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Friday, July 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 15:17:36 GMT

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 14:26:46 GMT

so the summer hasnt even began yet since everyone is stuck in summer school or some thing like that.

well im stuck in freaking basketball camp until july 22nd. well that occupies my time without murphy here. haha. well first days of basketball camp were pretty rough on me since i was lazy most my days & im not used to the hardcore exercise, but after a few days im pretty used to it. hehe.

so murphy called me yesterday from some internet place in vietnam. here`s our conversation. its pretty stupid if you ask me. xp

me : " hello "
him : " what are you doing "
me : " tv "
him : " you know who this is right? "
me : " MURPHY O.O? "
him : " yeah haha "
me : " ARE YOU CALLING ME FROM VIETNAM RIGHT NOW? "
-- & here is where you see the stupidity XP.
him : " no duh /)_-) "

stupid jockers get on my nerve. whatever you aint original & thats that.

ill have a new layout up this weekend. maybe. im too tired from basketball nowadays. all sore. hehe

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 00:52:10 GMT

this week was the most memorable week of my year. i wont ever forget these weeks, ever.

junetwentithird*twothousand&five ;

congrats class of 2005! god diggity damn was it moody & yet for the first time at seperation, i didnt cry.

blah blah, everyone looked gorgeous today. the dance was great & what does i do best at dances, dance of course. i was seizure mode on susan but the whole dance simmered down to slow dances. murphy here i come. haha. me&murphy beat you son&tran! i`ll jes leave it at that ;] the dance was hot&drippin` wet with MY sweat. haha. i guessed i danced the most. wow i loved today. i didnt cry when it was over, iuno why. i usually do.

did i mention my love phuong came today. indeed, so after the dance & all that pizzazz, me, sarah&phuong went around, decided to go to taco bell since we didnt have a ride to spires with everyone else.

got to taco bell & murphy called and asked us to go to spires, his mom picked all three of us up. haha sarah is now, condom girl thanks to murphys lil` brother jackie. taha & we are all sluts, as jackie says.

ate at spires, i ate breakfast kuhs im cool to eat breakfast at dinner time. haha me&phuong balanced forks&spoons on our noses. yeah we are rad like that. i won phuong! we started cutting pictures out of our pancakes. i leave those pictures for you all to find out. tehe. lagged outside for awhile watching everyone take pictures. they decided to go to the park.

got to the park & everyone left except me murphy son brandon (oh murphys other lil` brother came ) sarah&phuong. i started banging the bench & i freaked them all out. taha murphys mom gave me a ride home. i loved today.

junetwentifourth*twothousand&five ;

last day of school, im gonna miss all you people not going to fountain valley. my life long friends, my 7th grade friends, the people i met this year. the people i wont see forsho no mo`. i love you all.

chilled at sarah until whiteboy ryan came picked me sarah & julie up. he picked murphy up too. " i like your knobbs " god you all shuddup, jes kuhs it took me 5 minutes to get it. i did get it, but it could be other alternatives & no i do not think backwards XP.

spent most my time with xtine, talked to her. jamba juice & kinda seperated from everyone at first. everyone was cold except me. my mom says i have beef skin. tehe. waited outside ruby's for like, an hour & a half. it was fun though. jes ran around. i liked this. the setting was beautiful & jes wanted some alone time. hehe but murphy was there to make me feel loved. um got into a " yo mama " thing with ryan. ryan ended up saying " your dads wifes husband " hmm same thing as your dad. lol. i love that guy. his mom is ghetto to the max. a lot of detail that i dont seem to remember.

finally got into ruby's & ate for an hour & a half. i started talking like a hilly billy & it made sarah&murphy laugh. played footsies & accidentally touched something else ;]. thehe. ate clam chowda. yes clam chowda with an a. hehe new england accent.

cold as hell outside now, had a race with murphy, i cut him off :D went home with ryans mom with murphy, sarah&julie. fun freaking time in the backseat. heh heh ;]

junetwentififth*twothousand&five ;

slept most my day, then hung out with dana at kelvins for awhile. kicked it until andrew come home around 5ish. jes chillax`d the whole day. bummed out man.

murphy is leaving tonight, actually he already left. hes going back to his ancestory in vietnam. haha! he leaves at 1, so he gets on the plane around 2? so i am going to be online so i can chat with him. the last phone conversation for a month ...

him : hey.
me : hey.
him : this is the last time im going to call you in america
me : yeah i know :(
him : i love you a lot, wait for me ..
me : bye i love you too.
him : i love you.
me : bye.
him : bye.
end of call.

played basketball before i went home. thanks kelvens dad for the ride.

actually .. . these have been the best three days of my life ..

Monday, June 20, 2005

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 18:56:13 GMT

man wtf. i only had this layout for a day & people already jock this shit.

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=d0rk__0x
-- didnt you learn the first time not to jock from me bitch. the first time was you & now its this http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=J0CKED_LAY0UTS bitch again. jes b/c you got it from her doesnt mean its not my shit. bitches take it off.

also http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=smiliee_x who the fuck are you? i dont even know you. take my shit off. dont fake like you know me. you idiotic imbisul!

rawr. stupid jockers. its my stuff it took me forever to do these layouts. you asswipes.

anyways spirit day today was pretty rad. spent the whole day with dana ; vanessa ; tammy ; tasha ; & jenny. wow you guys are hilarious. first off was the carnival. jes sat around & freaked out lambright with our talks. haha. then the dance. it was freaky deaky yo. lunch. yum but then all i wanted was juice. hehe the food sucked ass. snuck into 7th grade dance. heck yeah we are better than some of those bitches. god some of them cant dance for sheeet. im only mentioning these bitches i dislike. everyone else was rad.

im sorry for all the arguments i put you through murphy. i love you<3

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 16:31:12 GMT

juneeightteenth`20O5;

i decided to go to andrews house so i can chill with him before school ends. came & saw nicky moeun. happy fourteenth birthday nicky. anyways went inside & waited for kelven to come over so we could do something. ended up playing basketball for terms i shall not mention. i lost, thats all you have to know. haha.

the ice cream man came. ice cream time. sat under his big tree burning things. pyro time >;P

waited inside `kuhs murphy was gonna come over. he came like around 3ish ; went over to kelvens house & jes chilled on his couch. damn i love that thing. haha. anyways sat there with murphy watching animal planet {wild animals} haha!

went to sarahs house at 4:30PM & jes chilled with her until 8:30. her mom took me home. damn this day tired me out.

talked to murphy on the phone from 12:30AM - 4:56AM. damn. another all nighter.

haha, did you all miss me. i havent updated in so long & so i decided to come back with a whole new layout. you like? hehe. the banner will be up later. do not jock the link to this song.

i was sitting around realizing how fast this year has ended. last year was a total drag that never seemed to end. i guess time flies when youre having fun. i met a lot of cool new people this year & im sad to see them go to a different highschool. even though we`re going our seperate ways, our friendship doesnt end here. we`ll meet each other in a different lifetime or again in life. no worries right? i jes have to try to keep in touch. i love the bestfriends i have met & the enemies i have made. i have no bad blood against anyone. im gonna miss everyone at warner. i love you all. times like these make me cry.

survey.

LAYER ONE: On The Outside
-- Birthdate: september 2Oth`91
-- Birthplace: galang, indonesia
-- Current 004 : midway city
-- Eye Color: dark brown
-- Hair Color: dark brown
-- Height: 5'3.5
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: virgo, the virgin haha

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
-- Your heritage: 5O% Viet, 5O% Khmer
-- The shoes you wore today: bare feet
-- Your weakness: him
-- Your fears: death
-- Your perfect pizza: plain old pepperoni
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: get over the lost of all the friends & move on

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
-- Your most overused phrase: ehmygod
-- Your thoughts first waking up: damn let me sleep
-- Your best physical feature: *shrugs. smile?
-- Your bedtime: anytime
-- Your most missed memory: those times under the big tree in 6th grade. me&my boys.

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick
-- Pepsi or Coke: coke
-- McDonalds or Burger King: micky dee`s
-- Single or group dates: groups
-- Adidas or Nike: nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino

LAYER FIVE: Do You?
-- Smoke: nope
-- Cuss: cutting back
-- Have a crush(es): nope, happily taken
-- Do you think you've ever been in love: yeah. once. the turning point of my life
-- Want to go to college: yeah
-- Like high school: i will.
-- Want to get married: probably.
-- Believe in yourself: i try to
-- Get motion sickness: neh
-- Think you're a health freak?: not really. live life!
-- Get along with your parents: not much
-- Like thunderstorms: sometimes i find them romantic. haha
-- Play an instrument: eh, i suck

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: neh
-- Smoked: neh
-- Done a drug: neh
-- Made Out: =]
-- Gone to the mall: yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope, gets tiring
-- Eaten sushi: no raw fish for me
-- Been on stage: ? forgot
-- Been dumped: never
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny dipping: haha. that would be some fun times
-- Dyed your hair: nope
-- Stolen anything: i used to =x

LAYER SEVEN: Ever..
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
-- Been caught: yes
-- Been called a tease: yes
-- Gotten beaten up: neh
-- Shoplifted: i quit

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older
-- Age you hope to be married: around 25
-- Numbers of Children: 2 - 4
-- How do you want to die: in my bed. peacefully
-- Where you want to go to college: UCLA
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: iuno. lots of options
-- What country would you most like to visit: france & italy

LAYER NINE: In a partner (b/f- g/f)
-- Best eye color?: hazel/brown
-- Best hair color?: brown/light brown
-- Short or long hair: short
-- Height: eh? haha. depends
-- Best articles of clothing: gangster gangster. those classy g`s or those guys who wear jersey's with the matching hat & shoes!
-- Best first date location: the beach, on top of a hill. simple

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: none
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: fiveish? the are the ones who i would put my life on the line for.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 01:30:15 GMT

today was the worst day ever.

first off i woke up around 5:30AM to be sure that i was ready for my algebra final. it started around 8:45AM but i thought we had to be there by 8:00. wrong. got up, got ready, went back to sleep until 7:30ish. got a ride from vivian.

as i was taking the test, my eyes wander a lot when i think. the lady thought i cheated so when everyone was done, she snatched my paper away like a lil` beetch. god now i have a zero on the test in which i didnt even cheat. stupid lady. i was furious.

home. hungry. subway. chill`d back until my mom said my dad wanted to talk to me. he says i am going to turn into a gangbanger, i go out too much, i am very rude&obnoxious, i am going to go to jail.

1. no, i am not a gangbanger. you know how he got this assumption, i was with 3 guys who have dark skin, he thinks they are mexican gangsters that are gonna get me in jail. haha no. they are asian. stupid racist dad.
2. you dont even know the half of me dad, you know nothing about me.
3. i go out until 5PM on weekdays, i dont even go out on weekends. tell me that is going out a lot.

-- i teared up. i hate this day. i hate my dad for being such a whore. i hate that stupid lady.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 21:31:07 GMT

›› I was looking back on the mistakes I've made, the lessons I've learned, and the moments that have taken my breath away. .. It's amazing how people changed so quickly through the months. Even though this year isn't the best of years, I appreciate everything. From the drama to the happiest of days, all of it is worth it. The drama makes me grow & the joy makes me happy for once. I love this year for everything that it has taught me.

-- update on the weekend - this week has gotten everything out of me.

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 21:19:52 GMT

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=J0CKED_LAY0UTS
dumb broad is so full of herself.

sorry i havent been bloggin in so long. i have had so much hwk to do. so much that i can barely think. bought my grad dess on friday with dana&tammy. i love those nutts ! my weekend started off broke but yesterday night my big brother gave me fiddy dollars in which is not a lot. haha i spend way too much. weekend is boring. took a survey since i was bored.

THE GENERAL ··›
the name: nikki.
in the morning, i am: happy to wake up with the life i have. even though sometimes its full of bullshit. i really dont care anymore `kuhs i love life!
love is: that feeling that no one else can give you besides him. the butterflies you get when you see him. the awkward silence on the phone & yet he's still on. everything that makes you happy ♥
vi dream about: a real fairy tale ending. a happily ever after.

THE OPPOSiTE SEX ··›
what do you notice first?: style, smile, and eyes. oh & shoes for some odd reason XP
last person u slow danced with: murphy!

WHO? ··›
do you have a crush on?: no crush. ive fallen already haha.
is easiest to talk to: many.

HAVE YOU EVER? ··›
fallen for your best friend: countable times.
been in love: once, first love&first heartbreak.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON ··›
you talked to on the phone: murphy le
hugged: dana
you instant messaged: bao tang
you laughed with: susan chhum

DO YOU ··›
live without the computer?: yes, i have a life.
love food?: who doesnt?
like fruit, what kind?:
think physical or emotional pain hurts more?: emotional pain because its inside & sometimes it doesnt ever heal. you will always have a faint scar, jes like physical but the scar still burns with passion.
trust others way too easily?: i give everyone a fair chance, a lot have disappointed me.

NUMBER ··›
of times i have had my heart broken?: 1 bigtime.
of hearts i have broken?: 4?
of boys i have kissed?: 2
of girls i have kissed?: many, on the cheeks though.
of drugs taken illegally?: none. i will never take drugs.
of tight friends?: it used to be so big, a big group of friends whom all got along, whom all were easy to talk to, but now as the year comes to an end. i have to say as many as one hand can count.
of cd's that i own?: many, many.
of scars on my body?: on my body, a few. in my body, infinite.
of things in my past that i regret?: a lot of people say they dont regret anything, well i know deep down you have to regret it. even though these mistakes have made you who you are, it still doesnt mean you dont ponder about what couldve been i regreat many many many many things, but mainly only 3<>?

MiSCELLANEOUS ··›
i know: that true love never ends.
i wish: i could turn back the hands of time.
i hate: her
i miss: my besterest friend, Christopher Laurel & those days when everyone got along. care-free days.
i fear: seperation.
i hear: trance music.
i love: him, & the ladies ♥
i care: too much.
i will always: be down to ride&die for those i truly love.
i dance: dirty & when no ones looking.
i cry: for stupid lil` things.
i write: to express
i confuse: many with my indepth thoughts.
i can usually be found: dreaming my days away.
i need: self-satisfaction.

WHO OUT OF YOUR FRiENDS iS? ··›
wuss: unnamed.
druggie: unnamed.
gang member: everyone man! we're G like that. haha
daydreamer: sarah tran!
alcoholic: eh?
freak: susan chhum, in a good way ;) haha
brat: eh?
sarcastic: DANA!
goody-goody: no one, they are all kuruptd lil` souls!
angel: haha same as above ^
devil: all of them, lil` devils they are!
friend: only a few. i dont want to say.
shy: tiffy lalalala
talkative: tammy vuong
adventurous;: me!
intelligent: all of them, ha! they wished XP

CONCERNiNG FRIENDS ··›
wish you saw more often: Christopher Laurel & Peter Phampham
most sarcastic: DANA!
knows you best: the best frands
most entertaining: the CHHUMS
love to be around: all of them
nicest: all of them, at times haha.
gives the best advice: Susan Chhum
you are with most often: Dana or Sarah

SELF ANALYSiS ··›
your best feature, personality-wise: talkative?
annoying thing you do: laugh like spongebob -_-
biggest mistake you've made this far: i cant say. its too personal
describe your personality in one word: indepth
the physical feature for which you are most often complimented: voice&smile
height: 5"3.5'
a smell that makes you smile: georgio armani, geo the cologne for men
a drink you order most often: caribbean passion from jamba juice
a delicious dessert: whip cream P:
a book you highly recommend: the phantom tollbooth
the music you prefer while alone: trance or slow jams
your favorite band: starting line or the used
a film you could watch over and over: white chicks
you live in a(n): a box named bob. lol
your transportation: scooter or car!
under your bed or in your closet you hide: the essentials *wink* haha.

+ i edited this whole survey into my own format, so credit me if you take it.

looking back on my life ; i do wish i could change a few things. even though our mistakes are what made us who we are. i am unsatisfied with the result. if i could, i would turn back the hands of time.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 00:02:12 GMT

today i was acting really giddy towards everyone & everything. heck i was even laughing at the ways i laughed. i guess i was jes really happy. i guess ive learned to cope with all my feelings and not give a damn what bitches say. i live my life, they dont. i know the truth while they just assume. i have my friends, my true friends, the ones that have always been there for me & whom i am thankful for.

in language arts i was reminiscing on my past.. again. i really need to stop doing that because it puts so much sadness in my head. i thought back on him, how i missed him, and it took me an hour to realize how stupid i was. i got murphy now & he treats me with a lot of love & ive fallen.. deep. i also miss my besterest friend in the whole wide world, chris laurel. dude he moved so far away & i realized that ever since he left, life went down, way downhill.

anyways. same old day. sarahs house & walked.. yeah. went home & took a shower, then took a nap. woke up at the sounds of my celephonay. text messaging begins. i sent out about 20?

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Tue, 31 May 2005 01:55:13 GMT

never sneak out of the house at 2:30AM to go joyriding with your wild guy friends & your bf and expect them to return you back home in five minutes. long story: interesting middle, right honey . now that's an even longer story. tehehe stop thinking sick perves.

today i went to disneyland. it was pretty fun kuhs murphy went with me (insider) well he didnt. but he was on the phone with me while i was on rides. haha. it was a pretty funny thing. normal day at disneyland? what more can you expect when you are with two lil nephews that have high pitched voices. lol