Mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn i want a dog soooo bad right now!!!! I'm gonna get an American Eskimo puppy.  These fukkin dogs are sooo cute!!!! They remind me of puss in boots in Shrek 2 when he made that damn so cute face that makes u goo "awwww", hahaha.  So I set up for buying one and i was gonna pick it up on August 1st in L.A. but my plans were swindled by one of my arch-nemesis... MY parents!!!! ahhh!!! booo!!! lol j/k......First they told me i'd be 100% resonsible and i was prepared for that.... I already planned to feed it, groom it, take it to the vet, make it feel better when its sick, and of course clean up its little presents... aka dog shit.... I was gonna try and build it a little doggy house and it would sleep in my room, we'd go for long walks, we'd play in the park, it would play fetch.... all that good stuff.... Turns out our house is gonna be rennovated on because the floors and walls are bad inna couple rooms and they are dangerous even to live in ..... So we gotta take ppl to court in stuff cuz damages are over $25,000 and it was from the previous owner.... we are gonna probably end up in Navy Lodging for a few months too and that is really really gonna suck.... and u cant have pets in the navy lodge so that is why i cant get my puppy right now... its gonna be like moving all over again... except living outta suitcases which sux even more..... but once things are done and through with i can get my dog!! .  I went to court today for the hearing of my car too... It actually turned out good... they both have 3 years probation and have to pay a restitution to me of $2,280.  Man jess seeing those guys made me mad.... and their fukkin lawyers saying "please lower the sentence he is a good kid blah blah blah" lawyers are bullshit corrupt ppl... how can they be good kids when they are fukkin goin out jacking ppl's cars..... i fukkin hate the court house cuz its full of them lawyers... fake ass liars..... i jess wanted to jump across the room and beat the shit outta those 2 thieves tho..... my dad did too, lol...... But hopefully ill be gettin my money back in stuff.... Other than that things in general are kinda good... except i think i almost had heat stroke the other day.... i was sooo fatigued and dehydrated and felt like major shit...... Now though im jess chillin wakin up late.... doin nothin at all.... haha, gotta get college stuff together and all that i guess..... find a job too... i need to get one before i getta dog ya know.... well thtas bout it for now... gettin kinda tired of typing, so ill leave it at that.......  oh!!! i cant forget the pictures of the kinda dog im getting......

this is a pic of the exact puppy i was gonna pick up in L.A..... i wanted it too.....

these puppies are sooooo cute too.... i'd be such a damn pimp if i can get my hands on one of these , hahahahaha

these 3 are pics of it when its an adult.... still cute tho....

yup again got bored.... i guess this may kinda suit me...ok so i took sum quiz and my result was im content on my outlook on life..... the bastard quiz link isnt working for the image so i have to type this...."the world is not a perfect place and probably never will be, but if we all make the best of what we have, things will look much brighter: sunrays shine even through the darkest of storm clouds" http://quizilla.com/users/refuged/quizzes/What's%20Your%20Outlook%20on%20Life%3F/ ... damn quiz.....a quiz like this could never truly tell u what u are tho... especially those ones where u just type in ur name and it tells u what u are... thats jess bullshit.. hey it may be fun to do but no one should take it truly... im really not one of those super happy yay for joy kinda ppl.... but then again im also not the kill myself blah blah blah person... even tho at times it may seem like it thats only the anger getting to me..... ive been waiting for like 3 hours now... sum friends bailed on me i guess.... stupid losers.... haha... oh i hate my haricut with a passion too..... n e ways ive been thinking alot of our society and the roles ppl play... how they conform to sumthing they "think" they want to be to fit and and be apart of the socialization....What makes you think that human beings are sentient and aware......there is no evidence....human beings rarely think for themselves, solely.... because they are 2 uncomfortable with it....4 the most part members of our species simply repeat waht they are told.... and become upset if told otherwise.... the characteristic human trait is not awareness... but conformity...... while animals fight for territory and food.... human beings fight for beliefs.... its because beliefs guide behavior, an importance among humans... but at a time when our behavior may lead us to our extinction.......  i dont see the awareness......we are stubborn, self- destructive conformists..... i look at politics too... figure heads trying to guide us.... waging non violent wars between political parties spreading their propoganda "for a better tommorow".... people conform to these democratic parties or republican parties...... most ppl doin so because they are keeping family tradition.....  Now im not saying conformity is bad... its very well needed... but ppl need to stop basing there lives over this concept.... there is an old saying "if u plan on being original, plan on being copied".... yes its gonna happen... but leading a life that fulfills what u want and not what others want for u is the way to live.... I look back at myself and see all the times where i was following the crowd... i wasnt happy... i was trying to fit in..... ppl now say "that guy is crazee" or "what the hell does he think he is doin?" im being me..... and im being fuckin happy doin it..... criticizing seems to think they are better..... im just tryin to have fun actually doin what i want to do..... i see ppl... who are supposably "the popular ppl" most of them look like lifeless ppl who couldnt even make a decision to save their own life...... just be yourself.... at times we may not be... or try to find it..... i admit im still in the process of finding myself... but once ur on the path.... things start gettin better....