Went to work with my padre today and that was pretty cool. ummm boring but cool.....anyway havent gotten on this thing in a while just havent had the time but im sittin in front of a damn computer all today so wtf i misewell. anyway i guess ill see some of my old friends at the prkview homecoming that ought to be fun...couple more months until i go to sandiago.....i cant wait. ive been gettin back in shape from this summer. i really fell out of it ya know. i hate it when im not in shape but....im backk. haha. Things with amber are good were going to south beach before i go to sandiago......doncha just love chix wit the money....haha. but anyway.....hey i never knew how much it hurt when a chick fuckin gouges ur back out during sex god u dont notice until after in the shower when it f'in burns to hell. but anyway take it easy and ill be round.

bobby

well...wow thanx everyone for the support its so eye opening to see that people do care...thanx so much. its time to move on and try new things. we all do the best we can and sometimes its not good enough...but thats okay. i hope to meet many new people and make new relationships. my dad got in today from bein out of town for the past two weeks and it was so good to see him....i talked to him a while and we resolved some family issues that had been bothering me latley and things are gonna be great. im so happy. thanx everyone for bein there for me. u dont know how much this means. yall are great and thats even an understament...lol. im gonna start swimmin again and gettin back in shape again.....hopefully ill walk this year with a state ring on my finger...YEAH that would be awesome. bein a senior is so exciting. and 18 is and age that u just cant beat....the beggining of ur life u know....and the end of what uve always known....ur childhood. theres some people that i cant wait to get to know better and they know who they are.lol. so much is goin my way now for the first time in a while and im so happy. thanx yall much love...

Bobby 

words wont describe my pain. but its over now. theres no way to work this out. ive tried with every inch of my being to get her back. but there lies no hope for us anymore and these tears free flowing are bound never to stop. but for her to be happy is all i wish and she will be. my pain is back from its three month vacation and its here to stay. to be alone is to be dead. and dead is my heart. why is it that all things miraculous must end??? all that brings joy ends in sorrow. what is left off my heart??? i have nothing else to offer anymore. fuck god....where are u when i need u....huh??? u take everything i charish. uve never been there for me. i need u now and where are u... laughing at me.  im sick of this. take me now....why live a life of sorrow and pain....its all u pour down on me. build me up to throw me back down. the world is cold and is meant to be as so. why should i give love to others when no one loves me back huh??? no more. im over. its over. WHY WONT IT STOP HURTING. it wont. she'll move on and find someone new and better and ill be here....stuck. fine this is how its supposed to be. i always know. I ALWAYS KNOW. I TOLD U U WOULD LEAVE ME!!! why did i even try for u....u were to perfect. anything that would make me as happy as u did had to be ripped from my arms because fucking god forbid i be happy. its not meant to be. im a person that people taste and spit out. wheres my fucking try me sticker. huh. COME ON WORLD TRY ME OUT AND PUT ME BACK!!! its what im here for...i know that ive always known that. im just a puppet. puppets dont have feelings right. WELL GUESS WHAT.....IM A REAL BOY. I LOVE....I CRY....I SMILE.....and i even care. but who else does??? no more tears...no more tears   

in light of today...i just want tell the world that i do love jennifer and that she is my best friend. from the day that my dumb ass trampled her because i couldnt walk strait i was so high  lol to the time she jumped into my arms on the last day of school and i took her away and wouldnt let her go she has held a special place in my heart. there have been times that i have shared with her that will stay with me forever. ill never forget the face she made at prom when i was trying so hard to dance well for her. or the dance we shared where she finally decided that she loved me. "its so hard to type this with (ill be) in the back round...lol ive got her xanga up at the same time playin this and im ballin my eyes out right now". and the time that she sat in my lap at the movies with ron and anna and we cried together. but i think the moment that ill never forget was when we were in my bed and incomplete came on the radio. i couldnt control it i was so happy that finally i was in love that i just burst out in tears of joy. i couldnt stop.

      DEAR JENN,

THANK U FOR THE TIMES WE SHARED TOGETHER. U MADE ME BE A BETTER PERSON . U BROUGHT A JOY IN MY LIFE THAT CAN NEVER LEAVE. JONATHAN WAS PRETTY OKAY TOO EVEN THOUGH HE HAD A TENDENCY TO LIKE TO BODY SLAM ME LOL. JUST KNOW THESE THINGS.... UR BEAUTIFUL AND DONT LET ANYONE TELL U OTHERWISE. U WERE NEVER FAT SO STOPTELLING URSELF U R. AND I JUST WANT U TO KNOW THAT I WOULD HAVE KEPT IT "U KNOW WHAT I MEAN". UR A GREAT PERSON AND GOD GAVE ME A BLESSING WHEN HE SENT U TO ME. I DONT KNOW WHY JONATHAN TREATED U SO BADLY....UR AMAZING AND SHOULD BE TREATED LIKE A QUEEN, BUT I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY HE FOUGHT FOR U SO BADLY. BUT I WONT DO ANYTHING TO HURT U OKAY. I GUESS 5 MONTHS WAS A LONG SHOT HUH...BUT HEY IT WAS GREAT WHILE IT LASTED. I LOVE U AND I DID MY BEST FOR U. ULL ALWAYS HOLD A SPOT IN MY HEART...AND ILL SEE U WHEN SCHOOL STARTS GOODBYE SWEETHEART 

BOBBY