I sit in my room, day after day. 
Wondering how you could hurt me that way. 
I gave you all my love and you broke my heart in two, 
now I wonder...What did I do? 
I go to the closet looking for a gun, 
I can no longer live after what you have done. 
Memories run through my mind, 
the days were happier when you were kind. 
I gave you my love, my soul, and my heart 
and all you did was rip it apart. 
I sit on my bed, gun loaded and in hand, 
listening to music by our favorite band. 
A single tear runs from my eye...
it's over, it's time for me to die. 
I want to be with you more than anything, 
but being with you what would that bring? 
More sorrow? More pain? 
I was losing everything with nothing to gain. 
Sitting on my double bed, 
I raise the gun up to my head. 
Slowly I pulled the trigger back, 
that's when everything went black. 
It's over now, I am gone...
I hope you're happy, look what you've done. 
Love is full of nothing but sorrow and pain, 
I want you to realize you have nothing to gain

this is the way that i feel about life...life is a  gamble and its also a game if you dont play this game right then you get fucken HURT....so bad that the pain that you'd gain wont ever go away and shit...fuck right now i feel like shit and i dont know what the fuck to do i jus feel like dying and this pain that i have rite now wont fuckin go away and i wish that i never even go into this fuckin fucked up GAME........... i wish that i could jus end mai life and shit i dont think that it aint worth living for anymore... now i have to line with all this fuckin HURT and it like i want to cry deep down inside but nothings coming out.....i wish that mai miserable life would jus end i wouldnt care how it would end but i jus wish it would.....it hurts meeh to say that i've been played like a FOOL i should of seen it coming but i guess that when you say those 3 words "I LOVE YOU" and you believe that wen they said it yoiu really believe it and they say that they wont hurt you the way you were hurt before but guess wut it ends up being worst and shit i know that i writing this shit right now because i HURTING DEEP DOWN INSIDE AND I HAVE NO OTHER WAY OF LETTIGN MAI FEELINGS SHOW AND FUCK THIS SHIT I JUS WANNAH DIE.......SOME MAY KNOW WAT I STE TALKING ABOUT AND SOME MAY NOT HAVE WHUN CLUE WAT THE FUCK I'M SAYING........LIFE FUCKIN SUCKS AND BUT FUCK IT CUZ ITS GOING TO BEE OVAH SOON BEFORE YOU EVEN KNOW IT...........WELL I OUTTIES AND HOPE THAT I DIE SOMEDAY SOON AND IT WONT HURT NO WHUN ELSE ACCEPT MEEH...I THINK THAT I'M LOSING SOME OF MY BEST FRENS BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO THEM WEN I WAS THE WHUN WHO DID THE FUCKIN WRONG I WOULD LIKE TO SAY SORRY TO ANYWHUN WHO I'VE HURT IN ANY WAY...ITS JUS DAT I'VE HAVENT FOUND THE RITE WORDS TO SAY TO YOU RITE NOW..SO IM SO SORRY RITE NOW...I DIDNT MEAN TO HURT ANYWHUN SO I HOPE THAT YOU PEEPS CAN FORGIVE MEEH AND SHIT....I DONT DESERVE TO HAVE ANY REAL FRENS EVER.......MAYBE I WASNT EVEN SUPPOSE TO EVEN BEE HERE IN THIS WORLD .......... I WANNAH BREAK DOWN AND CRY MAI FUCKEN HEART OUT BUT I CANT.........MAYBE I SHOULDNT EVEN BEE ANYWHERE NEAR FRENS CUZ IM NOT EVEN SUPPOSE TO HAVE ANY, ANYWAYS......SO RRY BUT MAI TIME HERE ON THIS WORLD IS ALMOST UP............. SO BEFORE ITS UP ALL I WANTED TO SAY IS THAT " I LOVE EACH AND EVERYWHUN OF YOU GUYS SO FORGIVE MEEH FOR SAYIN ALL THIS FUCKIN FUCKED UP SHIT.............

P.S.

TAKE CARE AND REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU GUYS

*N.S.A.C*

                             LOVE ALWAYS

                                   ASHABUBU