well...u see um....i kind of.....

just um...

goodbye xanga.

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Currently Listening Dark Side of the Moon By Pink Floyd see related

I hate going to physics class. Not because i suck at it, not because i think its boring, but because it makes me feel uneasy. I go in there everyday, and gain more understanding of the world around me. It should make me feel comfortable with the world right? Well it doesn't. My mind cannot help but think that I am that ball being launched at a projectile range. That my life is a complex series of calculations, effected by outside forces. Meaning i have no way of changing my life or what is happening in it. If that was true, it means that i dont make any choices. Choices are just chemicals in my brain telling me what to do. If that is true, then Christianity and many other religions can be thrown right out the window.

I scare myself sometimes until i dont know what to think anymore.

Im scared to see the world through the mind of a scientist. There is a certain beauty in not understanding. When it rains, i want to appreciate it and watch the beauty of it. I want to be able to look at the stars and wonder. But through the eyes of a scientist there is no wonder or beauty in it. The clouds are pouring rain on us, and the stars are just balls of gas. Thats all.

Ignorance is bliss.

Currently Watching Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind (Widescreen Edition) By Jim Carrey, Kate Winslet, Tom Wilkinson see related

"I can't see anything i don't like about you."

"But you will. You'll think of things and then ill get bored and feel trapped"

"...thats ok."

and by the way vanessa, if i "drive like a granny," then why are you FREAKED out everytime I'm driving you somehwere.

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang

to all you orchesis (sp?) people, i really liked the show.

i dont care what any of you say....i really wanna watch some dragonballz.

goku, worlds greatest warrior

Vegeta about to kick some asssss

Gohan, possibly my favorite character....before he gets lame.

and of course we cant forget the bad guys.

freeza saga kicks all asss.

if you're a male and didn't watch dragon ball z as a child, you sorely missed out.

and i heard somethin about an Iron and Wine concert?....anyone let me know about that.

Currently Listening Our Endless Numbered Days By Iron & Wine see related

there really is nothing like an insane drive to calm the nerves...

*edit*

amazing

Currently Listening Pisces Iscariot By Smashing Pumpkins see related

thas' right yaaallll. Bill Cosby is BACK.

well its been a month since i last updated, so WHAT the heck.

not much has really changed tho...

well ive been working and wrestling so far this summer. wrestling for once is actually going good.  I know ive already told most of u this,  but at work im teaching little kids how to swim, and surprisingly....

its FUN.

which is really good because ive never dealt with kids before. and not only do the kids like me, but their parents are giving me HUGE props.

so yea trips to the beach, bonfires, the usual summer stuff. i cant complain.

*sigh* but 3/4 of my best friends are gone at camp....and ive been too lazy to actually send them the letters i have written. man i wish i was there sometimes.

ive even started reading this book again...

 trust me, im not as obsessed as Dylan.

i really want to go to great america:

 does anyone else think that hes degrading to old people?

dont get me wrong, i LOVE him. but how would u feel if there was some youngn' dressed up as an old man doing crazy dances and everyone laughs at him BECAUSE hes an old man dancing crazy.

ANWAYS...

The Smashing Pumpkins may get back together, which has me really excited. The Tool album i had been so excited for seems to have ceased to exist.

oh yea and my sister got a new puppy that almost everyone falls in love with the second they see it...Can u say:

 haha.

that may have been my longest entry ever.

ps Batman Begins is now my favorite batman movie.