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things change and we have to accept that. But sometimes I just look at
myself and genuinely don't like the person I have become. I look at
others and all I can see is what they have going for them, and I am
jealous. I never look at someone and see the problems in their lives, I
just look at mine and feel sorry for myself. When I was younger I
always pictured myself as the homecoming queen, the valedictorian, the
cheerleader, but now that I have grown up and not become this person I
feel as if I am somehow not good enough, that I have failed myself. The
sad thing is that I don't even want to be the homecoming queen or the
valedictorian or a cheerleader. I just want to be myself, and I really
don't know who I am. I thought I would be a better person than I am and
I am always making excuses for myself, and I have realized that if I
stop making excuses for myself than I will start to fess up and grow up
and become a better person.
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so long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
so long sweet slumber
I fell into you, now you're gracefully falling away
<3333333 Summer '05. |
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