Currently Listening Black Holes and Revelations By Muse Glorious see related

I'm still waiting for my period&it's starting to get to me a little bit now. Normally, for the past four years normally, it's always been here on the 31, 1, 2, or 3 day of the month. Today is the 6&there's no sign. Okay, well my breasts have been aching for about 4or5days now, skin was acting up for that same amount of time...but no cramps...no bleeding whatsoever...no back aches...I don't feel all that moody anymore either. This has never happened before. I kept telling myself 'You can start worrying on the 10th, but not before. You aren't pregnant so just relax.' I don't want to get all excited for something that isn't happening. I don't want to get all stressed over something that isn't happening. I don't want to loose sleep over something that isn't happening. I don't want to hope for something that isn't happening. I don't want to strain relationships over something that isn't happening.

IF my period is not present by the tenth day of this month, that will make it one week late. If not 8or9 days. So. At that point, should it come to that, I can only assume(it took me a good minute or two to type this last word)I'm pregnant. I just wish I knew right now! But I won't worry...I can't worry for the next 4 days straight...

I've been eating as healthy as possible ever since I realised there was a slight possibility of...you know...I can't even type it

<3

LAST ATE:9PM

&So begins a new month, full of new things. I love PostSecrets...

Vs.

Before-180lbs.

After-120lbs.

-Goals for July 1-15, 2006--

PERSONAL:

Find a new job!

Decide about college-To go, or not to go

BODY:

Fast a minimum 168hours(1week in total)

Drink a minimum 2L daily(71oz)

Loose 6lbs

Increase lean muscle in arms&abs&legs

Lower BMI from 22.5 to 21.5

Currently Listening Origin of Symmetry By Muse Muscle Museum see related

LAST ATE-9PM

HOURS FASTED-19

INTAKE:

1,100to1,200cals

750ml water

EXERCISE:

walking-70to80cals burned

50ab reps&50arm reps-25to35cals burned

I ate by basal metabolism today...Some friend of the family is in town&coming over tomorrow&apparently they're ordering pizza, so right then I thought what the fuck, I have raging PMS&my plan for July starts on Saturday so why not? I can't post anymore pictures until then anyhow so here's me. Fat gross me. I want to actually document the changes this time around. I have no pictures of me at my LW so technically no one even has to believe me lol But by the end of this summer I will be able to prove it. Once&for all. Not feeling very eloquent tonight so I'll just pack it in.

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v672/PerfectionIsNotEnough/

--Goals for July 1-15, 2006--

PERSONAL:

Find a new job!

BODY:

Fast a minimum 168hours(1week in total)

Drink a minimum 2L daily(71oz)

Loose 6lbs

Increase lean muscle in arms&abs&legs

Lower BMI from 22.5 to 21.5

Currently Listening Black Holes and Revelations By Muse Supper Massive Black Hole see related

Last Ate:11pm

HOURS FASTED:43

INTAKE:

700ml diet root beer

1l water

1cup fennel tea(2tea bags)

2large apples,4oranges,grapes,strawberries,watermelon-negative calories-

Pasta,CheesyBun,MiniRiceCakes-650to700cals

EXERCISE:

100ab reps&50arm reps-35to45cals burned

I lost 1lb. CW131.5 My period is obviously on it's way, so that may be misleading? I usually gain3-4lbs. while I'm waiting for it, just from water weight. Hence to fennel seed tea. I strongly suggest you buy some&drink tons of water if you retain alot during your cycle. It always drives me nuts-coming off of a fast. It's like, you don't want to cancel out the results. Food looks even more intensely evil somehow, you know?

My new thing-I don't like eating meat. No, I didn't just join PETA. There's just something about it that's unappealing to me now. Hamburger is the worst. I just can't look at one without thinking how atrocious&unappealing it is! How very odd indeed...I still like chicken&very lean slices of ham, but in small quantities&on rare occasions.

Thanks for all the lovely comments!<333

--Goals for July 1-15, 2006--

PERSONAL:

Find a new job!

BODY:

Fast a minimum 168hours(1week in total)

Drink a minimum 2L daily(71oz)

Loose 6lbs

Increase lean muscle in arms&abs&legs

Lower BMI from 22.5 to 21.5

Currently Listening String Quartet Tribute to Muse see related

INTAKE:

700ml diet coke w/lime

400ml diet root beer

32oz water

1orange,1apple,pineapple,few grapes,1cup strawberries-negative-

EXERCISE:

150arm reps

100ab reps

Fasting.(This means I will be obsessed with thinspo for a while)

It's been24hours so far...Feeling extreme slugishness, but that is to be expected&even slightly hoped for. We'll see how long I can go for tomorrow.