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3 years =/

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 02:31:28 GMT

Been a while but happy 3 year anniversary to Shan and I.

Cheers to CMU Deltas ! finally come full circle and now i'm graduating. gonna miss it all =/

i'll dig up old pix later.

distraught

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 02:20:47 GMT

seems like i've given up on xanga haha first upate in like months...
hope everyone's doing well these days. feel bad for not keeping in touch with ppl these days. i've been so enclosed into the small shell of asians here at cmu and i realize that i've neglect a lot of ppl.. old friends and close friends.
i regret this and i hope to change this about myself.

i dont even know where to begin with the rest of this entry.. so many things on my mind these days i just want to type this up as a remind for myself in the future i guess.

looking back at college its jsut ridiulous how quickly its gone by. i still remember random moments from freshmen year in donner just hanging out with hallmates. meeting ppl of different ethnicity for first time in my life.. ( yes i was sheltered when i grew up =/ ) it was a wonderful and good experience and i am forever grateful for those who helped me through the transition to college. i remember the neo days and being the stupid drunk one that ppl would make fun of. now its less then 100 days till i'm done with undergrad forever. lots of good and bad memories that i dont even know where to begin.

i feel that i should be content. even happy with where i am right now. i am gonna graduate on time (hopefully if i dont manage to fail my only core class), found a job for now, have a safe and happy family, two amazing littles whom i'm grateful to have known even for the short amount of time its been so far, close friends that i will keep in touch for the rest of my life, great memories and accomplishments with various organizations ( Lambdas, ASA and now TSA).
but deep inside i always have this 說不出來的痛. i still dont know why and i'm sure many ppl think i'm retarded to feel this way. maybe its the pessimistic view i've always had on things, caring too much about what other ppl think, or just events that've taken place in college. i've always hated this about myself and try to change. however, i still let it get to me time and time again. still trying to let go.
looking back at almost 22 years of life, this is still my biggest problem and regret. when i enter the working world it's gotta change cuz i wont ever be in an environment where i'm surrounded by friends and can find an outlet to such problems. by graduation, i wanna be at peace with myself and graduate knowing that i did the best i could and gained friendship and lessons that will be invaluable to me in the future.

i still dont understand how i can give so much to friends/organizations/things in general only to receive so little/bad in return for what i've done. maybe its not fair and i should be more selfish or i should stop caring and treasure the good memories from the past.

got other stuff to add.. can't think anymore now

culture night

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 05:20:03 GMT

haha sept 15 is last time i updated..
2 months has gone by so quickly.. still busy as hell but getting close to the end
hopefully in next few weeks I'll be able to decide what i want to do for next few years
its been a long and rough semester for seniors. time to enjoy culture night and unwind.. at least its something different from schoolwork. so even though its a pain in the ass to practice i'd still choose step practice any day
last culture night and possibly last time i'm performing. should be an interesting show

CULTURE NIGHT 2006

come support your organizations and friends!
$3 presale so no reason to use price as excuse not to come

we came to step...

Friday, September 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 14:34:06 GMT

nyc for one day.

see you guys at BLVD tonight. we'll be in the city on sat till past dinner.

Theta Rush Fall 06

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 19:05:22 GMT

its that time of the year again..

Thurs, August 31st:   Infosession and Basketball . Meet @ Chateau 7:00PM
Sat, September 2nd: Mixer w/ aKDPhi @ Chateau 8:30PM
                                   "Chaos" w/ aKDPhi & ASA @ New Moon 10:00PM
                                                                                        Meet at UC turnaround
Sun, September 3rd: Game Day w/ KPL @ Donner Ditch 2:00PM
Mon, September 4th:   Chill Session All Day
                                     Mt. Wash BBQ . Meet @ Chateau 7:00PM
Wed, September 6th:   Wings Night @ Chateau 7:30PM
Sat, September 9th:    Escapade w/ aKDPhi @ IM Fields 2:00PM
                                        Mixer w/ KPL @ Chateau 9:00PM
                                        "Ignite" w/ KPL @ Chateau 10:00PM
Sun, September 10th:   Service Event . Meet @ Chateau 9:30AM
                                         Interviews all afternoon . Location TBA
Mon, September 11th:   Bowling . Meet @ Chateau 7:30PM
Wed, September 13th:   Bid Dinner    Invite Only

stole this straight from weilin

anyways it feels good to be back on xanga. last year, time to enjoy college finally...

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 02:14:22 GMT

been a while. 2 months since a real post. feels kinda weird to start posting on xanga again

gotta post some long overdue pix such as carnival, banquet, graduation, convention and summer. summer has moved on quickly and soon all the session1 ppl are leaving.. damnit even less ppl here in pittsburgh =/

as much as i hate school when its in session, there is so much more things to do. for now my xbox will have to keep me company. been going through seasons of shows at my stupid DA shifts. didn't know i missed out on so many great shows. 24 still owns them all.. jack bauer returns next fall

some things never change. liars are always gonna be liars. you'll get what you deserve in the future and don't even think about coming back asking for help

picture time

building booth once again

how does ASA build our booths? hmmm

first legal shot with none other then the black man. 21 =P

every nerds dream come true

i was drooling while looking at this sign..

TSA's nightmarket. brings back memories of tw

my friend Tom's masterpiece Arabian Nights.

SSA's booth. once again very authentic

DG Saloon as noted above

number 1 booth again =D

the whole carnival weekend i was plastered along with my big haha

my big duan and his twin elaine

the new national vp haha

who is fobbier? i hope its not me.. =/

me and jen. apparently i ran away after this photo cuz i was too trashed? i deny it becuase i dont remember

dan and peter (gone)

found this pic on my camera and i was like wtf (def had one too many drinks)

ASA presidents.. from right to left (current, old.. , EVEN older.. , OMG dont even get me started on how old he is.. j/k)

Sherry! thanks for coming out

graduating seniors. gl to every one of u guys

two homos

chemical engineers... suck

two more bums

only picture i have from convention.. pretty much sums it up.. massive spooning involved! cmu lambdas okay!

tweek is happier then the bday boy haha

bday boy no longer enjoying it..

still laughing? wait till u see whats coming

no more laughing after this

shan is drunk after this shot.. pansy!

so thats all for now.. time to get some eprops for finally updating lol

convention was fun cuz we got what we came for. everything turned out well so i'm happy about that. i wanted to party more though

Friday, May 26, 2006

Fri, 26 May 2006 00:50:34 GMT

been a long time since i posted... dunno why just busy with stuff i guess.

congrats to all the graduating seniors esp my line bro Shan. good luck in the future wherever it may be.

now, the obligatory convention post.. leave a msg if you're going to convention this year in SOCAL..

looking forward to the craziest convention yet..

awaiting the good news..

carnival 2k6

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 18:15:41 GMT

big congrats to ASA. we fuckin did it. 3 years, 3 first places

jacked this from kenneth. two story beast

carnival was lots of fun. and way too much drinking haha. missed sig ep's star wars booth so i'm pretty annoyed about that =(
my liver and credit card def aren't feeling too well lately.
bar tabs = NO FUCKING GOOD

as always its great to see all the alums come back esp my big. you succeeded in fucking me up this weekend haha (you were trashed too)

and thanks again to everyone who wished me happy birthday and belated bday. appreciate all the IMs, phone calls, facebook msgs, shots (way too many of them ) , punches (fuckin DC.. i'll get u somehow)

post pix later

NEGATIVE

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 17:34:52 GMT

guess its means i'm clear to drink and have fun =/

in need of someone sober to protect me this weekend

Sat Party
ASA/SPIRIT/ LPhiE

Finnigans Wake

same venue as ECBR 2k6

see you there

congrats

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 03:02:56 GMT

congrats to all the new greeks Spring 2k6.. esp the two newest bitches.. err bros of my chapter

LFE

Carnegie Mellon University Eta Class

"Deuces Are Wild"
#50 Stephen Cumsquat Lok
#51 Victor Inspector Fagget Kang

sorry guys they decided to bring back the tradition of fucked up names haha. welcome to the club

lu and brandon are 23 now. and i'm legal now. no more worrying about my fake getting taken away lol

please help me and bort and everyone else for ASA booth... getting first place would be the best present i could get!

sickness + long hours at booth + massive drinking (coming soon in the next few days..) = NO GOOD