It's easy to say that we trust in God through all the circumstances in our lives. For myself, I often find myself wanting to hope in God, but in reality, I'm still trusting that circumstances change, or that an emotion subsides. It's very humbling to think about what it means to trust in God. In one sense, there is certainty because we know the One we trust in is never changing. We know his character of love, and His desire to see us transformed more and more to be like Him.

On the other hand, there is often times uncertainty - uncertainty that is purposefully there from God. And to seek certainty in those situations is pagan - to quote Pastor Craig's sermon yesterday on Isaiah. Here is the reference: 

"Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let him who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the Lord and rely on his God.

But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze. This is what you shall receive from my hand: You will lie down in torment" Isaiah 50:10-11

Although there is nothing wrong to pray and ask God for clarity, wisdom, etc, I need to remember that God desires the relationship with us that will result in trusting in Him. My desire is to know Him. From earlier in the chapter, God assures us that His word for us will sustain the weary - His word is not something that will burden or wear us down. There are times He will give a clear word or direction. But to seek that only should not be our response as we walk through life.

It was an encouragement for me to continue being in His word. I heard on the radio David Jeremiah saying something to the effect that if we really are soldiers for Christ, we would be on a suicide mission if we didn't read our bibles and let His word take root in our lives.

So, why am I writing after this possibly longest hiatus that I've had from xanga? I'm not sure..

Life these days with the kids is so much fun. Mei-mei is at a really fun stage, although the fact that her favorite word is "No!" may signal the terrible twos is not far off. And Derek has grown so much this year. He continues to be fascinated with numbers.

I've been really challenged lately to think about Psalm 127: 3-5, (children being a blessing from God). It is very easy to thank God for my kids and recognize them as blessings! But someone made the comment that made me think. "Psalm 127 is the least believed passage among Christians". I guess a question to myself would be.."If God desires to bless me with children, are my hands fully open to that blessing?"

 

It's been a while since I last posted. We're into August already! That means a b-day has passed, and that's why I'm watching this movie, courtesy of my sister! (I must have seen this some point when I was younger on those Saturday afternoon kung fu movies but can't remember much of it). This is the recently re-released version.

Other than that, I've been doing fairly well. I'm back to work (quarter-time only) and looking forward to some home renovation/upgrades that we're planning. It'll be busy, but changing out our old carpeting will probably help all of our allergies!

I'm also really enjoying all the wisdom and grace that God continually shows me through His word. He is so faithful!! We're going through some changes in our church currently - good ones, but somewhat challenging for me in certain aspects. I need to remind myself not to dwell on griping and complaining, which is why abiding in Him is so key!

Signing off for now..a crying baby is telling me that it's time for her to sleep!