okay so i never get on this thing anymore, but ionno

so ive been dating adolfo for about 5 1/2 months, and we've had some rough times but we are still doing great...he's a great guy and i love being with him...and yes i do think that i love him. no other guy has made me feel the way i do about him, but theres one small problem...my parents cant stand me with him...they say "he seems like a nice guy but hes not the one for you" my mom says he treats me like crap and hes not good enough for me and my dad just doesnt trust him...i dont really know what i can do to change their minds about him, i want them to look through my eyes and see the guy i fell in love with...i know im supposed to take into consideration about what they are telling me and i do. its just the only thing i can do to proove to them im listening is to break up with him...and wuite frankly my mom has been the worse out of the two, she's constantly telling me how much we shouldnt be together, and i sit there and ask her for support and she says she supports me by bringing me to see him, but i cant stand the fact that she doesnt like him with me and i wish it didnt bother me that much but it does...and honestly with her constantly nagging it just pushes me away from her then she gets even more pissed when i dont want to be around her all the time and i dont want to pour my heart out to her. i love her to death but ionno. i know if my daughter were to be dating someone i didnt like my daughter would know how i felt about him but i wouldnt do this. she thinks ill give up my life to live with him no matter how many times i say i wont...its not going to be good enough for her, the only way her and i will get along again in her eyes is if i break up with him, and if i dont im choosing him over her in the way she looks at it. you know i dont know how long adolfo and i will last but i do know that hes here for me right now. and thats all that matters,. i just wish she would just stop so her and i could actually have a regular conversation without her trying to get me to change my mind about him. and shes all about trying to get along with me and communicate better with me so she says, but this is truly not helping her case. so i dont know what i should do about them...paul actually likes adolfo and he said that he would talk to them cuz they actually listen to him so hopefully that will do something. i hope it works out cuz i hate being in a constant fight with my parents, and for once if i dont argue back my mom gets pissed so i truly cannot win, and right now im not so sure its worth the effort.

okay its kinda blury from xanga doing something to it. but oh well. this is adolfo. and i like him a lot.

but he's got a history of being a player, and cheating on every girl he's with. and sleeping around.

so i dont know. i really like him. like a lot. but i don't know if getting with him will be worth it. he's says he won't cheat on me. but thats probably what he says to everyone he's with. so ionno... its not that i dont trust him. its just that everyone else is telling me not to...

omg.

so much has happened since the last entry its not even funny.

okay so i was grounded for 2 weeks. cuz one girl couldnt keep her damn mouth shut. lol but im totally over that. lol

i got with, and broke up with a guy named jamie. he was great. but not so great for reason that will go unspoken.

ive been getting my ghetto self out lately. lol some people need to stop starting drama. cuz its ridiculous. ((i know thats spelled ron but o well)) i go out of my way to please people. and i dont choose sides between fighting friends. and then a completely different friend gets mad. i try my hardest to stay out of trouble. yet somehow im just dragged back in.

well my dad and i didnt get along ever since i first got grounded. so that was just a cherry on top of the sundae...

then well theres this new guy. hes absolutely adorable but he lives in yermo. and yermo is the #1 meth lab in the world so my parents are not too happy about that. but o well. we'll see what happens....and yea well im gonna head out. i miss yall dearly. xoxo!

<3 Sydney

okay so i realized that i havent updated since......forever!!

so things have been going good.

drama is always apparently existing here. so i shall get used to it eventually.

i finally really feel like i can let my guard down. and i can have fun

friday and saturday will be uber fun. you can only guess why. =P

i wanna be either a french maid. police women or school girl. which one??? i need help.

and so i realized today, that i fell in love with this small ghetto drug-filled, mostly gothic or gangsta school of mine. i really do LOVE it here. im glad we moved, dont get me wrong i miss prattville. but its good to get around a lil.

well im out. <3 miss yall

sydney