I really seem to have a problem at nighttime and its starting to piss me off.  Its like theres something psychological that makes me want to eat whenever i come home from somewhere.... especially if im alone in the house and everyones sleeping. It sucks.  Because I will do goood ALLL day and then night falls and i eat and ruin the whole days work.  I need to change this pattern... I think if i start to not do that anymore it can become a habit or somethingg.

EH.

I didn't weigh myself yet today, i'm kinda scared.  I just started to get back on track once again. My life is a constant falling off the wagon and getting back on sort of thing and its really beginning to piss me off. 

At my highest which wasnt that long ago when i was doing SOOO bad and not weighing myself i finally did one day and said this is enough... i was all the way up to 122. For me thats high. Yesterday I weighed in at 115.8 but i feel more like a 116.5 right now. haaa. We'll see. I have work all day/night so if i can do goood there and go to sleep without eating right before that will be awesome. I can't wait to see under 115 again. Its been too long. 

Thennn 110. Then 105.. but lets not get ahead of ourself.  I remember last summer 115 was a high for me...when i would get there i would be like whoaaa okay you need to cut down on the intake girl.  Now its almost an achievement haha. 

I just want skinny legs so bad.. i always see these girls with tiny little legs and they look so cute.. mine are all big, bulky, and disgusting. Meh.

Well I think im gonna start writing here again...it doesnt seem like I really have any subscribers anymore since its been so long but it had helped me in the past so illl try it again. 

I hope everyone has a great day!