so lifes is still very chaotic... i dont even know what to do with myself cept for break down and cry sometimes. at least i got my girl tasha and my man keith. i dont know what i would do without those 2!

For any one of us our forever
could end in an hour,
or a hundred years from now.
You can never know for sure,
so you better make every second count.

still cant believe that my big daddy is leaving. only 16 days til he goes. he bought the train ticket yesterday... tasha and i both agreed we wish he would have forgot. even just sitting here typing this makes me cry. it just isnt fair! i'm so used to having him only a drive away... not thousands of miles away. i mean yeah i can call whenever i need somebody but it just isnt the same as actually being able to cry on that person's shoulder. but it is like you said big daddy... i may not be with you physically but you will always be in my heart. i'm just glad and lucky to have you in my life and it sux that i wont be able to see you when times are rough... cuz we all know life has been a bitch lately. you're an amazing friend and i hope to always have you as one.

when it starts to rain on your parade ..
break out the SLIP and SLIDE !!

on a happier note... thiings with keith are good. i care bout him wayyy too much already though. it scares me. me and megan cooked him and tyler super on friday night it was pretty fun! we had a grape fight. lol. those things bounce pretty far on somebody's head lol. i also got picked up held upside down and bit in the ass! that fucking hurts! i was ok with everything til keith bit my ass. yesterday did community service and then chilled with keith and then chilled with keith and tasha. and then just tasha and the crew and then just tasha! lol. that is confusing. i got to see takka yesterday... that made my night! i fuckin missed that kid. then today was spent with keith. we watched the super bowl and green mile... and i took a couple naps without even knowing i was sleepin! lol.

Life`s all about ass..
Everyone is either covering it,
laughing it off,
kicking it,
kissing it,
trying to get a piece of it,
or simply just being one.

so life is slowing gettin somewhat better. i spend my time mostly with keith and/or tasha if you haven't noticed. lol. they are my world and i would die without them at this point in time! lol. o gosh life is crazy. at least the hw is slowing down a little bit. but that is basically about it for now... besides things i can't say. o yeah and my myspace is being gay! ugh!

 Your life is a book..
don`t jump to the end to see if it`s worth it.
just enjoy life.
and make those pages filled with beautiful memories

<3 Megan

hey. idk what the point of writing on her is... nobody looks at this, and even when they do they dont comment. but it is 5am and im bored so yeah.

Missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you
have seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. 
It's about that very moment when you're doing something and

you wish that they were right there with you.

life has been really rough lately. everything just seems to be happening all at once and idk how much more i can take. at least i have my girls, especially tasha, and my boys especially keith and david. i dont want to even believe half the shit thats happening. i mostly just can believe that he is going. i dont wanna believe it at all, its not fucking fair! im losing one of my bestfriends and i fucking hate it. its not gonna be the same not being able to drive over when i need somebody to talk to. you have always been there for me since the day i met you and idk where i would be without you. fuckn sunday/monday... i will never forget that night... well the parts i can remember at least.

met you as a stranger
took you as a friend
i hope we meet in heaven where friendship never ends

i am however lucky to have you in my life for the time being and to have amazing ppl like tasha, keith and david in my life. idk where i would be without you guys. tasha o gosh girl... i would deff be in a mental instuition or 6 ft under without you. and keith thank you so much for holding me when i was crying and singing to me... it was so perfect. i wanted that moment to last forever. david... man you always know how to make me laugh when i'm crying. just keep swimming just keep swimming! lol. you guys make my life crazy and amazing and im so fortunate to have you in it.

i'm never gonna let you go,
I swear it.

so yeah my car is broke so i've been driving my mom's ride. i get it fixed on wednesday. it will be nice cuz then i can drive as much as i want without getting bitched at for driving around too much. which is good cuz my family drives me insane half the time. i love them to death dont get me wrong... but sometimes they just need to learn to let me be. i cant take ppl in my face buggin me all the time. its like the second i get home i getta play 21 questions. i hate it.

Everybody has wild side
we jus choose to make ours
P U B L I C !

so basically some parts of life are amazing... some parts bite the big one. im just so emotionally exhausted... i have cried way to much in the last couple wks... especially the past 2 or 3 days. im just glad i have ppl in my life who care enough to give me a shoulder to cry on. they keep me alive and happy.

i've held it all together
but a night like this is
begging to pull me apart

<3 Megan

hey you guys... life is soooo amazing right now i cant believe it! i am sooo happy... you dont even know.

& I pinky promise
when we're old
we're gonna be best friends
chasing each other in nursing
homes with our motor scooters

so yeah i am happy like i said. in a way that scares me though cuz bad things usually happen once you get happy... but im not as scared as i used to be. i just feel so lucky... i have the best people in my life. the one bad thing is dumb ppl who like to talk shit. ive learned to tune it out. im the kind of person who gets to know somebody before i judge them, so yeah thats my story and im sticking to it! sometimes this shit is right soemtimes its not its whatever.

I can't promise that I can
solve all your problems
but I can promise that you
won't have to go through them alone

so lately ive mostly been chilling with keith, davido, amanda, and tasha. i love them all to death. they make me happy... well cept for when everybody is in a bad mood cuz of ppl talking shit. ppl need to just let every1 be! ugh. but other than that i wouldnt trade things right now for anything. its good to be happy again... i havent been this happy since this summer. FRIENDS ARE AMAZING! i honestly would die without my friends, they always know how to make me feel better when im down or pissed. like tasha.... breathe megan breathe! lol. gosh i love you you are my lover!

no one takes a picutre of
something they want to forget <3

so i hope every1 had a merry Christmas and has a happy new year. i spent x-mas with my family... it was ok i guess a little boring. i hate being around adults its boring. didnt really get anything too exciting. i getta go on a shopping spree from my mom though... should be sweet... i need new clothes and shoes so bad. not exactly sure what the plans are for new years... know im kicking it with tasha once she gets off work. most likely just party it up a lil bit with who and where is uknown! lol.

can you see it in my eyes,
that i need you?

but yeah life is good. friends both guys and girls are amazing. finally getting life somewhat straight. havent been confused in a while... well really confused at least. yeah but im bored so i figured i would update... not that ppl even care bout xanga anymore but i like expressing my feelings... especially when the feelings are happiness!

TWENTY YEARS from now i`m gonna look back
and remember that youu were that one person who could
turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. that
person who lifted my head when I was losing faith in my-
self. that one person who cariied tears on her shoulders
after every fight, every break-up, every death. that one
person who always knew what I was feeling by the look
on my face. that one person who accepted who I was when
everyone else laughed at my face. that one person who
accepted every decision I made believing that i`d make the
right decisions. that one person who knew who I really was.
that one person that made the biggest difference in my life
( MY ' BEST ' FRiEND )

<33 Megan aka tashas lover!

hello there ever1.... i dont know the point of writing on here but im bored and i feel like writing. where to start off....

When the world wants too much
And it feels cold and out of touch
It's a beautiful place
When you kiss my face

friends are amazing i would die with out them. dom and are good again! couldnt be happier. i missed my caramel! been chilling with amanda a lot lately... shes pretty sweet. we like to be pimps when we chill lol. we SHOW STOPPIN! lol. last night we laughed so hard about nothing pretty much... it was great. my abs killed when we left matts house. woulda helped if the boys wouldnt have tickled us... were probably the most ticklish ppl of all time! i love it though and i love her. SQUIRREL! lol. omg i laugh soooo fuckn hard everytime i hear that. im gonna laugh if a teacher ever says that in class. so matt and i are on good terms now... im super happy. hes taking me out on saturday to the pursuit of happyness and something else thats a suprise! im excited. thank you!

so here's to teenage romance & never
knowing why it hurts like hell.

so mostly just been kicking it with amanda, david, and keith. those boys are pretty sweet. gotta love em... dont know why but you do. hung out with matt on monday and saturday... got our beverage stolen on saturday! i was pissed... i wanna to kick the dumb bitches that stole it asses! monday we went to a movie and i feel asleep and i guess i kicked matt... i didnt even know i was sleeping! lol... he asked me if i was sleeping and im like no... looked at my phone to see the time and it had been like 20 mins since i was sleeping i was like woopsies! i was sleep drunk! omg amanda we have too much fun lol.

When everything goes wrong
and nobody seems to care
just remember I will always be here.
Best friends for life.

so life is good. im having fun with my friends... living life to the fullest! honestly life is too fuckn short live it up drink it down! lol. well at least the first part. thats what ive been doing lately. just chilling with my friends and having fun. lifes too short to care. im finally good with everybody again and i love it. im the happiest ive been in a while it feels good. it took a while to get happy but i finally am. i just hope i stay happy for a while. i dont like being sad.

Never give up on somebody
you can't go a day
without thinking about

although im happy i still have somethings i need to figure out. but you know cant be perfect... well at least all the time lol. although if your lucky like me you can get close jk jk jk jk... im nowhere near perfect. i like not being perfect though. its who i am. i could never be somebody who tries to be perfect not my style.

Sometimes, things have to fall apart
in order for you to realize how much
you need them to fall back together

so this wkend is going to be a complete blast.... chilling at megans for her bday party on friday... not sure if im staying over night yet or not but either way fun time! saturday im chilling with matt for a night of entertainment as he said. and sunday im not sure. ooo and hanging out with tasha probalby somewhere in there hopefully! gotta love my tashie. so lifes good i love my girls and my boys especially my gordita cruch! lol. no beaf with anybody that matters at least.

I really miss your hair in my face
and the way your innocence tastes.
and I think you should know this
you deserve much better than me

peacing out!
<33 Megan

   dance dance!

p.s. where did winter go to?

hmmm life... its interesting. i have mixed feelings toward life these days i love it, it confuses me, it sux at times, and for the most part its crazy and i love it. lol.

You said it yourself :
No one understands you like I do.

school is going a lot better this quarter than last quarter. i like psych a lot its a really fun class... better than history in my opinion. web design... not my favorite but its not as boring as it was at first. needless to say i dont really know what im doing in that class part of the time... but i still have an A so its all good.

sometimes you don't realize you
care for someone until they stop
caring for you

so i havent really been partying so much lately. but i dont really care. just more so been chillin with my friends and doing whatever. ive decided that theres nothing to do in this town. i wish we had something like islands here cuz it sux being under the age of 18 and not being able to go to any clubs or ne thing. this is what i get for hanging out with older people lol. but i love my friends and they mean the world to me.

as long as i feel something, it's not over
and believe me, i wish it was
but it's not, i can feel it

so im sick of people talking shit. i mean do you honestly have nothing better to do with your with your time. this isnt directed at anyone in particular cuz i dont know whoes talking shit but its getting old. but honestly it doesnt really make me that mad anymore. in fact most of the time lately its been making me laugh... do you have nothing better to do with your time honestly?

Do You Ever Get The Feeling Where You Don't Wanna Talk To Anyone
And You Don't Wanna Smile
And Don't Wanna Fake Being Happy
But All At The Same Time You Really Don't Know
What's Exactly Wrong Either??

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE! omg i ate wayyy too much today. which i am thankful for lol. my grandma is such an amazing cook omg... but she always tends to make way too much food lol. so anyways thank you to all the people who are there for me. i love you guys and would die without you. so thanks... and thanks to my family too... you guys do drive me insane sometimes but i love you with my everything! and im thankful for the drive to my grandmas for the time it game me to think.

i AM WHO i AM
your approval isn't needed

well im outty.
<3 Megan