feeling nostalgic...

with you - jessica simpson

if i ever fall in love - shai

feels like today - rascal flatts

unwritten - natasha bedingfield

letters to you - finch

always- finch

amazed - lonestar

things that make me happy....

warm towels right out of the dryer... photography... music from the 60's.. getting gerber daisies... the dried rose petals i have in my room... the cooking channel... making people smile.. cracking my own self up to the point where it makes everyone else laugh... going to the park late at night... being with my family... my best friends... movies about love... the little girls in my dance classes... driving with my windows down.. when the trees start to change colors... getting new cooking equipment and cooking for other people... sweet songs that i hope one day someone will feel that way about me.. faith.. my tatttoo.. my dorm room.. playing dominos and card games.. going bowling and playing pool.. stars.. living on my own.. football games.. cuddling.. wearing my hair curly.. big sunglasses.. getting all dressed up... pedicures.. staying up late and having long conversations.. the thought that i will have my own classroom in 4 years.. quotes that make me smile.. rain and how it smells.. curling up in a blanket and watching an old black and white movie.. doing things that are absolutely and completely random.. peanut butter and jelly sandwiches that are made with peter pan honey roasted crunchy peanut butter and strawberry jelly that comes the squeezable bottle on wheat bread... kettle corn from first monday.. going out in the middle of the night just because i can.. high school football games..

"to laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to leave the world a better place, to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived... this is to have succeeded." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Currently Listening Don't You Fake It By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus see related

"And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know..."

i love it here.. i've been so blessed.. this place is amazing.. i just miss home.. i feel very alone..

lots on my mind.. thought i'd write it out a little bit..

i cant believe i only have 3 weeks with you.. i know i'll see you.. but it just wont be the same.. you are my sunshine.. i've gone to school with you since like the first grade or something.. and now i cant say that anymore.. i will miss you more than you could ever know.. our new roommate will just have to get used to never living up to the awesomeness that is you... a part my heart is yours... and in 3 weeks that part will be gone...

you confuse me.. i dont know what to think about you... i'm horribly afraid of hurting you.. why did you have to wait so long.. i only have three weeks left.. and thats it.. i dont want to leave here still attached to you.. you're possibly the sweetest guy i have ever met.. i have always enjoyed talking to you.. i love having long talks with you.. you're one of the only guys i trust.. and thats big, i hardly trust anyone.. i dont know what i want with you.. i dont understand this situation.. i just dont want to hurt you.. you are the last person on earth that i would want to hurt... i just dont know.. i think that i need to just sit down and talk to you..

thank you for being my best friend.. i cant do this alone.. i know that you are a gift from God.. an answered prayer

i'm scared.. i dont know what to expect.. i dont want to leave now.. this is my home.. and i have to leave it.. i have to leave my family and my friends all behind.. i feel alone.. i'm struggling to deal with this.. i need to grow up... i wish i was prepared for this...

God get me through this.. i need your strength...

I'm hopelessly hopeful, that you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all....

great song mel..