Thursday, 06 June 2013

  • Damaged.

    A single tear fell
    as she turned from the bed
    and began to undress
    to the sound of his breath
    growing quicker and loud
    matching her heart
    and making it pound
    regret seeping through
    but it's too late now
    nothing else to do
    and she isn't proud
    of the choices she's made
    that landed her here
    and all the mistakes
    adding up through the years.
    It's the price we all pay
    because nothing is free
    and she sells herself, thinking
    "Won't anyone love me?"


    ♥Livi
    -SM

Tuesday, 04 June 2013

  • Walk to the park.

    All I wanted was to relax for a bit under a tree, reading my book.
    As I'm walking to the park, I get honked at by some guys in a Salvation Army truck.
    Two hummingbirds swoop very near my head into some flower-filled hedges. I suspect either a territorial issue, or a mating ritual. (Either way, I was amused.)
    Closer to the park I realize the sprinklers are running, therefore thwarting my original plan to lay down next to my usual spot.
    I received a phone call from R, who's heading back to Afghanistan today. I'll miss her terribly.
    I read maybe two paragraphs worth of the book I need to finish for my book club on Saturday.
    Definitely not how I expected my lunch to go, but still, it brought a smile to my face.
    Well, except for the honking- seriously, how the fuck is that flattering?


    ♥Livi
    -SM

Wednesday, 29 May 2013

  • I girl my own way.

    One of my credit cards offers reward points every time I use it, plus the initial bonus amount for signing up. The have thousands of items available depending on how many points I have/want to spend- clothing and jewelry and electronics and travel and miscellaneous. I bought books. I am so excited for my books, and I shall be buying more books when my points add up ALL OF THE BOOKS FOREVER.


    ♥Livi
    -SM

Friday, 01 March 2013

  • March 1st.

    This was never about you.
    Say I'm selfish (this I knew)
    it will not change my world.
    What you thought I'd say is wrong
    I don't know where you're coming from,
    my life's not yours to unfurl.
    You cannot ask for me to stay,
    I simply wasn't built that way-
    what I am is all wrong turns.
    Save yourself while you still can
    trust me, I will understand.
    I will be smiling as I burn.


    ♥Livi
    -SM

Tuesday, 19 February 2013

  • Bad day.


    Time passes, always unclear
    telling me things I don't want to hear.
    There is no escape from all the bad days,
    no matter how much I wish them away.
    I have no idea how long this will last,
    I so desperately want this pain in my past.


    ♥Livi
    -SM

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