s changing ones sex will be so much easier, quicker and widely available it would be extremely difficult for anyone with these issues not to just transition.
-What is the likelihood I will transition at this point? About 60% probability I will transition at some point. It will probably be later in life however but I feel that will mae me much calmer and happier in my later life, as I had felt would be the case. I feel I might be married before that and my wife will want to have kids with me before I transition or does before I decide to and we part ways there, but on amicable terms. We remain friends.
Now for part two, the progression to the near future.
October 2009: I felt I would see alot of movies this month and my plans to see Justin & Carolyn will go smoothly. I would see Chris once, maybe go to the bookstore too. I felt I'd complete 2 stories this month, my overall output would be average. November 2009: I felt that I would go to the city with Justin & Carolyn though i didn't feel Frank would make it and our big reunion wouldn't occur next month as I'd hoped, but Justin, Carolyn and I still would go someplace. I felt I'd see two movies that month and see Chris once, only on Thanksgiving. I felt I would hear from Bill this month, possibly on November 5th. I felt I would work hard on something this month, maybe producing a novelette. I do feel I'm pretty active this month, alert. December 2009: I will see 2 movies and see Chris two or three times, on my birthday, christmas and maybe once more. I felt I'd go out to eat with Chris again on my birthday and maybe also go to the bookstore then like I did in 2008, feels very similar. I also felt that Christmas would be pretty memorable this year, a big surprize. It didn't feel like surprize as in gift, but more like a memorable event or occurance. I sensed maybe towards the end of this month perhaps I would get to travel to the 23rd century, let's hope so. Oddly enough I was thinking that if Bill or I were ever to try and go back in time to retrieve my missing notebooks Christmas would be the day to go it as no one would be home. If their time were off and they came to 2009 imagine the surprize if I ended up getting an unexpected visit from myself! Probably unlikely but I've noticed that alot of my odd passing thoughts like that are often the most accurate predictions, the stuff I speculate on but don't actively see as predictions. All these progressions could be wrong and then some thought I never thought to notice will end up predicting something lol. That's why it's good to be mindful of ones thoughts and write everything down!
January-March 2010: I felt this period to be significant that I might literally not be here, I might be off in the 23rd century. Odd but I do get that sense or else there is some significant change in my life, starting the new year off right. I felt I might return home at the end of March, the duration of the trip lasting 3 months. I was thinking maybe December 26th, 2009-March 27th, 2010. April 2010: I felt I would take that trip to Washington DC that my family had been planning, maybe shortly after returning from Bill's time. I also felt I'd get alot written, maybe even published. This did feel like a fresh start kind of moment, signficant in some way. April 29th, 2010 (10pm): Yeah I like the new show Flash Forward and hell I was curious what I'd have been doing at the time of my flash forward. I felt I was walking from my bathroom to my computer area, couch. I was watching something or just finishing watching something, possibly Flash Forward! Maybe it'll be a two hour finale ;). May-June (summer) 2010: I felt this would be a hyper productive time, working in overdrive. I felt I'd finish completely the first draft of my novel. I also felt this might be when I next get to see Frank, where we'll have our big city trip & reunion. Later 2010: The rest of the year I felt strongly focused on my writing and maybe by then am finally getting stuff published. I also felt I'd get to see my friends more and that there'd be new people in my life. My mind felt abuzz with new ideas, it felt like a period of renewal.
That's all, no dreams, it's too late now and honestly nothing impressive there lately anyway. I'm not certain how much top trust these progressions, whether they are just my hopes, dreams and fears or fantasy. At least some things have come true. I'd say I get a rough outline but that maybe half of it's padding or filling in the blanks, we'll just have to wait and see. Some good advice though from the film Next: Every time you look at the future it changes. Perhaps just by seeing my future I am changing it. Even Bill said the act of predicting something itself changes the event. I guess that is necessary for free will to exist, no prediction can be fully accurate because the act of prediction changes it. It's that changing of the original vision that gives us free will.
Well, not much to say I guess. June sucked and the weather left me severely depressed. Right now I've finished typing up all the notebooks full of material for my novel and am in the process of chronolizing it then putting it in the correct order and then I should be near completion. Probably alot of editting, but a 2011 publication date is still realistic. In the meantime I gotta try and write some short stuff. I trued limiting it to just ideas from the last month but that was nearly 30 ideas! So write now I'm updating my blog to put off having to decide which story to write lol. Let me start by updating on the time travellers. Haven't heard much, just 2 messages from Col.
"william sent 6/15/2009 9:12-9:16 AM: Are you still here ********?
Hi *******, its Col again. I was just wondering if you'd maybe heard anything from anyone.
Ive found some letters in a file that I guess I was supposed to send to you, do you know anything about them?
Well, it looks like you're not around, perhaps they came back for you. Doubtful but still possible. Anyhow, if you're about at any time today, I'll be around.
Col.."
As usual however I wasn't there at the time the message was sent but at least I missed him by a good 3 hour margin instead of just 5 minutes like the other times, so it's less frustrating. Probably reading alot into it but it is interesting their 21st century contact did not miss me by minutes as they did, suggesting perhaps they had access to my journals where I say what time I woke up, but that Col does not. I actually kinda hope that's the case cause I wouldn't want someone from the here and now I don't know reading them. Various 23rd century bureacrats reading it doesn't bother me though, I guess cause from their perspective I died 160 years ago so it's less personal, dunno. Actually maybe it would be good if Col did have my future journals because there's always the hope maybe he wouldn't be bound by as strict a code of ethics as the time travellers but it sounds like he doesn't know much more than I do, I'm sure the travellers wouldn't be that careless. Col didn't say much other than he doesn't know when they're coming back and the reason I didn't get my letters from 1760 was that he was the one responsible for mailing them but forgot. He just remembered now cause he found them in a file with my name on it. Hopefully he'll send them now and that I'll have them in a few days but who knows when he'll get my reply, this is the first I've heard from him in 5 or 6 weeks. I did end up reading alot of the time travel wiki. If your interested the multiple worldline theory of time travel as described there is the one he said is correct and sounds like what he has described to me.
I later received another, again I wasn't there at the time :(.
"william sent 7/2/2009 9:43 AM: I guess not.
Are you one of the residual beacon monitors?
Im getting something in the Miranda region of the spectrum but I need another beacon reading in order to calibrate the triangulation protocols. It could be Base Prime trying to communicate but there needs to be at least three receptors in this period in order to magnify the event.
Let me know if you're a beacon operator please, asap...
Thanks,
Col."
What it means I do not know. Also it looks like the beginning part of the message may not have gone through, seems to happen alot. I think it's MSN, if a message is sent too rapidly it doesn't always go through. But anyway it sounds like a beacon must be part of their equipment. Bill had mentioned that there always had to be 3 people on the singularity generator for it to work. Sounds like they might need 3 stations on for them to reach here. I certainly am not a beacon or if I was supposed to be their out of luck cause I never received any time travel equipment, I'd know cause I'd have written ALOT about it by now! Still haven't got my letters either, this guy was supposed to mail them to me, but he never responded to that inquiry. Hopefully he'll find the other beacon at any rate, at least it's a sign the future people might be returning soon, which is good cause there's alot I need to ask them. Whether they can send messages back from the future to our time without the messages physically travelling with them was never made clear. John Titor claimed the message had to travel with the machine but that was one of the early machines 200 years before Bill's time. But since they had to send him letters that would stay in transit for 120 years I have to assume there's no way to send a message from 2236 and chat in real time with someone here in 2009, otherwise alot of their problems could have been avoided. Will keep you posted, crossing my fingers that they'll return soon.
I haven't heard anything more from Col or Bill or any of the travellers since July 2nd, but I was looking at the IMDb messageboard for the movie The Time Machine(2002) and came across this interesting post by someone named cs91:
"Of coures time travel is possible, how else would I be here? I'm using a model H90 78hpm electrostatic/gravitation destabilizer with EMF-lock capability. The only thing that annoys me is how those idiot instructors of mine back in 2084 don't trust me with it. But I guess I could understand. The machine is time-locked to 700,000 hours (I can only travel 700,000 hours back and forth (just under 80 years)). Since there's only enough power for two trips, they can control exactly where I am going (between now and 2084).
I've been here a few months and my assignment is just about over, but i think ill remain here for a while because I've grown quite fond of this time period. Everything is so much more complicated and yet somehow so much simpler (especially Google. you don't wanna know what happens to that. It was a headline in UK Today yesterday - bloody Jonathon Page is thinking of bringing it back now that the government ban has expired.)"
This user only made 4 posts on all of IMDb, this one was posted on August 31st, 2008. I checked their profile and the last time they were active was May 7th, 2009. I sent them a message and mentioned my name, something I normally wouldn't do, but I'm intrigued. Can't say if there's any truth to this guy's claim but it sounds a little similar to the kind of stuff Bill talks about. It's a long shot but it has some feeling of authenticity to it. In 2084, if I were still alive, I would be 100-101 years old! Maybe that's a slim chance but Bill did say I'd live a very long time to come, so maybe. Whether he'd have any idea who I am might be unlikely but he'd be closer in time to me than Bill's era is. Bill said I was more well known in his time than I will be in mine, so the chances I might still be alive and that this guy would know who I am in 2084 are probably not good, but it's exciting to think this could be someone who could potentially contact an elderly me if I'm still alive. And if I'm not, well maybe he'd know my date of death, as it's probably not far off from 2084 at any rate. Again this guy might be totally fake, but hey nothing to lose by asking. Crossing my fingers Bill & co. will return soon, I'll have to mention this to them.
That was all for time travellers this update. I get the feeling I might hear from them July 15th, just a gut feeling, not sure why. But I do hope they'll be returning soon and that the offer of traveling with them to the 23rd century still stands. Will keep you updated as always. There's a remote viewing session I did of Bill in my dreams and visions section of this update, though it could just be imagination, and bIll said he could block remote viewing. I take it to mean they understand how it works, although Bill never commented on the accuracy or inaccuracy of what I had seen on those occasions, though some of it definately seems in line with stuff he's said.
Also on the reincarnation front on youtube I found someone who commented on a video that he went to school with my most recent past life self, Jill Montgomery! It figures my youtube account isn't working and makes me sign in constantly but I found out he does have a website- http://www.freewebs.com/groovyhipppy/myprofile.htm and he seems like an open minded guy, so I'll try contacting him there. It's worth a shot anyway as the odds of me actually contacting someone who once knew my past life anywhere else are probably pretty slim. He didn't say how well he knew me though, just that he attended my funeral. I don't think I'll say I feel I'm the reincarnation of Jill right off the bat, just ask him about Jill in general and see where it goes from there. Wish me luck, this is pretty exciting!
I tried joining that site but it won't accept my password or name each time, having that problem with alot of sites lately . So I simply posted my e-mail address in the guestbook and asked him to e-mail me. It doesn't look like the site gets alot of activity so hopefully he'll see it in a reasonable length of time, but like with the time travellers I guess I'll just have to wait and see. I'll admit I'm a little nervous as I'm not really sure how to handle a situation like this. If he's offended at the notion or thinks I'm crazy I'll admit it will be pretty disappointing but I guess it can't hurt to try. I get a good vibe from him, some familiarity. I've had a gut feeling someday I might come into contact with people from that life so here's hoping this is it.
I have an online friend who's been to Jill's town too and I had even thought maybe he could have tried leaving a note on Jill's grave the day before her birthday addressed to Jill's family, in hopes they might visit the grave and see it. It's a bit of a long shot but I'm not sure I'd want to do that, it might seem creepy. It's a delicate situation but since Jill's family listened to a psychic claiming to communicate with her, and Jill's mom had after death dreams about Jill suggesting spirit communication, the chances are their at least open to such possibilities, although reincarnation is a bit different. Claiming to be in communication with the dead and claiming you are the dead person are two different things altogether. For now I'm crossing my fingers on this guy.
One last thing perhaps worth a mention. The Brazos River picture on this photos page- http://www.freewebs.com/groovyhipppy/ap ... id=2296453 looks exactly like a scene I saw in a recent dream from May 20th, 2009. Not sure if there's any significance but I felt it was worth mentioning.
The dream: Last I was sitting at a pond with friends and the horizon looked cloudy and dark. The sun was setting and we recalled a fight we had, which we resolved and made peace with using Native American wisdom. I wrote about how similar our people were and admitted I lived a past life in the time period I was writing about, the 1830s, Trail of Tears etc. As it turns out on this day 8 years ago I also dreamed about Native Americans as well.
After finding that guy claiming to be from 2084 last night I decided to try and do a remote viewing of the year 2084. More specifically, in keeping with the multiple timelines view, I tried viewing myself in a timeline where I would be alive in 2084. It has dawned on me that all these progressions are only viewings of possible futures and all are highly subject to change. But here it is. This is my first progression or regression of anykind since March 22nd, 2009. This one is from last night, July 13th, 2009, incidentally the 27th anniversary of my death as Jill.
Progression(2009/2034/2084:Primarily 2084)-It started with the feeling of all the things I see, all the people, places, things and times, are static and changable, there are multiple worldlines that are always changing. I probed the question of whether I would be alive in 2084 and the answer was on SOME worldlines, the direction is always changing, including my date of death. All of the death dates I saw were possibilities including many many many I did not see, so there cannot be absolute certainty on anything, that is how free will can exist without violating the ability to see across time or travel through it. I specifically focused on seeing a worldline where I am potentially still alive in 2084, rather than just probe 2084 in a general sense.
The first thing I saw was myself in a wheelchair. The wheelchair is automated and has a computer screen that pops up from a lap pad or lap tray across the chair. This allows me to communicate and the chair responds to my voice commands, it is quite sophisticated, almost like Stephen Hawking's chair. Fortunately I do not seem to be crippled, but I was old and walking was difficult. The wheelchair allowed me easier and faster mobility to allow me to attend lectures and events, although I mostly use the computer to watch things taking place at a distance. The video picture on the computer was very clear, not jumpy or with a lag like computers today, it was very efficient. The chair and built in computer allows me to record everything and communicate anyway, my record keeping is potentially even more extensive then, thanks to this.
The place where I am living appears to be some kind of shared living arrangement with many others residing there, though I would decline to call it a nursing home, but it is similar in concept, or perhaps the thing that replaces nursing homes, once care for the eldery becomes mechanized. There's an old man there, though he is younger than me. I felt him to be a colleague or fellow sci-fi novelist, maybe someone working on a collaboration with me, or maybe I was mentoring him, the former seems more likely. He felt like a son or relative, but that could just be how I felt our relationship to be, rather than a literal father-son relationship. The year 2024 came to me as the year of his birth, making him 60, which was old but compared to me, who would be about 100, he was young. It was a care facility, but the purpose was more for companionship, which was why I declined to call it a nursing home. It was older people voluntarily living together but most of the care was automated, so I felt in some sense nursing homes were obsolete and these shared living arrangements were what was now their rough equivalent.
As I was mentioning everything was automated, technology allowed the old and feeble autonomy without needing to be confined to nursing homes. The living together part was more of a recommendation, so the basic concept of a nursing home is still in place, but it's function and purpose was now more social or practical than necessary confinement, if I'm getting that across correctly. Doors opened by voice command, the chair could drive me to my room or anywhere else and the computer allowed me to communicate with anyone if I needed help. Caretakers I felt were around, but largely unnecessary, there just for emergencies. Robots took care of the residents, bathing them, feeding them, getting things for them. I felt there were small robots that I could command to go to my room, locate something there I wanted and bring it to me as easily as if I asked a human to do it for me. Also felt I could be in contact with my room remotely through the chair, like I could open the door from a distance or see through the robot's eyes and give it commands. Interesting as in the 2050 progression I also had a robot assistent which I felt were developed as early as the 2030s, these seemed more sophisticated however, as should be expected. In this instance I even felt I had a robotic cat that could do everything a real cat does, even feels real, indistinguishable from the real thing. You can pet it, it purrs and the hair is non allergenic.
Physically I felt myself in reasonably good condition. I was definately quite feeble, but for a 100 year old far from incapasitated. I can still get around and maintain active contact with friends and family through excellent communications techknowledgy. The world feels more humane towards the elderly, possibly because with lifespans increased there are a much larger number of them. Old folks are treated well in this world and automation of most things makes care very simple. People who today would be incapasitated and needing constant care were by this time period relatively self sufficient, not requiring people to take care of themselves or get around. Most of the diseases associated with age, such as alzheimers and disability, have been eliminated, which is another big factor towards the phasing out of nursing homes as we know them today. Fortunately age does not seem to bring extensive debilitation as it does today. I can walk on my own accord but the chair is just easier. But if it broke or I needed to escape from it I could get up and walk, though probably not very fast. I felt myself to be physically weak but not slumped over in a chair drooling, I was still alert and mentally sharp, able to at least communicate and attend events to at least the degree I currently do. I felt that my dad before me lived to 103 and mom to 100 or 101, the same age I was in this progression, I seem to be thinking about that fact at this period of time. So they died in 2052 and 2055-2056 respectively, so they'll still be around when I'm old fortunately.
I felt by this time I had written 73 books and that in addition to that I was pretty active in the community I'm part of. The best way of describing this place would be a planned community, almost like a commune. This may tie into those specialized cities I felt existed from other progressions. This community I was part of was made up of writers, artists, people who think like me, it's a good place for them to all live and work together, it's very intellectually simulating, which is probably the point. The reason for living together is to keep mentally active and free from loneliness. What the age range is of people there is uncertain, but the 60 year old guy was there, so it's probably a pretty wide range and might not be all old folks, just alot of them, probably gathered together based on similar backgrounds, from a similar generational period. I have a home elsewhere I think, but I chose to live there. The apartments there are fairly large and spacious. In most rooms the walls are all very white, they appear to be screens that you could change or project anything unto. There are holographic projection rooms and it's possible that the walls could send videos or even holograms projected from them, so you could pretty much contact people anywhere from any place to any other place. You could also watch movies projected across your walls, almost like home IMAX movies, and you could probably play videogames on them too or interact in a holographic or virtual world.
This place is very peaceful and it is where I die. I see myself sleeping and am awakened by emergency workers. My medic alert went on indicating that my vital signs had stopped. It's peaceful however, I can see the sun shining on my sleeping or dead body. I saw scenes of stars projected on my wall and there was a feeling of peace. I didn't need a large space to live in, with projection technology I could be anywhere from in my own room, even feel I was in space. I felt this future could be the one where I die on October 5th, 2088.
This was only one possible future however, much as the 2067 death scene and the others I had seen. I could chose life extension or not. This was a more positive future, a fairly liberal humane world seemed to exist then. This death scene and the place where I live out my final days was very vivid, I had a strong feeling of peace from it. All my records, files etc. existed on my computer I saw myself having, so I'd always have access to it.
Last I asked some general questions and tried to probe certain dates. This was again at the very end and very late, so the strength of these predictions is weak, I don't place them as vivid or accurate potentially as the rest I just wrote.
-Will I be a time traveller myself? Yes, extensively, it will be a big part of my life.
-I felt the time travellers will return soon and that I may get to see their time soon as well, maybe September.
-In trying to probe which story I should pick to write from my list I thought of some titles, but they were ones I was thinking of before. I just got the message start small and short, work your way up to bigger things. I felt there was no chance of me getting published any earlier than September at my current rate and even that is iffy.
-I probed the date May 23rd, 2034 to see if my 25th anniversary meeting at the mall with my friends would take place. I wasn't sure if the mall still existed as I know it today, but I do remember the date and my plans. I felt I was at a book signing maybe or that I did arrange something big for that date. I felt Carolyn was married and Justin had kids, a son at least.
-As far as the rest of 2009 goes I felt our planned reunion with my friends won't happen this month, not until August. Also felt I might get a cat in August. I doubt I'll make any progress seriously towards getting stories fit for publication until September. The last part of the year felt more productive, important and eventful, but not by leaps and bounds, did feel more important than the first half of the year. I might even take a trip to the 23rd century ;). I dunno but September feels like a major month for some reason, so we'll see.
That's all for the progression, think I'll put my remote viewing under here and then onto dreams and other visions. So here goes.....
This is my remote viewing session I did during my nap on June 26th, 2009.
Visions & Remote Viewing Session(Nap): First I was in a dark run down city where the sun was only vaguely shining through the thick grey clouds. It felt like it was the 2070s, possibly 2072 or else I was in my 70s. This didn't feel like an actual future though I sensed it was time travel related or a military operation of some type. Also saw visions of future woman I might know, a blond girl and an asian dancer I think. Feel I was the only one to ever treat her well.
Next I was trying to psychically view Bill or communicate with him. This could well be imagination but he did seem to hint that remote viewing was understood in his time and he could block it if he knew about it. Not sure if what I'm seeing is him now as since he's technically in the future there is no right now, by definition he is not being viewed ever in real time. What I saw when trying to sense where he was I saw a building, which I felt was very secure, like Fort Knox. It was a dark or cube shaped building and I felt it held files and documents related to temporal issues, it's where my files would be kept. It was a bright place on the inside and was top secret, had the feel of an FBI or CIA type building. In order to access the building you needed the proper DNA imprint which a computer could read. While inside your every action is recorded, everything you see, hear or do and any files you access will be recorded, so nothing in there could be done in secret without anyone knowing. The security there was unbelievable. Computers and AIs watch everything and it's not a very private place. The hallways were very bright white and it almost reminds me of that place I saw in the Star Wars dream I had shortly before episode III was released, very white and bright everything.
In trying to focus in on what the immortality treatment involves I saw needles being injected into you and there is something like a transfusion done. Also lazars scan the body. Full body scans via lazar seem like a common feature in the future. Body scanners allow a person to be detected and identified by their body heat and movements, so it would be hard for criminals to hide in this world. I felt they could detect my viewing of them and were not pleased with it.
The building I was viewing I think was in New York and contained alot of computers. People were at them receiving a constant stream of information via lazars. The buildings in this place are all very white and reflective, very tall and there were lots of trees around, very green. The sky was also very blue. This was June, possibly June 26th, 2236 or 2237. White was a very common color in the future and might have had to do with energy, solar power perhaps. These surfaces were made with a new plastic like material we cannot produce today. Speculation is that the white buildings might also be so the colors can be changed by computer or projections of videos or info on them.
Computers then are just a screen that is interactive and responds to voice commands and touch. I thought I might see this during my lifetime. Cars didn't necessarily fly, but they were more compact and aerodynamic. They were controlled by computers, produced no pollution and there were very few accidents. Cities are larger with taller buildings and larger urban areas, cities expand to consume alot of surrounding suburbs. These large urban areas however are very quiet and free of pollution, a very clean future. Buildings aren't dramatically larger but there are many more skyscrappers than you see today and there were moving walkways connecting most of them.
Flight is much quieter as well and much more rapid. Planes were smaller and more compact, but there were more of them with fewer passengers. It was almost like a hovercraft or a bus. I felt flight might be as cheap as bus fare is today, at least for short distances, and it might even be a free service provided by the government. There were still trains which were also much faster. Trips that would now take hours could be accomplished in minutes. I think the trains resembled maglev trains, which could be propelled rapidly through underground tubes. I felt trains were less common than today however, with the mini planes being a more popular form of travel. Trains were only good in that they carried alot more passengers, probably over greater distance. Boats still existed and mostly glided across the water. It was rapid to travel across the ocean and transport goods and passengers, but I felt boats were also less common in the 23rd century. There are ocean cities and outposts as well as fish farms and undersea colonies. We have a much more extensive presence in the oceans than we do today.
Large cities have expanded to the sea and over the water. Compared to today, as well as building taller buildings, most cities had alot more underground areas and undersea areas. Skyscrappers may shoot up high into the sky but there are levels going under the ground in the same manner. Cities are elevated more, possibly due to rising floodwaters, but the city sizes were not that much bigger, even if they contained more in the same space they currently occupy. New York City then has around 20-35 million people, about 2-3 times as many people as now. I felt that cities would start looking like this even during my own lifetime, in my later life.
Holographic ads fill the sky. The 4th of July is much more impressive due to this technology than it is today. There are lots of shows and plays using holograms as parts of their presentation. There are also lots of wall graphics with computer and holographic images along most walls. I saw a future Penn Station littered with all types of holographic images all over. The city that never sleeps retains it's title, being very bright even at night. New Years will incorporate holograms by mid century and cities will be full of them. There will be significant changes to cityscapes by around 2050s-2060s, where it starts looking significantly futuristic compared to the present. Along with this, information is very easy to access, with information terminals and internet access pretty much everywhere. I felt it was very easy to reach anyone pretty much anywhere and that places then had many more levels to them than they do now. People all had video phones and watches, like portable internets with you at all times. Most suburban homes are flater, more slanted and have solar panels I think. They look more plastic and have white reflective surfaces. But towns like my own don't look profoundly different than they do today.
Space flight was routine but not a universal experience that everyone can say they've had. At that time however spacecraft leave Earth eveyday and can be seen much as we now see planes in the sky. There is almost constant traffic of ships going to and from Earth, a common sight. You can watch them entering and leaving our atmosphere like regular planes.
It's getting late, think I'll do the dreams in the next update, I'll probably update again soon though, so keep checking. Hopefully interesting stuff will happen.
Sunday June 7th, 2009-Ok so as usual haven't updated my blog cause as usual not much happening. Actually I did resume contact with my old friend Justin whose life in the past 6 years has been pretty messed up to say the least. He explained in detail how that other dimension he claimed existed was a lie and how he came to believe it. I might post that here though at this point I feel it may not be worth mentioning. Other than that same old same old. VERY close to finishing typing up the details for my novel so I'll probably finish it completely this year. In between that though I gotta pick a few short stories from my list to write in the meantime cause the worthlessness of my existence is really starting to annoy me now. It takes a long time of something bugging me before I actually act on it. Sort of like how I put up with several weeks of internet explorer problems until last week I started using Mozilla which solved that problem and is just all around better. Luckily when my internet isn't working as good I do write more, so it had a silver lining I guess. I still think it's possible I could get my novel published by 2011 as Bill had said though I'm not sure if something changed. They still aren't back yet and my most recent message was from May 4th, 2009: "william sent 5/4/2009 4:06-4:10 PM:Hello..Just before they all left, they said I should keep in contact with you and only you. Are you the real S.S. , the one who wrote all those books on Bills shelves? Looks like youre not there at present. Im Col, not a traveller, just an associate of the bureau. Im their "man in Havanna" so to speak. I hope we'll get to chat before they all get back, whenever that will be. See you, Col.." Since I'm trying to keep more anonymous I'm replacing my name with my initials S.S. At least it sounds like I'll get a good portion of my ideas published if Bill has shelves and shelves of my books. Kinda weird to think someone from this time has access to them. As usual I missed this message until just 5 minutes later by which time they had left. They never wait around. Curious though is they always send the messages within minutes of when I wake up so I end up just missing them. This is interesting for the other reason that I write when I wake up in my journals, which they claim to have access too, so factoring in how the clocks are all a few minutes off they have sent messages almost exactly the moment I wake up, I just missed them by the skin of my teeth, it's annoying. I hope I'll get to talk to Col, it would be interesting to talk to one of their associates who is in a similar position to me, as a 21st century contact. But that's all I've heard. Hope I'll hear from him soon. Will keep everyone updated on this. I don't plan to post full chats here though for privacy purposes as alot of them get pretty personal and I don't wanna give away personal details but I will summarize the key points as always. Today's update will be exclusively dreams and half awake visions and memories again, nothing special. I feel obligated to update simply because it's been so long. If anything interesting like a trip to the 23rd century occurs believe me you'd hear about it. April 18th, 2009 Dream(8:23am): I was at Chris's house during a party and we had developed a plan for a massive simulteneous uprising of every death camp during World War Two. The dictators however catch unto our plan and the people rise up with money(many?) govt as destroying in coups. I'm a king leader of a new country, Germany I think or one of the surrounding nations, and I am parading around as king. It was exciting. On the way out, I think of a store, I saw some UFO/Abduction tapes on sale as in an earlier dream and I woke up. I recognized the store and tapes though from other dreams although I do not recognize the place as being a location in my waking life. 2nd(10:17am): I thought I wrote this dream down but woke to found I had not. I think I had another false awakening where I wrote the dream down in the dream itself before waking up for real. That is annoyingly confusing but strangely seems to happen alot. I wonder if it's because when I tell myself to remember my dreams when I write them down I often picture myself half awake writing in my dream journal and that somehow this gets incorporated into the dream itself. That or I dream about trying to write my dreams down themselves since it's a concern I often go to sleep with. Odd but interesting. As to the details of the dream itself I was with some kid I didn't recognize called Mike. We played a game where we acted out past life stories mostly about Rome. I was playing Tiberius and he was playing an escaped slave or emperor, maybe Augustus. We both recalled being Tiberius Gracchus but he felt his claim was stronger cause he looked more like him and also was blond. In the dream his face seemed to morph to look almost like a statue sculpture. Between interruptions by a teacher I talked to him and we had alot in common. We were trying to determine who was who past life wise and I was trying to find out what kind of lives he recalled. In his past life or mine a girl looking like morningstar perhaps convinced him to hide in a pig's entrails to get into a city. Originally in this dream we marched out of a city with Julius Caesar and seemed to be close to him possibly knowing him personally. This was at elementary school I think. After all of this I got off my couch and saw that kids were playing basketball on the Colbert Report. I missed getting the ball in the basket but the asian guy who went after me got the ball in the basket. I wondered if the asian guy was the recurring asian guy in my dreams. THen I was in my bathroom comtemplating my notable past lives and wondered about whether my current life would be an NPL. April 22nd, 2009 Visions: As I was going to sleep I had a vision of an ancient Greek or Roman place that I felt existed in the afterlife, was an interlife memory. Then saw what looked like a modern place, a very fancy hotel with a hottub. There was a Greek or Italian man there with black hair as well as a woman and little girl. I felt I was the woman than I might have been the guy. I was feeling this might be my simul in Italy. Dream(11:03am): I was back at my home on Christmas day in a past year, not sure when but I was thinking maybe December 25th, 2001. I was seeing myself getting ready to leave and looking at my notebooks, the missing ones. After leaving I had my notebooks. Bill was online and saying alot of things about God and Allah and him getting married. He spoke of Allah more than God but was holding both beliefs in contempt and was arguing for their non existence. They were invalid and I think he proved it or else suggested that later in my life I'd abandon my belief in everything including reincarnation. But there was something about religion and memory in this dream. Like once memory was understood reincarnation and other things would be explained away. I think this reflected my desire to go back and get my missing notebooks. April 23rd, 2009 Dream(8:20am): Something about my personal records. I was looking at something 2000 years old and was getting rid of it. Doesn't(different?) factions? and stuff. Wasn't sure how to gotten since though?. Not sure, doesn't ring any bells. 2nd(9:40am): Ok this was a seriously odd dream. I was in a stadium with disabled or disturbed folks and then had to run. I went to go to some area in the woods outside. I wanted to lay down in a stone area in the grassy woods. I am thinking I wanna find my soulmate there. I felt her wake me by touching my cheek. I awake still in a hospital like area where I think I use the bathroom and recall past birthdays. I saw myself at a party and had water. I get soap in my face and eyes as well as on my glasses which I felt gave me problems? about using. I wanted it off of me. The big part was with Chris. I took a doll to the bathroom and preformed odd experiments on it in dim light which made me feel scared. I was flying ? with a doll or a bunch of toys and I was saying I was gonna exmine their organs and begin dissecting them knowing exactly what everything did, looked like and where it went. As a young kid who never wished? anything like that, my mom was sleeping?. This only happened once so it was a good thing there was a tape of it. But it was dark sensed and felt western?. But I don't want to help anymore. It was scary to see dolls and toys cut up. That was where it ended I think. I did this myself in the bathroom with Chris. I felt I dreamed the medical stuff on a dark alien ship. Ryan Tyler was a name that came up very clearly in the dream. I only vaguely recall this dream but it had a spooky important feel to it at the time I was dreaming it. April 24th, 2009- Dream(7:02am): Had a hard time falling asleep last night and had that feeling of unreality again. The main point of the dream was an age of death which varied alot. I naturally chose I should live to 120. Part(pot) keeping me complaints(implants?). Eventually I set a ???. In the dream I saw Syl alive reflecting in the tv across the state(street?). Suppossedly? obvious but it made up for all the stuff I'd ever heard. 2nd(11am): Something where I was with some girl and there was something about reading and writing. I think there might have been something about copyright maybe into 2010s-2030s. They spent a fortune? in jail. April 25th, 2009 Dream(10:30am): Hard to describe, I only recall fragments of this dream. I was at home I think growing plants for a selfish reason. I don't know but I was on tv with my liberal agenda or something like that. I don't recall much but I was on tv I'm pretty sure. I also was at an airport or something lost with someone trying to get out of there. We confront an asian girl and others in an office or lounge. I needed a pardon(?) and maybe got one. Also there was something doctors and it was raining. Visions(Nap): I was getting feelings of having sex in a past life or in the future. I saw a countryside that looked Italian or Greek, maybe Eastern European but I got a sense of village life and operas etc. I was thinking of Bruno but then more recent and in central to Eastern Europe-Italy-Greece and everything between, that whole region. I was thinking Sandor maybe but it felt simple and rustic. I thought it might be simul or recent life. It felt like cars, televisions and the like existed but maybe not everyone had them or they weren't common. I was thinking perhaps Mussolini era Italy or recent past, in the last 50-75 years or no furthur than that in the future if it's in the future. Was thinking this could be a blending of lifetimes rather than just one. The time period at any rate felt like it was perhaps transitional, like I lived between the transition from the old country to the modern world. Had it been Mussolini era Italy that'd make sense. If I was born in the 1890s or 1900s I could have grown up in the rural countryside without electric, cars and the like but be aware of their existence. If I lived into old age in the 1960s and 1970s I'd have lived to see the country modernize. I felt that could have been a source of conflict in that life. I felt like a modern person living in a backwards but peaceful rural area and maybe moved or travelled, left home and got involved with modern society. I did sense that concepts such as democracy, communism, fascism and the Catholic church and reconsiling all these ideas was part of that life as though I shifted my beliefs over time or experienced all of them. April 26th, 2009 Dream(9:19am): After going to see The Day the Earth Stood Still we(family and I?) went to Chris's backyard to recreate the original movie complete with a replica of the spaceship and Gort. We lined up as Family Guy characters and I was really laughing about this guy in the desert with a big head who we called Big Head was the only keeper(George?). I saw explosions and felt them too. I felt I proved(planned?) the attack but now were gone(?) at any rate. Before this was talking to others in the car about stuff, not sure what. We were discussing Carebears and me eating stuff. I was wanting the light speed or faster than lightspeed to affect Earth. Might have been reffering to the time terrorists speeding up the flow of time. 2nd(11:06am): I was in class and we had to pick an assignment to do. We all picked stuff. I had Jesus or space travel as my topic or assignment. We were gonna do research in the library. I go home or end up in this place that looked familiar. I saw a Burmese museam where I saw a statue of the head of a dictator and(at?) a table with quotes explaining the evils of the regime that had cards offering sympathy from America. As this was a dictator's residence I found that odd. Then we had the Australian guy yelling and stomping our way. I think Joe was there with me. I went into the bathroom and used the odd toilet and then hid in the bathtub with shower curtains closed since I see no mistake of ours but why take the chance of getting caught. It ended there as far as I could tell. Vision(Nap): Had another series of visions of Jill's life, a mini regression, as I was trying to sleep. I will list them. -Jill had an ice cream cone dropped on her head once getting ice cream in her hair. -As Jill I liked to spend evenings out in the summer with my friends often getting home very late. Often I'd go swimming in the lake. -I had a friend in that life who smoked alot. The crowd I travelled in was not shy about drugs and alcohol and neither was I, but mostly only with others as a social thing. I don't feel I was as into it as alot of others. -There was a dance place I liked to go to hang out with lots of lights and colors playing loud music. This might have been a disco place and I felt it was in downtown Waco. Feeling of the night life, neon signs and such. -Every summer there was an event I would always attend, like an annual tradition. It might have been a barbarque or a festival. I felt it took place in the park and there were fireworks, it might have been the 4th of July. I'd watch it with my friends or family from a park bench, an impressive display. -As Jill I was clumsy, more clumsy than now even and my motor skills were similarly poor. -One time Jill had a needle in her stomach at the doctor. I was thinking maybe it was a rabies shot but that didn't feel quite right. All I recall was that it hurt alot and was memorable. -As Jill I wore alot of tie dye shirts, peace symbols and smilies and possibly also indian vests. I had quite a wardrobe selection, lots of bright colors. April 27th, 2009 2nd(11:12am): Then carbonize(??) this guy's entire ?? based outside(?) upright?. He lived or did in the 2060s. He's a Sigmund Freud like figure mystical(??). There was a big ?? into UFOs about all this. I feel old and alone in this dream. I think what I was saying was there was this major revolutionary figure in the 2060s who changes pyschology and perhaps investigates ufology too. I felt old and lonely cause if this dream was in the 2060s I'd be in my 70s and 80s. This dream could reflect my feeling that there will be a major development in the understanding of human pyschology around when I die or am old anyway. April 28th, 2009- Dream(6:55am): I was in some place where there were Billboards with my name or someone else's name which I felt was a travesty, using my name and image without permission for free. I felt this was all from the 1780s or 178 years ago. April 29th, 2009 Dream(9:13am): There may have been more before this but it started where I was in a store looking at comics stacked high with many Wolverine comics that had an audio feature I wanted to listen to. Some kid there complained about me being in his way. I move as I see a young girl making rude gestures to me so I get my comic and go. I walk around the store and wanted to look at sci-fi books by Heinlein like last time(See April 13th, 2009 dream). I end up in a place with elephants and odd looking aliens or alien like creatures as well as dinosaurs. I climb up on rocks and look down where I see what I felt was John Travolta or a robotic android looking like him and he was singing. I interrupt or recognize this place from another dream as well(November 7th, 2008 perhaps). John Travolta is there to entertain Obama and his friend who was also my friend. I felt my friend's career had made him pompous but we were still friends and I was a supporter of him. From there I'm driving in a car with my mom where I'm strapped in and lying down face forward on my stomach. I thought this was cool and relaxing but if we crashed I'd die much easier. As we drive we discuss how she might get a full million dollars but maybe she said $100,000. Even $30,000 would be nice. I was saying how dad should be allowed to retire and that would allow him to comfortably. I think she was reffering to the money her aunt was going to leave her. We might actually have been driving in/to Colorado as it was definately a rural area. Somehow in the middle of this I started hearing an exerpt from what I guess was a tv program about this woman who had a past life regression to a life as an Irish woman in the 1700s. She had lost her baby and was craddling it in her arms but the baby was invisible and she was mourning, possibly hallcinating she was still holding her baby. I made commentary on my own past lives. Either before or after I was at home and Justin had been there or I was looking at old letters and things he sent, alot of which his mom wanted back but I was reluctant to part with. Syl was there I think. I also heard that Josh regretted or had second thoughts about his sex change, his decision to become Jocelyn. Last or maybe sooner, I was on my stomach in Chris's room and sensed a presence and saw the outline of it's spirit. I was having pangs of doubt about the existence of the soul but he said he knew(?) more about souls, the soul thing. There was something about a Garcia or maybe Darsea or anyone else for that matter and was a cause of OBEs. It ended there I think. On the whole a detailed dream. I also dreamed something about mom's e-mail. Visions(Nap): An army on horseback which I felt were arabs or Mongols who were stampeding across the desert firing arrows at me. I was in a desert settlement with lots of rocks around with a wooden wall surrounding. We wanted to put up stone walls as well and were firing arrows in retailiation. This feels like the Chinese desert and was quite vivid. Era is uncertain but probably Mongol or ancient China circa 300BC. May 1st, 2009- Dream(9:25am): Might have had another dream before this but it looks like I just wrote something in the wrong place so I'm considering this the first dream. In the dream I appeared to be or appeared to be with a drug addict trying to obtain drugs and alcohol. Time travel was involved with this somehow. I didn't drink but those around me did. Mom, my aunt and Chris I think were in one car in a parking lot and I was in another, with my dad I think. I was thinking about alot of profound info in this one. According to records(in the future I think I meant to imply) I did(n't?) drink or do drugs but here my addictions were destroying me(??). There was alot of dialogue most of which I couldn't recall. I felt I went to the future 10 times. Also I saw Poppy arguing with mom and my aunt. It was a reflective contemplative dream but I can't recall more beyond that point. I felt it important I be in the future about 30 important species myself(?). Not sure what I meant there. May 3rd, 2009 2nd(11:22am): I was in a different era where I got my book published and endorsed by FOX despite my writing being extremely leftist making fun of things like Fox. There were actual numbers like 16, 54 etc. reffering to my books or copies, like # of the order of publication I think, my 16th book, my 54th etc. I also sensed myself as an old dying man walking in pouring rain. When I woke up it actually was pouring rain out. I was thinking of Orwell in the 30s and 40s in this dream. May 5th, 2009 Dream(10:30am): I was watching South Park with a group of others and we were selecting the best Sci-fi story of the year. One guy wrote about his childhood experiences on a fetish board and others wrote about time travel. I saw a receit showing a list of books that were bought and showing the publication dates of sci-fi stories and books from the 2070s mostly, through the 2090s, with some from the 2060s I think. I was trying to watch something downstairs but Dad angrily turned it off so I went upstairs but the tv was off or broken. I tried taping South Park but the VHS tape only picked up sound and looked like it was near the end of the tape. For some reason it only played audio data so I listened to it as I held the tape in my hands. When I went to sleep I had a lamp on but when I woke up it was off but I don't recall touching it. All the books on the receit were about time travel and possibly were written by either me or one of my friends. 2nd(11:58am): Overslept on this one. First I dreamed it was Christmas at Chris's house and we were watching tv. I was thinking about Frank being there which was kinda odd but I felt this was an odd Christmas. I've dreamed about Christmas at Chris's house quite a few times actually. From there we went home and I saw my parents leaving the house with Syl in his cat carrier cage and still alive. They were part of some weird apocalyptic cult and they felt the world was ending. I didn't want to go cause if the world was really ending I wanted to just stay at home and die. My parents went into the garage and I think blew themselves up in their car. I was in there at the time I think but I was unharmed. It was dark and SWAT team guys were there. Next I was Echo from Dollhouse and I was being pursued by odd agents including one spooky looking guy in particular. I was in the bookstore and ran past history books including ones about JFK and World War One I think. Then I was looking at odd action figures from some gothic Tim Burton like film, maybe a real one I'd seen while awake but I'm not sure. There were only a few action figures and they cost $70 as a set. Barely avoiding capture by the spooky looking agent I got in an elevator which closed just before he saw me and took me down 4 or 5 or possibly 9 floor levels which was 1000 miles beneath the Earth's surface. I saw a message on the door scratched into it but I barely looked at it and forgot what it said. When I got out of the elevator the underground place I was in was pitch black dark and I felt that I was in the Dollhouse. I was aware a guy was there in suspended animation as he was meant to survive the apocalypse. I couldn't see anything which was rather frightening, and there was glass all over as the result of a fight that had taken place there earlier. I think that might have been the message that was scratched unto the door as I don't know how else I'd know that. Eventually I saw agents following me with searchlights and I knew I was screwed. I looked up the elevator shaft and saw the sun above the Earth which I felt was dying because of me. I think somehow my mission was to reach that underground base to stop the sun from dying. The darkness might symbolize a lack of sunlight. May 6th, 2009 Dream(9:34am): I dreamed I met my long lost family on some Colbert like tv show. He, my father or grandfather I presume, lived through World War TWo and had to free Nazis but we hardly knew him, at least not fully or I didn't anyway but we had read his journal. It was like a part of him survived and I was arguing with my fictional brother over him. My bro sticks close to tradition though my father was a progressive man. I was old in this dream, in my 50s I think, 54 specifically stands out or possibly older. I spent my summer copying books and painting copies of them. This project took alot of time and effort to publish and I was trying to sell an odd piece of merchandise. In the end I felt fulfilled and satisfied I did long to know the sperm man??. I make ammends with my father and the past. All this was taking place on a tv show. Note: I will turn 54 on December 4th, 2037 so if this is reffering to some kind of future it'd probably be the year 2038. May 7th, 2009 2nd(10:02am): Odd distressing dream. I was at Chris's house and my aunt hated everyone and had become a total right wing fanatic. I can't recall exactly what caused it but she didn't want us there anymore and she turned out to be a man and a skinhead. There was a sexual deception as well. She was mocking my weight and appearance as well as my dependence and lack of manliness. I just wanted to ask her/him a few questions before I agreed to leave. We got into an argument over Native Americans having guns or something. I said this was all distressing as she was mother of my best friend and nothing could change that, although I felt we were done interacting with each other and I was moving past my family largely, there was little connection left between us. Then I left and was in some kind of restaurant we drove to that looked futuristic. I was thinking that the time period was the 2080s, maybe 2089. Not sure if I travelled through time to get there or if I was still alive then and old. I was trying to reach Bill to let him know I no longer had a safe house for him. In this restaurant I came to a room with computers with odd seats. I found one computer was open to the Web Amici forum and I was there as one of the new inactive members. Then I was back at home and there were figures in my home or outside where it was raining. The figures were shadowy looking beings I felt were aliens, the greys or something like them, maybe more human looking though. I shined my flashlight at them but I was worried they'd get inside. Last I was taking a bath and dumped out a bag of my quarters from school, I think for Bill's use. My mom then wanted to weigh me outside of the tub. Something changed genetically or environmentally, I think having to do with gravity and only those getting out of bathtubs can measure the difference, so my mom wanted to weigh or measure me before I was late for school. That was where it suddenly ended. Visions(Nap): I saw myself in a wooded swamp area talking with Native Americans, an elderly native man standing out in particular. There were big hills, a lake and trees with orange and brown leaves suggesting this was autumn. I felt this was from my 1800s lifetime and was just prior to the Trail of Tears began. Got a brief glimpse of and intense feelings of reality related to life in the town or city where I lived. I was having a disagreement with the old man. I think he was nervous or didn't want to leave but I was trying to convince him to go along and coooperate. This man might have been my father in law or grandfather in law. It was particularly vivid though. May 9th, 2009 Dream(11am?): Almost forgot this dream, only vaguely recall it. I was looking at movies online and I think I was getting ready to go on a long afterschool Spanish field trip with my parents. I didn't want to go cause the trip was long and boring. THe human race needed an upgrade, not a downgrade. There was more to this but I admit I can't recall it and probably will forget this dream completely by the next time I read it. I've been telling myself to remember my dreams but not with as much effort as usual so I guess that's affecting my dream recall or lack thereof the past few days. On this day I also found out via facebook I'm distantly related to this man, so it looks like I incarnated on the wrong side of the family tree, this guy actually seems more like me! Tomás Linn Tomás Linn was born in Montevideo, Uruguay, the 16th November 1950. He is married, and has a daughter that also works as a reporter. Has been a journalist for the last 30 years and since 1989 is one of the two senior columnists of Búsqueda, perhaps the most influential weekly newsmagazine of Uruguay. He teaches at the Universidad Católica del Uruguay since 1989 and presently is Coordinator of all Journalism courses and of the Program for Investigation and Research on Journalistic Issues, at the University. He has published two books on journalism and are usually required reading for students of journalism. "De Buena Fuente" (1989) is about political journalism and "Pasión, Rigor y Libertad", published in 2000, deals with issues related to journalistic praxis. He has a third book (Los Temas sobre la Mesa, 1994) on Uruguayan politics. He obtained a degree at the School of Journalism in Buenos Aires, Argentina (1970-1973) and a degree in Communication at the Universidad Católica del Uruguay (1998). In 1995-1996 he was a Humphrey Fellow at the University of Maryland (College Park) where he took courses in Journalism and Politics. He started working in Montevideo's "El Diario" (1974 to 1982) and was Managing Editor of two newsweeklies (both of them opposed to the ruling military regime in the early 80's). He briefly worked in radio and TV as well as in Reuters Agency. He has also covered foreign events such as the guerrilla takeover of an embassy in Bogotá in 1980, where several ambassadors were held as hostages and the US presidential election of 1980, in Washington, DC, and New York. In may 1991, "Búsqueda" sent him to Moscow for a full month. He wrote a series of stories analyzing the delicate situation of the USSR, months before its final collapse. http://www.wordpressinstitute.org/linn.htm May 10th, 2009 Dream(10:04am): Varied dream. I recall being some place. I was at the bachelor pad of some African or South American dictator. The floors were diamond and there were riches all around which I was afraid to steal even though I could've been set for life even just stealing a little bit. I served this dictator until one day I somehow managed to overthrow him. I'm excited over this and later, despite my fear of failure, I give a speech. I was worried that I'd become paranoid. Next I'm involved with another national conflict right me?. Somehow it resolves and I have no time to go back to the basics. I'm later in a bad apartment. I had Hercules(Herald?) 1000 years old and wasn't used to such conservative(?) traditions(?), creating plastic ones that will please homosexuals(?). I save the day, keeps setting me off. Parents(?) watch planet is in distress(?). Last part I saw antique clocks(comics?) and toys from 1850. I still have PMS. I could go back in time to get lost stuff. This is all the more of one more(marxist?) purpose. I saw a door that could send you 122 or 922 years through time. I did that perhaps deposing the dictator but even then I knew something. The chronology in the dream was very confusing. There was something about Frank's family having lived in the dictator's bachelor pad originally but they lost it to the bank(?). I remember this dream but it was so confusing as to the order of events and specific details it's difficult to describe it accurately in words. 2nd(11:52am): Similar to the above dream. I wanted to go see Corpse Bride in the movie theater as we have the rewards card I might as well. However it is not the right day so I don't. There was a girl I had a crush on across the street I wanted to go to the movie with. I felt she was like an old childhood friend or that girl next door type I felt was missing in my life. There was also something about a blond girl there who had taken the world's largest dump and there was someone who had pictures that could prove it. Made me think of that South Park episode, More Crap. I think there was also something having to do with the 2050s. I was posting something on web amici about how I would distrust the claims of anyone saying they chanelled a being named baby or anything like that. I think I meant if someone channelled a being that sounded like some slut's screen name sort of thing lol. May 13th, 2009 Visions(Nap): Something like 9/11 but maybe multiple buildings were being bombed en masse. May 14th, 2009 2nd(10:12am?): I was Tiberius and I was looking over my new palace and all the obscene statues there including one about my mother, I was pleased with this. Then I was seeing a guy painting and was having him blob paint unto stuff that I was praising as great or impressive but he left in anger thinking I had been mocking him. I felt he was Andrew A who was also good at art, a past life of his that I possibly knew as Tiberius. I think there was also a guy chiseling my face and head as though he were capturing a picture, which I think was meant to imply he was doing it super fast. From there I saw myself as a kid and I hit someone with a baseball bat and was running away. Next it was nighttime and I was in the field by schools near me, the area between them. I was carrying a sick kid naked on my back. I was trying to save him I think but he was thrashing around and I couldn't keep him on my back. We were freezing and I saw others. I tried to flip the kid off of me so that he'd die of hypothermia instead of me and I heard people were yelling. I felt safe but really fought with the kid on my back. I felt guilty throwing him off but as a kid in the dream I could feel a tingle in my spine as if all the trauma was leaving. I thought of the children as being like a grey and I left him to die only to end up dehydrated in the hospital myself. This all felt like a real memory but I'm sure these events were not true even if they alluded to real events. I did feel I was regressing to my child like state however and was throwing a fit in the dream. Very vivid and interesting. My leg hurt today too. 3rd(11:46am): I had gone back in time to the 1950s and was selling souls or signing people up for protection against Satan. I'm in a small office and a serial killer is after me and the others there. I hide with this man and this woman and we locked ourselves in an office. THen furthur we hide in a closet in that office but it's cramped. Then I leave with Bryan H as people are going around the town looking for the serial killer. I'm over near the walk in doctor and my mom finds me saying she was worried sick as she did not know where I was. I told her I was just walking with Bryan trying to find or escape from the killer. Next I'm at his house removing his face and stuff so we can scan him for info. My dad or his dad I think mentions how he is transgender and I was saying how awful not knowing who you are etc. I just agreed not wanting to give away my own secrets in that area but I was glad these were understanding people. After putting him back together we learned nothing. Last I need to pee and see lots of toilets and stuff either behind bars or out of order. One has a marking on the door saying "If you are here your 10th ot 100th in line for the toilet." I woke up needing to pee. Also there was a part of this dream where I was in front of my house and was saying where I was on 9/11 or else it was 9/11 and we were looking at the smoke from the World Trade Center rising off in the distance. I had just woken up when it occurred. Note: These were vidid dreams though I think the times on one or both of the first two must be wrong, I think I copied the time for the first or second dream from seeing the same time yesterday. May 15th, 2009 Dream(8:51am): This entire experience lasted a half hour at most. I was at Chris's house and was talking to David Icke and someone else, Alex Jones I think, both prominent conspirascy theorists. Either Alex Jones or a major abduction researcher of some kind. I told them I respected them and we had a similar goal but the fundamental point or conspirational focus on has been on capitalism vs socialism, all conspirascies somehow tie into that conflict in some way which I felt we had to lean on. I send new connection rapid recall between the 3 of us was alien abduction. I said I was respective of them and both had to work together though I trusted Alex's(?) claims less. I saw and felt myself in Chris's room reliving life with them, all the awards(awful?) ??? experiment(experience?). I was not the one to erase it, Stryker was. In my flashback I felt all the pain the greys did to me. When I got to 1600 points(?) my girl(memory?) be gone forever. But I recall being(?) rapidl but the real one I endured 100s of procedures. At one time I almost took hammer??? to destroy all things done could feel rape, sperm samples being taken. I felt at age 66, feel obligated to wipe them off. Had I gotten born true it was true. I was being sent on a suicide mission. I was unable to walk or see as the recall of past rape was ??. I saw the next day, recall the rape. There away ??and my 2 friends believed it. No ?? to do. But I did wanna leave all this stuff, found it's 2060. Prior to all this I ran to the store to buy a few DVDs etc. I bought them and other stuff and drive off, mom was taking a short cut noon's daytime would take. I gave ?? could've(couldn't?) met Dan(??) like in ??. Went into the comfy(Corny?) muffled(?) on the teached(?) one more day helper. I was hiding(holding?) in a ?? recall all the episodes but some ?? you will see but the whole video was very weird, thought you'd be ??. But I did recall frequent sexual violations as a woman or by a woman. After that I was afraid and just wanted to make a ?? life for me free of ??. Had to retry but won I'm not worthy enough. I remember this dream where I felt myself reliving sexual abuse and experimentation at the hands of the greys repeated numerous times. It was frightening and very vivid but I can't recall much of the specific details and when I woke up and wrote the details down I felt like I was repeating myself and couldn't recall anything clearly but this was definately pretty singificant and I think I felt needles. Can barely read what I wrote. 2nd(11:12am): Dad was in my bed upstairs when I went to look for him. He claimed my bed was overheated meaning he was too warm in it. He also said how could you believe all this crap in refference to my paranormal books. I think he was specifically reffering to a bible open to the book of revelations. I responded how could he not believe it even if some of it is wacky. There was a black(?) scale that measured blackness(?) on a scale of 1-10 and I was a 7. May 16th, 2009 2nd(10:07am or 10:40am?): Not sure of the time there, I think the later. I was in the ocean at night swimming by Atlantic City and I was in love with this girl. Back on shore a girl asks me why there are no black sharks(?) and why there are no black alien abductees. Then aliens do invade and leave behind a freaky(?) microphone like device or box. Earth evolved naturally like this, the alien's species did not. Their message was a warning not to put a price on things until they are unviscious(unveiled?). I try to talk to the box the aliens left behind and I'm shot(?) but the aliens made me ambassador anxious(?) diplomatic self there. I think the defense secretary was there and I think she might have been the same one from the Day the Earth Stood Still. Was anytime of day and(or?) night you'd have hold to(?) having you be them. May 17th, 2009 Dream(10:50am): I had been at home I think or else aunt's house and was watching stuff but certain things weren't set up or working. To give me an energy boost dad gave me one or two shots. Frank might have been there. Later I went out to eat with mom at Ruby Tuesdays but it cost $89 which was several times it's normal price, off the wall expensive. I had an old collection of stuff, magic etc. and paid a wizard to cast some kind of spell. I also went back in time to the year 2000 I think and ran into Frank walking along an icy road in the city. Not sure what else but I saw a message board profile(?) or something in the years 2050 or maybe 2080. Visions(Nap): Saw nude or bare breasted white woman on an ancient beach. There were some men fishing by oceanside cliffs on the beach and I was thinking that hunting and fishing lives were more common like that in 10-12,000BC which was when I felt this took place. May 20th, 2009 Dream(10:06am): I was in class and given a project to do for social studies about Native Americans. My mom was all panicked by this and was looking for a report I did about the Cherokee in the 1830s which I look over. I didn't think I had social studies tommorrow so figured I have more than a day to do it. I look at this paper I wrote years ago while in the bathtub and then later at a fancy restaurant. Last I was sitting at a pond with friends and the horizon looked cloudy and dark. The sun was setting and we recalled a fight we had, which we resolved and made peace with using Native American wisdom. I wrote about how similar our people were and admitted I lived a past life in the time period I was writing about, the 1830s, Trail of Tears etc. Also while I was there I saw Dan who said nothing. I tried approaching from a distance but I didn't see him there. I think another(a nature?) was outside(?). I was in the bathtub because I wanted abe(?), eat before(a bit?) getting to all that, the report I mean. I felt less panicked and rushed over the report than my parents who didn't seem to think I'd get my paper done on time. As it turns out on this day 8 years ago I also dreamed about Native Americans as well. May 21st, 2009- Dream(10:17am): I felt I was wearing a sausage suit, though why I don't recall, but I think gods were about to do it. I felt something like it was 10 years in the future via this vision. I think I committed murder or else was framed for committing murder. There was a sense of wanting to find from simpsons or something. May 22nd, 2009 Dream(10:55am): It was late night I think and I was doing my blog. It was weird(?) and I think I saw Justin on a street corner. Actually I think I was big Pete describing how I met endless Mike but this was really a metaphor about me(Pete) and Mike(Keith). I think the place where I was standing was covered in snow piled up quite high in mounds. I was saying or thinking how we met there and just got off to a bad thought, on a bad foot so to speak. There was more but I just recall I was up late and watching American Dad I think and wrote in my blog how Herald was fake. Justin had felt he was the reincarnation of Da Vinci he was a Venetian soldier or something trying to bring down the ruling family in Venice. He allowed himself to believe he was his idol, Da Vinci, to worship him and distance himself from reading a book about him. That way he wouldn't realize the fallacy of his claims. Note: Justin never claimed to be Da Vinci in real life, only that Da Vinci was an Idle Herald. The rest also is just stuff brought up in the dream bearing to reality to his real life claims, although I could see him in the past life situation brought up in the dream. May 23rd, 2009 Dream(9:17am): It was the future and I was trying to get stuff ready to show Justin about the time traveller. All I recall is that I showed him clips of life on Mars etc. but that was all. The people on Mars were pyschos I think. I feel there was a bunch more, like maybe aliens or time travel. I'm really not sure though. I was planning(?) alot then. May 25th, 2009- 2nd(10:24am):I saw a pool and was thinking about greys. I saw a desert and someone was narrating about how the greys bring people through a tube, or through the desert, to the future, often after the apocalypse. I felt worried and was looking at a pond and thinking about being published etc. Then I woke up. May 26th, 2009 Dream(10am): Not sure where this dream begins, but I was in the city, I think visiting friends. Some of my friends and I were across from some old house and were from the 23rd century. We were seen as aliens(?) or maybe were spying. Others were glad to see us go but a few were kind. We'd gone centuries without cars(?) things. Last incident was sitting in the snow at the neighbor's thinking that what we did was wrong but we were doing something good in her place. Later I was at Chris's house but also had to poo so was in(on?) Chris's toilet listening to Justin, Frank and Carolyn talking(?). I let them know I'm there and I am government(going?) I'm still sick(?) and it's getting late so we'll have to hang out some other time. Somehow what we had, had great spiritual significance. In the last part I was at the computer busy talking to many people on messenger which was when I got a message from Col I think, who was telling me about the time travellers and stuff. But that was where I woke up, don't recall what he said. 2nd(11:37am): In this dream I saw a video of a house being destroyed by a tornado as shown from the inside of the house. I saw the house breaking apart from the inside via cameras and the women who lived there were running in terror and getting killed by the tornado. May 27th, 2009 2nd(10:44am): I was some godlike superbeing able to live forever and travel anywhere in time & space. All I recall is going to the woods by Chris's house looking for where Curtis lived but not finding it in the specified location. There are lots of other things but I don't recall them. A majority of these few(will?) by then, in the 2040s, will live to at least 100%. I think what I meant was that by the 2040s a majority of people will live to their 100th birthday while now only a few do with immortality eventually becoming reality. May 28th, 2009 Dream(11:09am): I was in a library looking for books on Orwell and UFOs and was climbing some place to get to them. I'm in the bookstore but only for a half hour since mom is running an errand near by and I was just getting a brief visit. I recognized this place from previous dreams, it felt familiar. Next I'm on a plane and sit down next to a blue girl looking like Mystique from X-men. I think in this dream she was a time traveller. Then I also see a black man, looking a bit like Neil Degrass Tyson, although I don't feel it was him. He was dressed in black and possibly read robes and I felt he was death. I sit between the 2 of them saying look at my 2 friends death and the grim reaper(?). Note: I've been neglecting to remind myself to recall my dreams lately and again it seems as though it does make a difference. May 29th, 2009 Vision(Nap): Jill was talking to an old man at school about staying or going somewhere. Very vague, there was more about this but i forgot the reasons immediately after. May 30th, 2009 Word Count. Number of words: 15904-Orwell's wikipedia page. According to Bill his bio of me was 10,000 words so that is about as long as an extensive wiki page. May 31st, 2009 Visions: As I was going to sleep last night I was thinking about Jill being naked in a gym shower lockerroom at school or a pool. She was walking slowly and felt embarassed and exposed cause all the other girls were wearing clothes. I feel this was a significant or recurring dream that Jill had relating to insecurities. I feel I might have had some body issues then, was a bit shy about my body image. June 6th, 2009 Vision(nap): Vague feeling of a song in the 1970s Jill was listening to, maybe from 1972. Very vague, mostly just a feeling of the time and place. Well that's all folks. You'll here from me again either when something interesting happens or when alot of mundane things build up for awhile lol.
Well not much happening in my life so really not much blogwise. Nothing new to report except a few time traveller related things. Back in March I came into contact with a man named Thomas Bradbury, Bill's supervisor. Bill was a victim of temporal terrorism stranding him in the past. Fortunately a picture of the house Bill sent me allowed them to find him and he is now safe. I was suppossed to receive some letters from 1760 but recent events seem to have disrupted and just today I got some very interesting news. Wow I haven't updated this in a long time so I still have to post a summary of my chat with Thomas from March 26th, 2009. So that first, then today's stuff. Chat(Thomas Bradbury): Ok this will probably be my only post today since my computer has been massively uncooperative tonight giving me problems for nearly 2 hours. On the plus side though I got to talk to Thomas Bradbury on MSN, only for maybe a half hour but he answered some of my most burning questions. He says he'll be on again tommorrow so I'm hoping that will work out. Here's a summary. Direct quotes are from Thomas. -As regards to Bill here is what I found out: "We have so far extracted two letters that were written to you, by Captain Yates, in the year 1760. Would you like us to forward them to the address that you supplied to him? Please bare in mind that these letters are over 240 years old and to receive them you must agree that you will not attempt to profit from their potential dollar value in this period. Yes, we've read one and the ink seems to have survived very well. It appears his extended and enforced stay has had some affect on his use of English. It appears to the eye, a little rustic and more akin to that period than this. Captain Yates is quite safe. He has been supplied with technology that should allow him to repair the damage to the insertion event envelope and this in turn should allow him to return.Very well, we'll send them as soon as the bureau releases them. That should be in the next couple of weeks. We're still going through all the letters that he deposited, there are several hundred so the is a distinct posibility that there will be more addressed to you." So this should be interesting, more so than that coin Bill never got around to sending me before getting stranded in the past. Even without them asking I probably never would think to sell the letters, I save all my correspndence, why should such special letters be any different ;). I also infer from this Bill has been living in the past from 1645-1760 so I'm sure he'll have alot to say about that. Nice that he still remembered me and was kind enough to write me! Thomas said once I receive the letters if I want to respond I can e-mail them and they can then write it out in script and deposit it in the 1520s where Bill will hopefully receive it a few centuries later. Not exactly first class mail, snail mail is even lightspeed compared to that, but what other mail service allows you to send letters to colonial times and back! He said Bill will need a very extensive period of debriefing in his time before being allowed to return to his work in the 21st century. I might not get to talk to him for a long time but at least we'll be in long distant contact. Important thing is the picture he sent me was sufficient for them to reach him so it's a good thing he sent it to me. -Thomas tried explaining how the terrorists trapped Bill but it was incomprehensibly technical to me. Short explanation is the terrorists rendered the path he takes between the time unusable. He explained their limitations in periods: "Time travel used to have non viable targets, the largest problem area being in the 1940s but such problems have been overcome in recent years. Its not the events of a period that made event periods unviable. Its more to do with the circular core rotation of the timelines. It used to be impossible to syncronize to the correct rotational parameters but these problems have been negated. All time events are now open to us within a bracket of around 3 million years." So it seems that no one has yet visited the dinosaurs or the formation of the solar system. -Bill was successful in making sure the drunk driver did not run me over in February 2009. He named the street where it was suppossed to happen and it is a street I pass by frequently. So no worries there I guess. He said I shouldn't worry about how my future can change like that to suddenly living past 2071 etc. as it'd drive me crazy. This might suggest a butterfly effect type thing, where changes in the timeline will cause the entire timeline to change beyond just whatever specific change was made. If all possibilities exist somewhere I guess in some universe one of my parallel selves died last month. I'm safe now but it's still a bit unnerving to consider all this, probably could drive me crazy lol. But I guess it really is all a loop, Bill saved me in February 2009 and I helped him get back in contact with his fellow travellers a few weeks later. If we hadn't met we'd both be in bad shape right now, espicially me! -Unlike Bill Thomas is not a fan of Jesusman and finds it offensive and doesn't understand why Bill finds it so amusing. It seems most of Bill's travelling companions have different tastes than he does and he seems to be much more liberal than they are. My initial impression is Thomas may not view me as positively as Bill does or at least strikes me as more serious. It's very possible that partly the reason Bill chose me as his contact was simply a matter of personal tastes. If your going to have a long term contact with someone it makes sense you'd chose someone you can relate to. Thomas is new to the operation but says he knows quite a good amount about me as well but mostly just an overview: "Only what Ive read in your file. Im in control of over 150 in-situ contacts so I only have overview knowledge. Yes, I have operatives working in 12 different time zones." So it does seem that I'm far from the only one having such contact, in fact it seems as though they may very well have present day contacts in every region of the Earth, a complete monitering of the whole world. Must say they operate pretty efficiently in that regard. -Next I asked about how long I'd live and such which not unsurprizingly was classified: "That information is classified but lets just say you're going to be around for a very long time to come. Nothing can change that. You enjoy reasonable health but you could do to exercise more. You are too lazy. Its not out of the question but it is unlikely[that I will live to 120+] unless you decide to buy the gene therapy that will become available." So that is good news that I'll be healthy and the fact he's aware I'm a lazy fatass shows he really does know specific detail about me ;). It also supports one thing I did see in my progression to 2059, that I felt my life was being sustained solely due to the existence of gene based medicine. -I finally got answer to the question of whether my elaborately detailed personal records/journals etc. survived and were available for viewing to the public: "Not anyone, they arn't on public display or anything. I could[find out what I ate today etc.], but I ahve far more important things to do. Besides, not every part of your journals survive, there are several years missing. There is nothing you can do to make sure they survive. They will go missing, it will happen, it has happened andd there is nothing we will do about that." He said he does have access to what survives and might have found a way I could see that the missing years are preserved but he'll discuss it with me tommorrow. But at least it confirms what I hoped, feared and was most curious about, at least some of my records still exist. Probably better it's not on public display, perhaps journals aren't put into the public domain as a security risk. Assuming it was available to anyone someone who doesn't like me could easily go back in time and use that record to find me anywhere and kill me or something. So it's probably for the best they are only are available to a few. -And lastly just before or as he was leaving I asked him the big narcissistic question I've been wanting to know for almost 3 years, how well known was I ;). Actually he didn't give any indication of just how well known I'd be only that I'm known solely for my Science Fiction and am better known in the 23rd century moreso than in my own time as I had suspected. The question he did not have time to answer is just why I'm more well known 200 years from now than during the period when I'm actually alive. My guess, again speculation, is that as a result of my contact with these time travellers my fictional stories will predict the future with uncanny accuracy and be remembered for it. At any rate it's good that I'll grow more popular with time rather than less, even if it won't do me much good once I'm dead other than making it easier to find myself next life. Also if I'm more popular 200 centuries from now it suggests a world that is more sympathetic to the things I care about and more the type of world I'd approve of than in this time. I intend to discuss this more with him tommorrow. Then he had to leave or else he'd be late for his concert. I guess one perk of time travel is that you get to attend things like that you'd not be able to otherwise. Will keep you informed of any new developments and I'm crossing my fingers we'll get to talk more tommorrow. The time travel stuff(posted on web amici-4/17/09): OK Time traveller related news. Today I again just missed a message from the time travellers by a half hour or so and am pretty dissappointed. If only I'd been there an hour earlier who knows what today could have been! Odd thing was I was thinking of sending a message to Thomas last night about how I have not yet received the letters. And with other cases where the time travellers were around I had a dream about them strangely enough and was even thinking about them at the time they were around. I should have thought to check my messenger, damn, damn, damn! Sorry I'm annoyed. But here is the message consolidated: [quote]william sent 4/17/2009 2:56 PM-3:03PM: Stephen, are you there? Come on Stephen, pick up the feed!!!!!! This really is of the utmost urgency. Please stephen, its Thomas Bradbury. We have conversed on this timeline, I know we have. At least for the foreseeable future, about 6 months of your time. The errect of the temporal terrorist attack is spreading. Its moving through time at around a hundred times faster than the natural freflow of time itself and is converging on our temporal anchor. If we dont sit thyis out in our own time then there is a serious risk we will never make it out of here. Looks lie you're not there.~There is a serious danger that we operatives are all going to have to pull out of the 21st century. After all your help, we wondered if you might like to come with us. No doubt you would have nut Im afraid we cant waste time. Maybe next time, you will love 2236. Thank you for all that you have done, we'll be back. Soon by your calender, several months by ours. Thank you again, Captain Yates is alive thanks to you.Thomas Bradbury.[/quote] And last night I had the following dream: "I had gotten gifts?? from them or from Captain Bill and took some anti-pyschotic medication. I had recalled having small toys or a case of something given to me by Bill that vanished. I had the feeling an evil time traveller had stolen it from me or made it such that I never had it which made me worry the past had been changed." I must say this was one of those wow moments, not sure what to make of it honestly. It is interesting that the dream seemed to premonate their problem. In fact the dream said similar to what they would tell me when I had woken up so I seriously do wonder if there is some telepathic compenent that even they are not aware of. I had sent them a reply, which I don't know if they'll receive, that suggested an interesting point. If they have access to my journals then it might be possible for them to search for refferences to themselves. If Bill went missing or I was talking to them or if they had some problem it would be recorded in my journal so for the duration of my lifetime they could easily anticipate any problems that might arise for them here. If my journal says Bill went missing etc. they could potentially prevent it by reading about it in the journals in advance unless I'm misunderstanding how these things work, which I may very well be. I still don't quite understand how these timeline changes work but this terrorist attack seems to be threatening a pretty wide range. I don't get the impression though that anyone but them would be affected by it. At least they all seem to be safe and will be back soon. I'm a bit unclear what he meant though. He seemed to imply he had been talking to me for at least 6 months FROM now OR he'll be gone for 6 months but by their time. Bill seemed to suggest that by returning to the point a timeline changed you could merge with it. This terror attack might just affect those who are anchored here which might threaten to annihilate them. Hopefully though this implies they'll be back soon and Bill too after spending 6 months in their hometime of 2236. What affect this time change would have on non travellers I'm assuming is none. Bill had said any change he affected in my past I would never feel on this timeline because I'd always been moving away from the changes at equal speed. These terrorists on the other hand appeared to have found a way around this resstriction and have sped up that rate of change so what that means I don't know. I presume though I'm not in danger or they would have told me but it leads me to the next point. As to the offer well wow, just wow. That was kinda last minute and I really don't know how they'd pull that off. My guess is had I gotten in touch with them in time someone would pick me up from the safehouse he says is located a mile away from me and bring me back with them when they went. Gotta admit as curious as I am something like that is very iffy. At this point I trust them and they seem to really trust me but still how do you know for sure? If someone said I have a time machine I can take you back with me and just asked you to go on trust well how would you respond? The whole terrorist aspect has me worried. What if terrorists disguised themselves as them in order to capture their contacts or something. Leads me to wonder if any of the other 150 contacts Thomas was supervising did join them when they left. I had seen a video on youtube of a man claiming to have met himself from 2043. Can't disprove it one way or the other but it makes me wonder if time travel is only 25 years away are we going to start seeing more and more claims of people getting visits from themselves? Once time travel is established will there be regular communication across time like that and right now contacts are being groomed in preparation for that time. I honestly can't say. Yeah I know I over speculate but how could I not?! I think ultimately my curiosity would outweigh my apprehension. Given the genuine opportunity to travel to the 23rd century I don't know if I could resist. The message suggests that the offer still stands when they next return so I don't know what to expect. I certainly don't think they could fake something like that at any rate. If they took me to the future well even Frank level skepticism can't stand up to that. Weirdly enough we had been discussing that and he said given the chance he'd go. He seemed to feel something like that would never happen even if they were real. If I did go with them would it mean I'd be gone 6 months? Would I go with them spend 6 months in 2236 and then return before anyone here knows I was gone? At this point in my life I am very off the radar. With no job and limited contact with the outside world I could potentially disappear without it raising suspicions providing those I do know here know for a fact what happened to me. It's definately raising alot of questions for me. If I did get to go to 2236 I imagine I'd be under tight watch. When Bill travelled to 4101 he said he wasn't allowed to just walk around freely so chances are whatever I did experience in 2236 would probably be limited. I'm sure pictures or videos would not be allowed. But still it'd be well worth it. It seems to me like this would qualify as meddling but maybe not. Even if I did go to 2236 assuming no one could prove I really went there and my acquired knowledge was restricted would it really affect things here? Oh I'd write volumes about it, that goes without saying, but it would be unprovable essentially. I'd be 6 months older maybe but then how different would anyone look in 6 months anyway. I've speculated another thing, and bare with me as this is a BIG speculation, but maybe they intend to take me there permenantly. It is odd they made this offer when in private I was just thinking about something exactly like this. I was thinking of someday writing a full book about Bill and his adventures and include as a plot point the character based on me travelling to Bill's time as part of the plot and meeting future fans and stuff. Well if I do write that book Bill would definately know about it and that may very well be the book that gets me pulled out of obscurity, likely by Conner Wade. Maybe the reason I'm more popular in the 23rd century is I am a resident of the 23rd century! Or at least a guest. In a conversation with Frank we brought up the following point. If there was a society like theirs with immortality and time travel what happens for those who lost relatives before the advent of immortality. Would they want to live forever without those people. Would it be permitted for them to go back and get those who died when they were younger and give them the treatment? If I were popular in their time might they be allowed to steal one of me away from my time and bring me to theirs. That would eliminate me and any descendents of mine or anything I achieve from this worldline but there would be a copy of me in their version of the 23rd century. It's almost like going back in time to retrieve the dead so they won't be lost to history. Maybe that sounds really far fetched and narcissistic but humility be damned I'd rather live in the 23rd century! Be weird to think I could visit fans of mine who won't hear of me until long after my death and perhaps be a guest speaker. Even to take brief trips to the future it would be like having the dead brought forward to speak from the past, maybe even visit my own grave. At the same time I wouldn't want to live in the future without the people I know here. Fact is that the me that is in their records is not the me I am now. If I live until the 2070s then most of what I will write, will do, will discover I have not experienced yet. I don't have the experiences of the person I will become. If I were to live my life in the 23rd century I wouldn't have memory of the things I'm remembered for and I wouldn't become the same person. I wouldn't even know myself. There'd be the me who lived his life and died 150 years or so before and the me who lived his life in the 23rd century. But periodic trips to the future that is definately something I could accustom myself to. Ok forgive all my weird speculations. Every time I hear even a little bit from the time traveller it's like steroids for the speculative part of my brain. If nothing else they have got my mental juices firing more than any single factor in my life thus far and perhaps that was their purpose all along. Rest assurred though if I do go to 2236 you bet you'll hear about it, ALOT about it! Will keep you posted. Feedback welcome. Now just dreams. This was a relatively good month in regards to dreams. I actually achieved lucidity briefly. Alot of my dreams were significant for the first time in awhile containing info on past and future lives as well as lots of visions. On two nights my visions amounted to mini regressions to my life in early 20th century America and my last life as JIll. April is traditionally a good month in regards to these matters and that in combo with my consistentcy in telling myself to recall my dreams REALLY does make a difference. IT DOES work but you gotta keep at it without slacking to maintain it. March 22nd, 2009 Dream(5:11am): Dreaming about Captain Bill out of boredom? Apparantly his mission died ?? like murder cross secretly and said it will be a(anagram?) parties to our job see are? of bugging us salute. I saw 1996 stuff. In the present Frank got stuff that was temporarily stolen from supreme court justices. He told me to look as he had their pubes and all. Frank changed something to which I told him to stop but there was no promise. I can't recall much about this and feel there might have been more after but of interest is during my progression before bed I tried to send pyschic messages to Bill and had this dream about Bill. When I woke up I received messages about how Bill was missing. March 26th, 2009 2nd(9:03am): I was walking around school or rather first I was at home talking to this man about reincarnation. He was old and looking at his face I told him I felt he had alot of Chinese past lives even though he was not a believer in reincarnation. I was telling him this in the little room. I also saw a Spanish or Italian guy and guessed he had lots of Spanish and Italian lives cause he had that look. He seemed offended by that. I was playing Sonic and Knuckles too before I go to school. March 27th, 2009 Dream(8:43am): Something where I was at school or on the road but I had letters from Bill which I thought was funny. The film guy had 77 short films about NYC I think. My dreams lately have been short, unmemorable and very repetitive. This is not uncommon but seems more true than usual the last week or so, not sure why. March 28th, 2009 Dream(10am): I was with a group of kids or something hiking in the woods in the 1890s, 1895 specifically I think although it didn't look overly old fashioned or anything. I went alone following this one rich kid. As I follow him in the woods there are these guys, criminals, who are trying to get me. The rich kid is really trying to spy? on secret society rituals but those 2 criminals in the woods get in the way. I felt the day was March 12th, so possibly this was March 12th, 1895, a rare specific date. The criminals arrange stuff in trees but eventually I'm spiderman and I pursue them to a secret place where spiderman is found dead and I was getting the blame for murdering a rich guy. Next I dreamed I was Wolverine from X-men and we were fighting sentinals I think. I saw Gambit blasted near a metal entranceway getting blasted like morph in the first episode of X-men. Wolverine(me) pulls Gambit in and runs out the doorway to fight the sentinals and saves the others at great personal risk despite being told not to. In the very last part I was Beast in an elevator sitting down upset in despair. I felt like a little boy which made me feel pathetic, I might have been weeping. I think I was upset because I felt responsible for all this death I saw around me. March 30th, 2009 2nd(9:37am): It was a day of terrible snow and ice storms and I was stuck in home and had no food or limited food and everyone was worried about the possibility of a tsunami hitting New york. The snow and ice seemed to be considered a prelude to the potential tsunami. I was on mom's computer chatting with another time traveller that Bill had told me to avoid. This time traveller seems to share information more readily. I asked him if I ever had a movie made from my work and he said mostly or only CGI films, cartoons etc. which I felt pretty sure could be made quickly and cheaply for online distribution. Then my dad came up and asked if I was following his advice and I told him not quite but the novel I was writing was 80% complete. He said I should just keep writing it nonstop, including as I was washing my hands in the sink. I was waiting for the other time traveller to tell me about my wife and various illegal topics forbidden by the bureau. It ended there. I heard him on voice but I wished he'd answer in text form cause I liked to save my chat so I'd have the exact quotes on record. April 2nd, 2009 Dream(7:56am): I was a time traveller who'd gone back in time to 1972 and was feeling guilty for watching films at a bachelor party. Who'd(?) want to see films about satan but not? England? our story was scary and real. BUt ?? since exist. Old people experience much. It(I?) was saying in the film it was not gone(game) say? but I said I was from 1972 and the other woman believed it. I wanted so bad to explain to everyone's face all believed. I was saying stuff about vietnam and people's personal futures in 1995 but she has flashbacks, that was the last we talked(in 1972 or 1995 presumably). She died at 102 years old. That's where I woke up. When I first arrived I drove there with my dad and was gretted by a father daughter couple. The girl looked like me being Jill Montgomery. I began walking and talking with them. I think we were talking standing in front of a parked car in a park area I think. 3rd(10:39am): I was getting ready to go to Frank's house and told my mom Jews, Gypsies and other non Catholics were persecuted and the pope encouraged people with the plague to stick together, presumably to contain the plague and kill each other off. My mom replied, "And we think the world is bad today." I said, "That was the norm then even in forward thinking areas." April 4th, 2009 2nd(10:20am): A movie producer or screen writer I was working with said bad stuff about what I was writing or else died while he was helping me work on a project. The project felt important and the guy I was working with felt like a friend. I felt I was in some place half dead or dying, in some kind of limbo. I'm not sure how to describe it and already the memory of this dream is quite dim. There was alot more detail to this but I barely remembered it on waking. I think my letters from Bill either arrived or were mentioned but I'm not sure. The dream feels more detailed and important than what I recall. April 6th, 2009 Dream(8:41am): Ok alot of detail to this dream. I was at home watching tv or taking my bath and I was wanting to know my date of death. I looked the information up on my future wikipedia, a version that can look up details from the future. I find that I died on March 24th, 2051 or 2088 though possibly 2071 or 2072. I remember thinking it was just a few days off from the March 19th date I originally felt. On my wiki there were 7 or 8 topic points I think including my works and death. Something in my wiki said that I revealed my belief in NDEs and such things in an interview from 2040 which I think was available for viewing. I told my mom I was in the bath and was saying something about my work. I was then at aunt's house on her couch though I feel like there was more before that which I forgot. I wanted to ask this hot asian/indian woman sitting next to me to marry me but someone else beats her to asking, I think Chris maybe. I think I showed her a ring and later agree to go on a dangerous task/mission. I think I jump in some kind of pool. Actually I was in the pool couching Reese from Malcolm in the Middle except in the dream I think he was black. This part might have been the part before I was sitting on the couch. From coaching Reese I figured out he has super speed and is a sure thing to win. Later I'm in a crowded hallway or something with that hot asian girl from before or maybe a different girl. We were hiding because we were being bombed and/or persecuted in some way. I felt this was the beginning of the end of the world and that in 4 months the world would end completely. I was trying to think of something and recall I have super powers or else am capable of getting a magical device or gems that can save everything. I can't think clearly so go to the restaurant Monks from Seinfeld where I see a bunch of old people. I think I'm going to die soon but can still save others, uncertain. It ended there without any closure or resolution. When we met each other. It was a powerful dream perhaps because I remembered to tell myself to remember my dreams numerous times before going to sleep. It really does make a difference. I think my astrologer was the one who sent me the link to my future wiki in the dream and I felt solemn over it. Also the girl with the powers was possibly an alien. We had a deeper connection based on a shared trait like that which I was trying to convince her of. I think in the dream part of the disaster ending the world was a disease or some kind of plague so we had to avoid contact with certain people. 2nd(11:25am): I was reading a book about religious conflict in the past. It was a very think book looking like that orange sci-fi television shows book I have though I think I was reading it in a store or library then was in my bathroom with it. One passage stood out it said 1000 years ago you could have been killed for inquiring about the spelling of a certain word, the word might have been silly or something with alot of Ls in it. This improved by the 1300s but things were still bad then. There was a message from the past for me. This ancient book contained an e-mail address of someone whose name was suzy or something with an S but spelled really weird. Visions(Nap): This was during my afternoon nap. I never fell asleep but by giving myself the suggestion sleep, dream, remember repeatedly I received the following visions and impressions. I first saw myself peddling a large wheeled old time bike which paralleled a scene of me chasing after kids on bikes in this life. Most of the rest of the visions were flashbacks to the early 20th century, my World War One lifetime. I saw detailed visions of my old dark house in the 1900s. Out front were dirt roads. This was in Virginia. Next I saw myself in an old school dressed in a formal grey jacket or vest which made me think of orwell. I saw myself falling asleep in class and waking up. I saw a glimpse of Princip's farm and also a spinning wheel. After that I seemed to go to the present of myself getting teeth pulled for my braces in 1996. I was thinking of how Bill had my complete dayplanner on file and maybe could send me to the completed version of 1983-2008 without it violating their rules. In a similar vein I was wondering if travelled through time and living in different eras affects your dreams. Would Bill have dreams of the 23rd century or the 21st century in 1645 or would stuff blend from both eras. Interesting to consider. From there I saw random scenes of myself going to play with the neighborhood kids dressed in my grey coat. I got the sense the connection may have been was that I was having past life flashbacks to that 1900s era when I was younger and going to hang out with the neighbor kids, it brought up the memory. Thought of the random word Tippence. Kept repeating to myself sleep, dream, remember. Went back to scenes from what I think was still the 1900s. I saw myself in a barn and inside was a big barrel of water which you scopped out with a ladel. I was hitting it. Felt that was where we kept our drinking water. There was a black handled water pump out back too. The word gully came to mind randomly. Another vision came of women in long dresses spinning yarn on porches. Every day or every so often a man with a horse drawn cart or carriage came by to deliver stuff, I think he was the mlikman. I was aware of later using a 3 cent stamp to send a letter. The stamp had a picture of a cowboy's face on it. Black labours dressed in overalls would walk by on the dirt road by our house. They were sharecroppers and lived with their kids in small closely packed wooden shacks along the road. My room inside the house was very dark. It only had one window so unless the sun was shining brightly it would usually be pretty dark in there and could get pitch black on dark, cloudy or stormy days. I had lamps though. I'm not sure if we had electricity when I was born but I think we got it later which impressed me. I think we got electricity in either 1908 or 1914. Prior to that the lamps in my room were by candlelight. The last thing I saw was trying to get a tight fitting formal looking vest on in my room, it was uncomfortable. This was an interesting experience. I didn't fall asleep but by repeatedly giving myself suggestions I recalled alot of vivid little details from my life over a century ago. I'll have to try this again sometime. April 7th, 2009 2nd(10:40am): I was at a new regression therapist on her couch covered in blankets. She was younger than my old one but not very young. After using the bathroom she hypnotized me and I think injected relaxent into my chin with a needle in order to help me go under easier and deeper. I was regressed deep and was thinking of the feeling of being burdened with always having to do everything in other lives. I saw myself as Tiberius and the colonial doctor where I felt people's lives and fate was in my hands. It seemed like the whole world depended on me and it was live or die if I failed for everyone else. I felt a great burden of destiny which needed to be released. I heard alot of noises outside the door like children maybe. That was all though. April 8th, 2009 Dream(9:50am): I was some place with Faye and this somehow involved time travel. I was planning to change the future and there wasn't[any way to do it?]. I was stuck between both choices. Also something about Poppy, something he said, wrote or did. Something having to do with the law I think. I think I had a hotel or something rented, possibly to commit a crime. There was alot to this but I can't recall any of it. April 11th, 2009( Dream(9:46am): I was chatting with Captain Bill who told me info that I published online about them leaked out to nations via my blog so he'd have to be more careful to not give me any specific details in the future. He did tell me a few minor details of the future such as a yet to created South Park episode where Terrance either kills and/or kidnaps Philip and other minor things I can't recall about the years 2009-2012. Later I'm with a girl and want to pray for divine help after not having the time travellers there to help all the time. Bill was online at 3:20am very briefly to tell me of these new restrictions as I was going to sleep. 2nd(11am): Relates somewhat to the above dream. I was at mom's computer which looked different and was not working. An old lady and her friend were there and tried to fix it. April 12th, 2009 Dream(7:02am): I was outside getting ready to go ?? friends backyard. Got supplies?? incarnate?? to late February? 1970s I think. I or this asian guy was outside in the rain peeing and looking for Rob? I'm thinking about how I'll be remembered in the 2050s-2070s by my 23rd century friends. I think by that I meant I was wondering how those later decades of my life would be regarded in the 23rd century. Prior to all this I'd been in an imaginary world in the ocean using myth. I was gonna miss this girl, realized it was wrong he hit. But he not?? became Canada? and ??. Don't really recall this dream very well. Visions(Nap): Was unable to sleep but got myself into a semi regressed state where I had alot of visions I believe were from my life as Jill. They were all brief flashes so it is probably easier just to list them all. -Jill got stung on her leg by a bee under her dress. -Saw myself in a room and there was a guy there something sexual was gonna happen. It was dark but I didn't desire to explore his furthur. -Jill wet herself once and other kids laughed at her, parallels this life. -Jill as a very young kid acting all tough like I had muscles or was a boy. I acted tough at times but other times was shy and withdrawn like I am now. -Saw Jill taking a shower in the morning. I took longer than most others. Only had one bathroom I think. Got up at 7am and had breakfast. It was a very sunny day, possibly Easter like today. I sensed Jill had black buckled Easter shoes, not sure how to describe them. I've noticed I tend to think of Jill around Easter time but perhaps just because it's also close to her birthday. -Jill had a white frilly nightgown she wore to sleep along with slippers. -There was this place I liked to eat on my birthday each year, I think it was a Mexican place and I had birthday parties there. Possibly there was an old man there who I felt close to, maybe a grandfather. I think that I always saw my grandpa on my birthday. I think my grandfather might have died on or around my 15th birthday, very close to it. It was very sad not to have him there. -I think I only saw snow once in my life visiting relatives in Idaho. I don't know why but I keep sensing some kind of Idaho connection with Jill even though she lived in Texas. -Felt my parents were fairly liberal, progressive, my dad more so than my mom. I feel my mom was more tough minded and conservative. -Jill had a picture of a sunset over Texas mostly dark maybe near mountains. I think it was a framed picture hung on the wall but it's possoble it was a picture I took myself. -Once Jill got squirted in the face hard with a hose and had a dream of standing naked outside under some kind of shower and was hit by sprinklers. Feel this might have refferenced some incident maybe at a camp, not sure. I think Jill had alot of water related dreams like that and may have been hyperactive and easily excited by water like I was when I was younger in this life. -Jill and her family often drove for 8 hours to visit relatives elsewhere in the state driving along an empty stretch of road with nothing but desert or fields for several hours. One time I think we took a train which had nice scenary and I think I preffered taking the train to the car. -Jill liked the colors blue and purple alot. I keep getting the sense of those colors on alot of my clothes, dolls, room etc. -As Jill I liked to jump in puddles and had a rainsuit and umbrella which I liked to play with. -I felt my relatives that we visited lived in a very rural area like a farm or something. Once I almost got bitten by a rattle snake which was a common pest around there. I think I had a dream(nightmare) about a snake trying to bite me in bed that same night. Might have had alot of snake dreams or nightmares. -Before being classified as dyslexic Jill was originally thought hard of hearing. I remember also looking at pictures or colors as part of some test. -Felt that as Jill I was more of a visual person and liked things like art and painting more than I do now, particularly fingerpainting. I also felt very touristy. By that I mean that I liked to go places such as the zoo and take alot of pictures. I'd keep a camera around my neck. -Once broke an expensive mirror or a mirror that had alot of sentimental value belonging to my mother or grandmother. My mom was furious when it broke. -As Jill I also felt I had an unusual habit of wandering off alot maybe even getting lost once. I remember in my present life when younger I remember reading a children's book or something about what to do if you get lost, I think it was a seasame street book maybe and I might even have dreamed about it. I think when I saw or read that it brought up memories of my life as Jill. -Jill once got very scared of this movie about a dark creepy house and ghosts. I was more afraid of that kind of stuff in that life though I think I did watch horror movies then like in this life. Pretty sure I also saw shows on UFOs a few times but was frightened or disinterested. This was in 1976 maybe. NOt sure why that year stabnds out, was thinking of In search of but that wasn't until later. -Jill had one doll she always slept with, I think it had a purple dress as well. I didn't bring that doll with me when I went to the Methodist home though. April 13th, 2009 Dream(9:10am): I was in a Toys R Us I think and was looking for sci-fi books. I saw a few Wolverine movie comics or graphic novels set in Japan and 2 other sci-fi books I got. I can't recall the titles but one I think was either set in 2017 or published in 2017 or called that and it had a picture of a spaceship on the cover looking like one of those old Gemini capsules and might have been about returning to the moon. I also saw this quater machine where you put in a quarter and could get a really large prize like a statue of an African(American?) man and woman getting married but I was disappointed cause I had no quaters as change though I do think I had 25 cents in dimes, nickels and pennies, making it more annoying. I had dollar bills though which I hoped to exchange for quarters. After that I went over to the books section where the Sci-fi books were. They had alot of Heinlein with alot of copies of Stranger in a Strange Land as well as some kind of dayplanner with weird stuff written in it as daily headings. I'm not sure if the dayplanner related to Heinlein too though but it was the only book I think I opened up. I said wow they sure gave him(Heinlein) alot of space there in the books section. Another kid there was like "yeah will he ever stop writing?" I said I wanted to be a writer myself and could easily fill shelves like that as well though so I could understand. 2nd(10:28am): Finally had a lucid dream, albeit it a short one. Really just the last brief part was lucid. In this dream I was at some place like a hotel or motel or bar. Actually I was in school I think and faked that I was vomitting in the toilet in the men's room. The teacher asked if I was ok and I used the opportunity to wander off on my own into the streets I think. I think it's after World War Two or some large scale conflict on that level and managed to find out that Justin survived it. He had a cellphone and I was trying to confirm his phone number. We were walking across a street or something jammed with people, refugees or survivors and I was telling him we should catch up. I lost track of Justin when he got in an elevator that closed before I could get in. Then I walked down a hall and realized that I recognized the area I was in as the same place as the bathroom/nurses area from the end of the last dream. That's when the thought occurred to me "I'm dreaming" which I think I said aloud maybe. Suddenly I was totally lucid and able to walk around as I pleased and feel stuff. I tried to pick up books in this read I was in and tried to read them. All I saw in the first book was a listing of roads one of which was parkville road. I also picked up a newspaper and looking at a closet in front of me in the room. I had wanted to conjure up a biography of me from the future that I could read but couldn't do it. Then suddenly I could feel my mouth overwhelmingly dry and I was trying to get rid of the feeling but it woke me up and when I woke up I was dying of thirst. At least I was lucid at last even if just briefly. I kept repeatedly telling myself to sleep, dream, be lucid and remember my dreams and it paid off. I think cause I saw my hands in this. I was very aware of my sleeping body during both these dreams however. I think if I try to think of people and places in dreams that are common and think of them as dreams while awake it might help me while I'm asleep. Visions(Nap): I saw a room full of soldiers sitting on metal chairs. The sun was pouring in the window and someone was there giving them a lecture, either a profesor or guest speaker I think. I then had another vision of dead soldiers being dragged across the floor. I was seeing this from the vantage point of the dead or looking up from the floor. It looked like a futuristic underground base that had blue ceilings that glowed. It looked similar to a place I've seen in dreams and might be either the future or a secret government or alien base/facility. April 14th, 2009- Prediction: Some kind of terrorist bombing in India/Pakistan maybe an assassination. Didn't feel like a major attack though, not as bad as the Mumbai attacks though I could be wrong on that.(Wrong, closest thing is political instability in Thailand.) Dream(9:56am): Uncertain of the details. It was something about a murder in a small rural farming community. Cops were driving on the grass even though they are not suppossed to but as cops they can get away with breaking the law. I was told no one uses analogy as good as me. The person killed was Jill moment? go very life(Like?) I think. I don't recognize the place at all which is too bad cause I was hoping on using seeing familiar places to induce lucidity, figures. Then I was in some room in the 1970s or in our 70s people did drugs. Ryan and Chris were there too I think. I can't recall the trains? of ?? or any other part, odd. Maybe there was also something about a missing boy in the holocaust. April 15th, 2009 Dream(6:12am): Ok wow here was another impressive dream. I'm not sure if it's lucid but it's a good sign to have another powerful dream again so soon. First in this dream I had gotten back in touch with Justin and I think maybe some other old friends as well. I was then sleeping on the floor of my old room with stuffed animals. I wanted to go to Adventureland but I was living in a worn out old matress wrapped up in blankets. Justin invited me to his own downtown place but I said I should be the one offering but at least he had protection against rain and cold. Despite being in my old bedroom I was sharing my bed with a squirril and I think some birds and felt I was living in some run down city. I was sleeping on top of old stuffed animal Syl dolls. Next is the weird part. I felt aliens lift me out of my body and put me face up. I feel myself to be mechanical with a body like a vacuum cleaner and from that position could see the closet in my old room lite up at night. The room's light was kinda dim but I could see fine. Aliens talking in an odd voice are explaining I was really a robot with no soul which is the reason for my cold ultra rational behavior. I had been sent to some other world and was damaged in an assignment. I had originally been sent here to gather intelligence on new weapons here but since the aliens were the more advanced culture and our weapons were unable to hurt them. They then decided that since my first mission was no longer relevent my new mission would be to gather all kinds of animals. This related to my earlier behavior, how I was really into animals as a kid. The alien race I was part of were Anubis like Egyptian creatures almost like the aliens in Immortal. Oddly it was the result of programming that I was obessed with collecting animals but Seth? was tied up with beads?. Last I was looking for birds etc. but was disturbed by Slumdog Millionaire on stay tv?. Uncharacteristically I'm actually afraid(around?) and someone? buy Indian music and am excited by a hot Indian actress. I forgot my assignment and that's where it ended but it was a very very vivid dream though not exactly lucid. But again it was still a good sign I think. Also in one of these dreams I think I got my letters from Captain Bill which were pretty thick. Visions(Nap): Felt like fiction but was very vivid imagery that was consistent. It was vivid vision of a burning barn or town and inside one of these burning barns a woman had her throat slashed by a guy in there and possibly was raped. It was odd but very vivid. April 17th, 2009 Dream(9:47am): Something to do with bigfoot. I said if humans and apes breed I could imagine that was the result. Before that I was a South Park character, there were lots of a scare?. Earlier still I was a black soldier with my hands cuffed and thrown from a military truck into the woods. I had been busted on false drug charges. 2nd(10:52am): I was woken up because ED and others were upstairs and I think I had to go to school. I had gotten gifts?? from them or from Captain Bill and took some anti-pyschotic medication. I had recalled having small toys or a case of something given to me by Bill that vanished. I had the feeling an evil time traveller had stolen it from me or made it such that I never had it which made me worry the past had been changed. That's all folks see you next month probably.