| my idle idols are all worshiping slaves
why i sell out and buy a ride
forget in some happiness finding a dream
a woman and child can they comfort me? dilute
lost in the speech
found truth in words
what was it they told me
fly like a bird you are free
puffing out smoke
i bleed from a lung
lost in the marketing
gold letters among all the verbs
i was a young man among all the masters
but they came to me and showed me the hollow insides..
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putrid pussing neck upon the christmas stand
arguing with brothers to prove i am man
narrow penis tubes creating me and you
narrow minded thoughts separate me and you
asian beauties sleep next to me
while idians massacred in basements
brilliant lights illuminate metal birds
dropping bombs piercing the matter sky
why why why
listen to me
i only speak peace
and love
and sadness
and real
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| paranoid patriots point at un-Americans
chase them down in German made dreams
throwing burning books into mainstreams
injuring our crippled hearts and minds
rewind to times of evil grins making promises
cross eyes
rock back and forth
and the hidden picture is soon revealed
fascist flags are stickered on every SUV
as far as the eye can see
bad boy
your dad is dead
go to the corner and rest your head
linguistically linching your mind
histories new meaning equals cash
do you have enough to make it buy?
to buy the truth?
orchestrated collages of skin
create a new face
that no one can recognize you in
but see the secret smiles
and hear their hollow words
and swastikas pin you to the wall
bleeding out your red white and blue
until your a hollow lizard sucking freedom dry too
through dollar sign eyes we all see free
extinguish all thought
there was never a meaning
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| started a job relaying phone calls for the deaf and hearing impared...not sleeping much.
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| "I am warm on the outside, what people see.
Warm eyes, warm face, warm fucking fake smile,
but inside I am cold all the time, and full of lies.
I am not what I seem to be; I am awful."
the girl's voice remained steady,
and as she spoke now she smiled.
Her pupils were large and mellow and without guile.
"But, then, there's no other way. Is there?
I figured that out a long time ago and made myself like this.
But it really isn't so bad. You get what you want this way.
And everybody is this way to a degree...
But I told him, then it's his responsibility not to listen,
not to believe me anymore. I told him not to trust me.
I warned him. But he forgot as soon as I said it and went right on.
Kept right on truckin'."
"You did what you had to. You did more than you had to.
I don't feel you destroyed your friend.
It seems to me you've been as much destroyed, as much as he.
Only on you it doesn't show. Anyhow there was no choice.
Like you said, you warned him."
there she was, stable and as if forever; then--nothing.
vanished like fire or air, an element of the earth back into the earth.
to mix with the everyone-else people that never ceased to be.
poured out among them.
the evaporated girl.
of transformation.
that comes and goes as she will.
and no one, nothing, can hold on to her.
attempting to net the wind.
it is vain to try and place your hands firmly on one like her.
they are furtive.
shadows which melt away when the equation shifts.
as if they were never really there in the first place.
in love with a phantom authority, a kind of hologram.
through which a normal man could walk, and emerge on the far side, alone.
without ever having gotten a good grip on it--on the girl itself.
much like an amputee still feeling his fingers.
you know there was something there once, but can't remember what.
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