"When someone you love dies, you don't lose them all at once. You lose them in pieces over time, like how the mail stops coming. What I remember most to this day was my mother's scent and how I hated it when it began to disappear. First from her closets, then from her dresses she had sewn herself and then finally from her bedsheets and pillow cases. Simon and I never talked much about that day on the baseball field. It was too painful for both of us..." - simon birch

the people who went through paulie's death, held a tight bond. we all knew what it was like losing someone so close to our hearts. its sad that in that time, i would have neevr guessed i would ever drift away from some of these people. but, i have and i guess that's life. i just thought, a friend was taken from me by death. i never wanted to lose a friend, on my accountability or theirs. 

you're slipping away slowly, and i've never been so happy to say goodbye

just got in from work. i'm off for the next 3 days, then working all next week. going to christines bday party tomorrow into sunday.  this past week was pretty chill. only like 3 days of school. started printing travis barker on silk screening. i now love andy warhol <3 . chose courses for next year. basic english, psych.soc., and math. then im taking a virtual course in pop music and then the duel credit course in communications. i think i decided on Temple. new york, isnt where i wanna be anymore. my boy sent me a flower for valentine's day : ) that made me happy...

lauREN's last day is tuesday. its gonna blow once she leaves. but she's excited, so im happy for her, i guess....gr. my chem is next sunday. that shall be a show to remember. mom got me april margera's cookbook for valentines day. she autographed it for me! we're gonna go pick it up at fairmans this weekend i hope. cant wait to make me some bam bars.

that's all for now. as for xanga, i'm not too dedicated anymore. i've converted to www.facebook.com  

merry christmas. i figured i'd update considering i'm only 5 minutes into the 4 hour process of downloading itunes...so much to say...

its just me and madre for christmas this year. no sister = no drama (hopefully). i got a cell phone. yay. i'll be 17 in 5 days. woot. 16 was fun...so much i have learned. hah. went to a show friday night. that was cool. found out that HEYHEY is playing in january. that's a must see. sean's band didnt do too well...one of their first shows, so ill give them their props. i visited gram on friday. made her a little christmas tree, and bought her a birthday balloon. yesterday me and mom drove down home to visit baby paul. we made him a little christmas swag. that was nice. then we went to the mall. i got a necklace for my birthday and then we went shopping. i'm going to fall out boy with kelli. i am sooo excited. then in february, me and ryan are going to mcr. i'm crossing my fingers that i get taste of chaos tour tickets before they sell out.

last but not least, went to georges yesterday. im going to put a down payment on a set this thursday at my lesson. then theyll look into a purple kit for me. no set plans for the week. just philly with kelli, and my bday on saturday.

Currently Listening The Black Parade By My Chemical Romance see related

i don't love you, like i did, yesterday...

Tomorrow is Halloween! I don’t think im going out this year... a lesson learned from last year. If I do decide to go out, I will probably be a fairy princess or a cat again. Im doing a health project now... I hate being a procrastinator. I don’t really update anymore. Im grounded from the computer, so im only on every now and then...plus no one ever reads xanga anymore. Quite sad. This past weekend I was in a haunted maze for SADD. Our theme was an evil hospital and me and kelli played psychopaths. Needless to say, we were amazing. Lol. The new mcr cd just came out! Holy crap it is so amazing. I think my favorite song so far is "cancer" and "I don’t love you". Its very different compared to three cheers. Panic! At the disco is in 19 days and counting!! Im going with heather. Katie is moving this weekend, im really gonna miss her. Hopefully she’ll hate it and come back home in December. I had to work tonight 6-10, but got off early. I saw a shooting star, only my 2^nd in my life. And naturally I wished on it. But no worries, it was a good one; one that will actually benefit me in the long run...unlike previous wasted hopes and dreams. Bleh...I just depressed myself, lol. Im going to join a yoga class with kelli at the gym. And maybe a cooking class, but we’re not sure yet. Ok, well thats about all im gonna say... leave me some love.