my girls are convincing me... and i have decided..

MAY will be europe backpacking month for me ^_____________^

i don't care if i never graduate! ho ho ho

i'm starting to miss pris already =(

Some highlights of my 2005 winter so far...

- the condition of my poor room while studying for my one and only exam. note the unorganized notes everywhere and my horrible spending problem...tons of shopping bags w/o a home

- birthday boy and girl

- a scandalous day at chloe's, Lo Say Chun, and Cheesecake Etc.

- crazy shopping in downtown and eating at Tomokazu

- good quality with my curry girls susan and pris.. missing candy oh so much! shopped at bellis fair for EIGHT HOURS and super nice dinner at Anthony's by the bellingham waterfront =)

handed in my resignation letter today to budget... here goes my 7 month employment! good and bad things out of this place, but my first experience of a bad company to work for. i can't believe i'm done with them. well screw them anyways.. they made me believe i was gunna work lots in december and then schedule no shifts for me and fail to tell me waht my schedule is. altho i am going to get a free meal from them tonite at the Christmas dinner at shabusen!

thinking of keeping my hair short. scary since i've always always had long hair n it was the norm for me.

time to chill until i go out =)

wow i just realized i've been using xanga for almost 3 years now...time really flies.

trying reading one blog from the same month but different year and see what the differences are.  your language, style, focus and content all changes. i used to record whatever happened to me during that day or period of time and wrote shout outs to my friends.  excessive focus was also on interesting encounters with my friends.  then i progressed to trying to humour my audience and earn as many comments and eprops as possible.  to today, i just post whenever i have a thought in my head.  i now treat xanga as my random thought dump, a place where i can express my inner feelings.  where it's not intended for any audience, but an empty space of which to receive my thoughts.  feels relaxing and free and takes away the stress from trying to write a "good" entry.

oh my gosh why do i get offtrack so easily.

what gets me off track are:
-ppl's msn msgs
-interesting videos sent by friends, which lead to my quest of more interesting videos
-interesting webpages sent by friends, leading to my quest of discovering the rest of the website
-email
-hunger, thirst
-phone calls
-the existence of my bed and soft pillow
-xanga
-friendster
-interesting things i notice about my body, i.e. a chipped nail, a small piece of peeling skin, hair, a need to wash my face, a need to wash my hands or put lotion on them
-the benefits my computer can get from updating virus definitions and a full system scan
-the benefits my computer can gain from a free spyware removal program
-the search for such a program
-installing and using the program
-thinking about what can distract me

ahhhhhhh i'm hopeless