heyy ya'll! it has been FOREVER since i last signed in. umm a lot has happened since the last time i signed in. me and christopher are OVER! have been, for over two months. he basically left town without me knowing,,,,or so he says. but i really think that he just didnt like me lol....~ i went back home like a week and a half later...on january 26th i think. everything is pretty much fine. i am on 3 months probation...i get off on april 19th i think. lol. i am dating a great guy named glen now. hes sooo awesome. we have been dating for 3  weeks tomorrow. i really like him,,,we're so cute together. its great, except for the fact that i only get to see him on weekends. sooo...that sucks. but yea im happy. mark is coming back for good tomorrow. i wont be home tho. i am leaving today at 1:30pm to leave for FBLA STATES, in Hagerstown, MD. we're stayin in a hotel for 2 nights. i am sooo excited...its 11:06am. we get out of school at 12:15, sooo time needs to fly! sooo yea im bored. im in school by the way. lol. ummm i will get on a lot more i guess. but myspace is better. hehe jp.

Love ya- ~*sTaRlYnN dAwN sChRiVeR*~

okay so yeah.....there has deffinietly gotta be more to life than what I am going through right now. I am SO tired of living the life that I do....it just drives me crazy to know that it is out of my hands right about now. It also drives me crazy to know that my mom doesn't want me anymore. But personally....I really don't care about her. When everything happened on Monday, I was SO upset....I cried and everything. But now...I am just pissed. Like I said...when everything took place on Monday to Tuesday, I was heartbroken, and I couldn't stop crying. Now, I am completely, utterly pissed off. I do not understand for the life of me how my Mom can say that she doesn't want me or my little brother, Jonathan in her life or even living with her. But I am happy living with my dad...kind of.  I don't know what I am gonna do about the emergency court hearing next week. I know that I do need a mom in my life. However, what she did to me on Monday....I can NEVER forget or forgive her about it. It just pushed a button in my heart...and in my mind that I don't think I will ever get over it. And I know I am being a bitch...but I really, honestly don't care. She doesn't want me...so why should I feel bad about not wanting to be there anyway??  She still has my purse....with ALL my things that I NEED in it. All my $$, my lotion, my digital camera, etc. Everything that I need is in it. However, I do have my cell phone. She *doodle* called it last night, and left me a message saying that she hopes me and Jonathan are happy after screwing everything up in life. I am happy....kind of. I try telling myself that I am. I try to laugh as much as possible. However, she also said that if I didn't give her my cell phone by today that she would report it stolen, and that she would cut it off. Considering I don't have it in school and I can't see her.. HOW IN THE HELL WOULD U LIKE ME TO GIVE IT TO YOU??!! Plus, if she does claim that I stole the cell phone, I can tell them that she stole my purse....with my $$!! lol...no but really...~ She wants war....I am ready for a fight! haha....~ Shara's Birthday was yesterday...the 18th! Happy Birthday girl~ sweet #16th! woo-hoo! haha. So anyways.....umm I don't have a whole lot else to say,,,,I am pissed, upset, mad, heartbroken,,and I MISS CHRISTOPHER GEARY SO BAD!!! I love you if u read this....<3 ~

until then.....

~*sTaRlYnN dAwN*~