Things Could Be

She sits there calmly not knowing what she뭩 doing,

But my heart is pounding on the inside.

She has no clue about these feelings,

Of course I wish she did.

The thoughts linger deep inside,

Thoughts of the things that could be.

I뭢 not sure of what뭩 going to happen,

But still I will continue to strive for my goal.

Strive for her.

Strive for us.

Strive for the things that matter most.

For the things that could be.

If it뭩 meant to happen,

Then it is bound to be.

A connection from the hands of fate,

The bond between her and me.

When we뭨e close the thoughts race through my head,

Thoughts of the things that could be.

As I sit and watch the sunset,

I imagine her by my side.

But as of now I뭢 without her,

And the feeling just isn뭪 the same.

So I sit here wondering once again,

About the things that could be.

-Josh

::haha big quiz, i was bored::

[ .001. ] first name: Josh 
[ .002. ] middle name: Lee
[ .003. ] last name: Hornback
[ .004. ] nickname(s): Joshie (Mek)
[ .005. ] gender: male
[ .006. ] age: 16
[ .007. ] birthday: 4-10-88
[ .008. ] height: 6??BR>[ .009. ] hair color: brown with blonde highlights
[ .010. ] eye color: brown
[ .011. ] race: WHITE!!!! WOOHOO
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: NO!
[ .013. ] do you have braces: used to in 8^th grade
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: kinda short
[ .015. ] where were you born: Chicago
[ .016. ] current location: Des Plaines
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: Aries
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: me no speak nothing
[ .019. ] nationality: Italian, Romanian, Cherokee Indian, Irish, more?mutt
[ .020. ] bad habits: certain things, people kno
[ .021. ] piercings you have: ear
[ .022. ] piercings you want: eyebrow!!
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: cross with snake on shoulder or bicep
[ .025. ] today's date: july 22
[ .026. ] the time: 11:45 PM
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: yes! Im bored!! Ask me!!

S C H 0 0 L

[ .043. ] are you still in school: if summer doesn뭪 count then no
[ .044. ] did you drop out: No!! should I?
[ .045. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got: 3.4!! slacking pays off!!
[ .046. ] favorite grade: preschool biatch NAP TIME!
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: freshman
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: I dunt like teachers
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: all of them
[ .050. ] favorite subject: school sucks?BR>[ .051. ] least favorite subject: 꿵nce again it sucks I said!!
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: bring
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: used ta play basketball
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular ativities: hahhaha?no
[ .055. ] are/was you popular: we뭨e gunna go with no
[ .056. ] favorite memory: that one time with that one person?ya kno the one
[ .057. ] least favorite memory: the other time with that same person?BR>[ .058. ] most humiliating moment: being 7 being kissed by a waitress on the cheek and fallin outta my chair

F A V 0 R i T E S
[ .061. ] number: 69!! And 47 (lifes answer baby)
[ .062. ] clothing brand: I wear clothes?? Oh u mean the things on my floor!!
[ .063. ] shoes: Soaps or addidas
[ .064. ] saying: soooo many, SHUT UP AND SAY THAT AGAIN!!
[ .065. ] tv show: boiling points, I Love the 90뭩, Family Guy, Futurama
[ .066. ] sport: basketball
[ .067. ] vegetable: potatoes? lol
[ .068. ] fruit: RED
[ .069. ] movie: iono half baked, or pulp fiction
[ .070. ] magazine: iono
[ .071. ] actor: funny one
[ .072. ] actress: HOT! HOT!!
[ .073. ] candy: chocolate
[ .074. ] gum: Orbit
[ .075. ] scent: Perri Ellis
[ .076. ] candy bar: the one with the crackly candy in it lol
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: chocolate
[ .078. ] color: RED!
[ .079. ] season: summer in the winter, winter in the summer
[ .080. ] holiday: my birthingday
[ .081. ] band: hoobastank
[ .082. ] Solo Singer: uhhh iono
[ .083. ] group: hoobastank
[ .084. ] rapper: snoop dog, jin tha mc
[..085. ] type of music: euro, trance, alternative, rap
[ .086. ] thing in your room: bed?very useful
[ .087. ] place to be: with that speshul sum1
[ .089. ] tv channel: mtv
[ .090. ] junk food: stuff
[ .091. ] overall food: yehh
[ .092. ] store: Hollister, hot girls in there
[ .093. ] shoe brand: Soap or Addidas
[ .094. ] fast food: wendys or tacobellz
[ .095. ] restaurant: that one
[ .096. ] shape: Square!
[ .097. ] time of day: the time with that speshul sum1
[ .098. ] country: USA
[ .099. ] state: theres countries? WHERE!! ATTACK!!
[ .100. ] boys name: Josh?im conceited
[ .101. ] girls name: sumthin secksi and exotic like Naomi
[ .102. ] mall: IM SICK OF MALLS
[ .103. ] video game: iono nemore
[ .104. ] shampoo: Generic (yes it뭩 a real brand)
[ .105. ] board game: clue
[ .106. ] computer game: COUNTER STRIKE
[ .107. ] car: sooped up civic?mmm civic
[ .108. ] music video: OMG uhhh too many with hot girls, so iono
[ .109. ] swear word: FUCKIN-BITCH-ASS-PUSSY
[ .110. ] word: awesome
[ .111. ] month: April
[ .112. ] cartoon character: Stewie
[ .113. ] scary movie: iono
[ .114. ] team: Cubs rule
[ .115. ] possession: bed

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOO THINK OF WHEN IT SAYS ....

[ .116. ] eminem: uhhh not now?god
[ .117. ] dog: Chelsea clinton
[ .118. ] hot: **That special sum1
[ .119. ] britney spears: slut bag
[ .120. ] nsync: any one say john kim?
[ .121. ] real world: boring after like 5^th season
[ .122. ] orange: no no no RED
[ .123. ] choice: HER!
[ .124. ] fuck: HER!
[ .125. ] bisexual: if it뭩 a girl, AWESOME

[ .126. ] black: nigger
[ .127. ] ice: cold, like your heart
[ .128. ] linkin park: awesome
[ .129. ] jack: -ie chan
[ .130. ] rainbow: skittlez
[ .131. ] cucumber: hahahahaha
[ .132. ] shark: awesome
[ .133. ] lifehouse: good band
[ .134. ] bat: man
[ .135. ] leather: dominatrixes
[ .136. ] whip: cream
[ .137. ] america: blows

T H i S - 0R - T H A T ?
[ .142. ] rock or rap: rap
[ .143. ] rock or pop: rock

[ .144. ] rock or r&b: rock
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: rap
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: rap
[ .148. ] rap or metal: rap
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop
[ .150. ] pop or metal: metal
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: metal
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: limp bizkit
[ .153. ] tool or korn: both
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: j-lo
[ .155. ] hot or cold: hot sex
[ .156. ] winter or summer: depends when it is, rie now winter
[ .157. ] spring or fall: spring
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: shakira
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: eminem
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: rob zombie
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: kittie?!? Kittie
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: mtv
[.163. ] buffy or angel: buffy
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: neither
[ .165. ] football or basketball: basketball
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: both
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[ .168. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: skateboarding
[ .169. ] black or white: white
[ .170. ] orange or red: RED!!!
[ .171. ] yellow or green: yellow
[ .172. ] purple or pink: purple biatch
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: mudvayne
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: pacsun
[ .175. ] inside or outside: outside
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: BOTH!!
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: pen
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: charlies angels
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: dino
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon:  dbz
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: star wars
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: piercing
[ .184. ] prep or punk: prep
[ .185. ] slut or whore: slut

P R i V A T E L i F E
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: no but I want that speshul sum1 I have my eyes on
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: yeh?BR>[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: I love my friends lol
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: yes
[ .190. ] how many people have you kissed: a bunch
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss:  dun remember
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: none
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: a few
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: perfect
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: hot, tall, awesome
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: on my comp I think
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: no thnx
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: yes
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: no thnx
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: both
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: I think so
[ .202. ] are you still friends: iono
[ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: yes
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: yes
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: no
[ .206. ] how about a little x: wanna
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: no
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: beer yes
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: no
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: not really
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: liquor
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: newport
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: mayb
[ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: mayb

W 0 U L D Y 0 U EVER...
[ .215. ] bungee jump: I WANT TOO
[ .216. ] sky dive: YES
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: prolly
[ .218. ] scuba dive: yes
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: you kno it
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000:lool no thnx
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: uhh NO RETARD
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: no way, that뭩 cold
[ .223. ] cross-dress: no
[ .224. ] lie to the police: u mean I haven뭪 allready
[ .225. ] run from the police: dun that too
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: all the time
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: yes I would
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: prolly
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: yesm
Y 0 U R F R i E N D S
[ .230. ] best friend: a lot of people, rolyan vee rada Jason tom henry and pat sum of closest
[ .231. ] known longest: rolyan
[ .232. ] wish you talked to more: that 1
[ .233. ] wish you saw more: that 1
[ .234. ] how many friends do you think you have: 1 too many lol
[ .235. ] who drives you insane after a while: Jason! lol
[ .236. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: iono
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': HAHAH YES!
[ .239. ] craziest: we뭨e all crazy
[ .240. ] loudest: tom awesome
[ .241. ] shyest: roz
[ .242. ] best hair: tom-me? U decide
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: lotz o people
[ .244. ] best eyes: uhh iono prolly a girl
[ .245. ] best body: yeh u kno who u are,,, so secksi lol
[ .246. ] most athletic: yehhh prolly rada
[ .247. ] sex symbol: me n henry lol
[ .248. ] hot tempered: lil Eugene n brian m Kevin lol
[ .249. ] most impatient: lil Eugene and brian n kevin
[ .250. ] shortest: lil eugene
[ .251. ] tallest: me er henry, not sure
[ .252. ] talented: hahah iono
[ .253. ] best singer: Harold lol
[ .254. ] skinniest: Kamilia!
[ .255. ] nicest: a few
[ .256. ] best personality: lots cuz different personalities
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: WILSON then me then rolyan

HAVE Y0U EVER:
[ .258. ] flashed someone: mayb?
[ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: yesm
[ .260. ] been to michigan: yes
[ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: oooo yea
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: almost lol
[ .263. ] skateboarded: yep
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: once
[ .265. ] stolen anything: ooo yea everything I have is lol
[ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: right about?now yes
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: only like 2
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: hahha yeh?good times
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: yep
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: club, not bar

[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: NO
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: yep
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: 1ce
[ .275. ] been to a concert: nope
[ .276. ] been to another country: nope
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: hahha yeh alot
[ .278. ] got pulled over: not while drivin but a lot in shotgun lol
[ .279. ] got in a car accident: like 5
[ .280. ] broke a law: yessss alot
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: tried, then she yelled at me
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: 1ce lets not talk about those days
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: when I was younger yeh
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: uhh not that I kno of
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: yes
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways?: haha yeh

OPiNiONS
[ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: its ok
[ .288. ] about boy bands: BAD GAY GUYS
[ .289. ] about flag burning: ok lets go
[ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: stupid bush?no war was needed retard
[ .291. ] about suicide: uhhh yeh
[ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: idiots
[ .293. ] about abortion: depends on the situation
[ .294. ] about rock/metal music: if its on its ok
[ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: hopefully not here
[ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: alot of people

W H A T D i D Y O U D O
[ .297. ] last birthday: uhh hung out with the usual group
[ .298. ] yesterday: went to a lot of places
[ .299. ] last weekend: went sumwhere, I dun remember
[ .300. ] christmas: who knows
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: still don뭪 vremember
[ .302. ] new year's: had everyone over
[ .303. ] halloween: started using weed lol
[ .305. ] valentine's day: went to girls choice with kamilia, had an awesome time

T H E L A S T...
[ .306. ] thing you ate: bagel
[ .307. ] thing you drank: BAWLS
[ .308. ] thing you wore: same thing I am now
[ .309. ] place you went: pats
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: ear
[ .311. ] person you saw: bro
[ .312. ] person you kissed: I un remember
[ .313. ] person you fucked: hmm
[ .314. ] person you talked to: bro
[ .315. ] song you heard: Sway - Markski

. : N O W : .
[ .316. ] what are you eating: nothing
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: just finished my BAWLS
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: clothing
[ .319. ] any shoes on: noooo
[ .320. ] hair: down
[ .321. ] listening to: Markski- Surrender
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: nope
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: kinda

YES OR NO
[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: hellz no
[ .325. ] do you like cows: YES MOOOO TO U TOO BUDDY
[ .326. ] are you a bitch: sumtimes?ok yes I am
[ .327. ] are you artistic: nooo
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: used too, not too much now
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: no
[ .330. ] can you ski: never tried
[ .331. ] are you british: nope
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: yes please
[ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: All the time
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: no but should I?

[ .335. ] would you eat mac &cheese with hot dogs in it: nooo
[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland: yehhh theyre awesome
[ .337. ] are you straight: u kno it, like a rainbow lol ?wait that뭩 john
[ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and mentally handicapped: stupid and insane no, but mentally retarded no
[ .339. ] are you fat: iono
[ .340. ] are you skinny: no
[ .341. ] are you short: no
[ .342. ] are you tall: yes
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: no but should I?
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: noo but shirt yes
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: yeh but the last one was like yesterday
[ .346. ] are you evil: yes, yes I am
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: hahha no
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: yeya
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: not that I kno of?BR>[ .350. ] am i annoying you: YES U ARE BITCH
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: used too
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: I could be
[ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: many many times
[ .354. ] do you shop at hot topic: no?BR>
R A N D O M
[ .355. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: snake or bird
[ .356. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would you eat: iono
[ .357. ] do you remember any of your dreams: not unless theyre about that speshul sum1
[ .358. ] do you dream in color or black and white: color
[ .359. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: sumtimes
[ .360. ] can people read you like a book: sumtimes
[ .361. ] what's your biggest fear: gay people
[ .362. ] do you talk a lot: sumtimes
[ .363. ] are you afraid of clowns: no theyre awsome
[ .364. ] do you like spiders: haha depends
[ .365. ] how about grape kool-aid: no
[ .366. ] can you drive: not legaly but yes I can
[ .367. ] are you spoiled: more like deprived
[ .368. ] are you anti-social: not at all im very social
[ .369. ] do you see dumb people: ohh yeh
[ .370. ] do you see dead people: mayb.
[ .371. ] any last words: wow can u tell I was bored???
[ .372. ] now that this is over, what are you going to do: I have no clue, im bored, sum1 read this and leave me comments so I can read em and then reply and be like weeeeeeeeeeee

::Tuesday - today cuz i am not sleeping yet lol::

UUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHH today was cool, im bored off my ass right now, its 5:41 and fer some reason im still up!!! uhh yeh so i woke up at 3:30 today lol then stayed home and ate dinner... Pat came wit Brian to pick me up and then we went to Rolyan's, but he wasnt ready yet so we tried to meet up with Rada Tom John and Lil Eugene at John's but they had just left for Rolyan's, so we got to John's then found that out and then went back to Rolyan's uhh we chilled der in the parking lot for a while and then Rolyan came out...  uhh they wanted to eat so we all went to omega and I just got coffee... uhh yeh service sucked arse lol so after that we went to the gas station and then to blockbuster and rented Euro Trip (funny ass movie, too much penis tho...) so we went to Pat's and watched it... Brian left half way through... then after that we all got in the cars Lil Eugene Tom and John went home, and Me Rada Rolyan and Pat came to my house... they chilled here till like 12:15 then left... uhh so overall it was a pretty awesome day...

::Qoutes-of-the-Day::

"Oh god Pat, dont suck that... yeh just lick that off... don't let it drip... hey you've got sumthin right there"

"dayam Rada's got her technique down and everything, sucks and twistin at the same time..."

Everyone- "eeewwww that guys sooo gay" ::few seconds pass:: Tom-"::cough:: John!!! ::cough::"

then many random comments about Rada suckin on stuff and being amazed at video games lol

::4th-O-July::

4th was fucking awesome...  Went to carnival with Henry, Rolyan, Pat, John, Tom, Lil E, Eugie, Brian, Justin, Wilson, and Jason... we chilled then Me and Tom went walkin around and on the way back I hear Kevin B. yellin my name so i walked over there which was cool cause he was with a bunch of old SJB friends... he was with Peter, John, Chuck and Melissa so yeh we sat around and caught up and then me and Tom went to catch up w/ the rest of the crew... we got there then geuss who comes up runnin my name JESSICA... damn I havent seen her in so long, so it was awesome... we sat and chilled and talked about shizzle... then me and her walked over to the carnival where we saw Amanda I. so i said hey and shizz... after we walked around we split up and I headed back to the crew... on the way there Blaze called my name so I went up to him and Mario and we talked about summer and crap... so yeh... Finally get back to the crew and right when I get there, geuss who comes running up callin my name Radizzle!! It was cool cause I had wanted to chill w/ her for so long and now we finally did!  so yeh she was with Shane, Marzy, Stefanie, and Amy so i told them to watch fireworks with us and they did... after that almost got stranded but I called up AJ and he was like come to MickyD's and ill take u wit me... so Me Pat and Eugie got in AJ's car and we drove to TacoBell... There we met up with Kami, Kara, Conrad, Gene, Rada, Shane, Stefanie, Marzy and Amy... we chilled... I actually had a decent conversation w/ Kami so that was cool since we barely ever talk nemore... and then AJ drove me home and Istayed up all night lol...

::5th-O-July::

 Went to Wisconsin w/ family to go fisahing, and then around 7 I came home and Kara picked me up... we drove around then met up at GM park with Henry, Rolyan, Pat, Lil E and Wilson...  Pat and Rolyan jumped in Kara's car then we went to watch the Glenview fireworks... that was cool the we dropped Rolyan off and Me Pat and Kara went and just chilled on my backporch... then Kara and Pat left and I went to sleep...

::6th-O-July::

Today was cool... Me Kami (YES ME AND KAMI FINALLY CHILLED AGAIN!!!!) Pat and Kara went to Wilmette beach to play w/ her dog but we couldn't get in so we went back by GM... Me and Pat went in to eat while Kami and Kara went to change and switch cars... Me and Pat met up with Brian, Lil E, John, Henry, and Rolyan then Kami and Kara came back... we chilled for a bit then Me Kami and Kara went to Giordano's for Pizza... that was fun, especially the conversations lol... so we drove to the beach in the rain, got out for like 5 mins and then got back in the car... we drove around for a while then we went to Togo's for icecream... after that we dropped Kami off and Me and Kara just went to Rugen park... we chilled and talked until about 10:30 then Kara dropped me off home...  got home went online and talked to Kara until like 3:00 then watched a movie and now im updating this shizzle...

well thats it for now, -Prop Me-   ~Latez~

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