FAMILY AND I ALL WENT NYC I SAW WICKED AND AVENUE Q AND IT WAS AWESOME THEN ON THE CRUISE MY BROTHER AND I SPENT FOUR BAJILLION DOLLARS ON ARCADE TOKENS AND WE ALL GAINED LIKE TEN POUNDS FROM THE AMAZING FOOD WE GOT BACK YESTERDAY AND SOMETHING SHITTY HAPPENED SO NOW I WANT TO PUNCH GWEN AND MATT IN THE FACE BUT IT'S ALL GOOD CAUSE I MADE BROWNIES AND I LIKE BROWNIES AND WHEN I EAT THEM I THINK MMM YUM.

YUM YUM YUM. DELICIOUS.

105 Facts About You

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING? verbally...

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? 6 months (pathetic, yes?)

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? a wonderful thing from Emmly

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? probably

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? 3 days ago

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? iPod nano-and IT DOESN'T WORK

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE? potato salad

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? gestures/ body language

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG? "Once Moved" by Seems So Bright

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE? near Philly

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: SF

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: i forget?

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: HABITAT AHH!!

14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD: don't have a job

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? at one point i did

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: nope

17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: aunt Sib's

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: Emmly

19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: yesterday

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURNT: chic-fil-a

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: "Someone put, like, a pound of pot in my cola and I, like, drank the whole thing!" -STD!!!! GHONOREA!!!!

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS? the McLounge

24. CAN YOU COOK? ...ish...

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?: none

26. BEST KISSER: i'm not sure. LET'S HAVE A CONTEST!!!

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: i forget

28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: seafood! yuck.

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: meh hair

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: meh shape

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: none

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?: besides nightmare? that would have to be Contact

34. CAN YOU SING? yup ^^

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED? i forget

36. LAST KISS? : haha on friday

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: nothing

38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT: my bag

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?: vermont

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?: laptop

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?: Oh god...I would have to go with Robin Williams

45. DO YOU SMOKE?: nope

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?: just a really big shirt

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?: my panda

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?: nope

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? hotcakes

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?: only if it's really strong. i don't like wimpy coffee.

52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? scrambled

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: nope

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: a telemarketer

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?: matt

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?: i have no idea

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?: 2

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: green shirt and guy shorts

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC: Banana banana banana terracotta banana terracotta terracotta pie!!!

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?: strawberry

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?: yes

63. CAN YOU SWIM? yes

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM? mint chocolate chip

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS? not at all

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: i love playing old-school games like space invaders and duck hunt

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?: yup

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?: winter

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID? 5 minutes ago

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?: 7 25

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?: the cold

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?: n/a

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?: ginger

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?: awesomely cool

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND? i'm gonna make a few phonecalls to find out later

78. BIRTHDATE? recently

79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE: a member of AmeriCorps 

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?: nope

87. ARE YOU SMILING?: no sorry

89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: yes

90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?: croatia 

92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?: yes

93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: yes

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?: i don't have one?

95. WHAT TIME IS IT: 12 00PM

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?: yes

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?: nope

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?: I'M GOING IN EARLY JULY!!

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?: yes

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?: no

101. ARE YOU HAPPY?: sure

102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?: yup

103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?: doesn't everyone?

104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING? none

105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY? brush my teeth and go to the dentist

I have the sudden urge to yell FUCK! really really loudly. Why, you ask? Because

I hate her. She's a selfish fuck who doesn't care about how she's going to make those weeks of my family living Dad-less useless; For those nights of nuggets and tots or pizza and not hearing about Dad's retarded colegues; For looking into Mom's eyes and feeling overwhelming pain and exhaustion; For those countless sleepless nights and countless worrysome days; For the tears, for the pain.
For the cost of my family's sincere happiness. Because of her now it's all gone to waste. Is the sacrifice of even our daily thoughts not enough to make you feel worthy to live? Is this one last strive to get gracious sympathy and attention?  ...Of course you'll quickly change the subject and start picking at your fucking nails instead of answering. Because that's who you are- a concieted bitch, convinced that you've done so much to selflessly help countless people by writing your fucking letters and giving a 5 minute long fucking phone call.

FUCK YOU! I FUCKING HATE YOU! THERE IS NO MORE ROOM IN MY HEART FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOU! YOU'VE PERMANENTLY SCARRED MY FAMILY,AND MADE OUR SACRIFICES FOR YOU NOT MATTER! NOT TO MENTION HOW YOU TREATED MY DAD AS A CHILD. UNBE-FUCKING-LIEVABLE.

WHAT A LEGACY YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE BEHIND. I HOPE YOU REALIZE HOW STUPID YOU ARE IN MAKING THIS DECISION BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.

BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE, THE LAST THING YOU'LL PROBABLY SEE IS THE CIELING OF DEVON MANOR, AND THE THOUGHT OF POSSIBLY HURTING THE PEOPLE YOU "LOVE" PROBABLY WON'T EVEN CROSS YOUR WITHERING LITTLE MIND.

CONGRATULATIONS.

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