Tuesday.......might be hard!      

17..........forever means many things, my love

if there was only one thing about your life that you could change, what would it be and why? 

(trust me it's a hard one to think about) 

i wanna start dating again...but idk when that will be happening...

[A]ge?; 19
[B]est friends?; Nik, Richard, Karen, Chris...list goes on
[C]hoice of meat?; beef
[D]ream date?; Just goin out on a date....been forever since then
[E]xciting adventure?; idk...when i start living on my own
[F]avourite food?; mac n cheese
[G]reatest accomplishment?; getting this job
[H]appiest day of your life?; idk....probly saturday...for many reasons!
[I]nterests?; Friends, Family...boys...boys....boys...
[J]ell-O?; sugar free peach!
[K]ool aid?; too sweet!
[L]ove?; I remember what that was like...
[M]ost valued trinket?; idk...i don't have anything worth much
[N]ame?; DEB
[O]utfit you wore today?; black pants and pink shirt
[P]iercings?; one piercing in each ear
[Q]uestion most asked?; why did u n him break up...?
[R]adio station?; 94.1, 104.3 or 106.5
[S]port?; idk
[T]elevision show?; Extreme Makeover, house edition
[U]r favourite song?; idk
[W]here do you live?; in a house!
[X]ebra or leoperd print?; idk
[Y]ear born?; 1985
[Z]odiac sign?; Leo

I did it!!!

the end...

Currently Playing Josh Gracin By Josh Gracin Brass Bed see related

Wow Josh Gracin is pretty cute  (and young)  hahahahaha

So work was really really fun yesterday.  I feel like i basically got paid to do nothing....literally b/c all i did was stand around not really learning very much....but after the lobby closed i got to help w/ the drive through.  It was fun.  but i can tell that this job is going to be fun and worth it.  The people i work with are freakin awesome!  they are all so nice...except one chick but she's quiting anyway... or transfering or somethin...so i don't have anything to worry about...There's a girl that works the drive through...her name is Dana....she was like, "hi Dayna with a 'Y'"  they are all so stinking friendly...  it's fun too b/c it's right by my grandma's house and when i get off at 715, i can just go over there for a bit...it's really nice!

Lastnight when i got out to my car, there was a note under my windshield.  So i got the note and got in my car and read it.  Started my car, and our song came on.  And all i could do was cry.  But right now with starting this new job and learning everything with it, i don't want a "b/f"...i just wanna date around, keep my options open...not be completely serious with anyone...i don't wanna make a decision right now...Chris and I are doing somethin friday after i get outta class since he has to work till midnight on friday and goes in before i get outta work..So i'm excited about that!  Now i know he's not just ignoring me when i call and he doesn't answer...we talked about that lastnight...before i went to work i was talkin to him online and i asked, "do you think i'll do ok today?"  and his response was "no"  so i was about to be like, "jerk..." or something like that...and he then said... "i know you'll do fine"  that ment a lot...cuz it just did. 

I'm really tired this morning for some reason.  i went to bed fairly early lastnight...like 11...haha...then i woke up at like 15 till 8...oh well...well i better get ready for class...i shall return eventually...

**likin him lots**

I have my good days...the ones that i'm happy and go lucky.....
and then i have my bad days....the ones where i'm cryin...and i can't do anything about it...like today...

I cried lastnight, because i heard our song on the radio...and all i could do was cry...i couldn't get up and change the station because i didn't want to...all i wanted to go was sit on my bed and cry...i know today's gonna be a bad day...i can feel it already...b/c all i can do no matter what is goin on around me, is cry. 

how am i to even know that things will work out w/ the other person? 

sometimes i just want to walk out to my car and there be a note on there jsut sayin anything...last time that happend was like a year ago...after i walked outta school i went to my car and there was a note on there from him...and i haven't gotten one since...from anyone...

this is the lyrics to the song thats on my xanga

Brass Bed
Josh Gracin
(Josh Gracin)

Baby, the clock on the wall is lying
It's not really that late
It's too cold outside to be walking around
the streets of this town
Anywhere if you think you have to be can wait

[chorus]
(Baby) Why don't you stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah

Baby, there's just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out

[chorus]
(Baby) So why dont you stay with me share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe
the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
We'll be alright as long as you stay with me

[Bridge]
Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket

[Repeat chorus]

Stay with me

this is the song that is playin on my background...i really like it...it's off the self titled album....